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Went to PD support group this morning. There were several new people couples there. The operative word is "couples." I was struck by the fact that most of the people in the room with PD have caregivers beside them. Only the group facilitator and I do not have spouses. The facilitator was a caregiver until last month when her husband passed away. It's a worrisome thing for me to address--what exactly am I going to do once the PD comes home to rest? Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow--creeps on and keeps coming closer! I look for places of respite and havens of comfort--but  I don't see them on the horizon.

I dreamed last night that I was in a car with HSP (a person I know in the Bay Area). It was foggy and raining like crazy. H is an older man (in his 90s for sure) and was having trouble seeing through the downpour. We kept coming close to running off the side of the road into the ditches that were filled with water. We made it, finally, to a parking area, and started walking toward the set of buildings that were there. As we walked past one place where the water stretched like a lake into the distance, I saw a large animal standing on the water's edge. It was a big lynx or mountain lion. It was watching us as we passed near it--especially some of the smaller children who were walking with our group. For a moment, we walked past a wall that blocked the view out into the water. I pulled us to a stop and we stood against the wall. I thought that if we did not reappear that the creature might ignore us and move on--which is what happened. When I peeked around the wall, I saw the creature walking slowly away from us out into the field of water that had accumulated.

The dream was quite real. It took me a few minutes to retrieve the content, but once I got a few scenes, the rest of the dream flooded back. The puma or mountain lion (it was not a lynx now that I've had a chance to look at images of the two felines) was exceptionally real--if I could have touched it, I know I would have felt its fur.

Grabbed a pizza at O'Connor's on the way home from the PD session, napped for a bit, and went to the fitness center for a round on the circuit machines. Also went by the bank and deposited my IRS refund check--yeah! Tomorrow is dance class time--looking forward to some movement! It was a long weekend without any dancing.