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Here's the broadcast I sent to F&F list today... Summary of week 1 of treatments and in betweens...

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Hi everyone--
Thanks and immense gratefulness for all of your messages of encouragement and best wishes. I did read them all, and reread them when I need a boost. Thanx again to everyone...

Here's an update as of today, Sat. 21---
First week of treatments and times in between went well. M&E had to drive me back and forth to sessions since I didn't feel safe driving myself.

Monday did first treatment and enjoyed a nearly 24 hours of symptom-free time. My symptoms (tremors and shaking) have been exacerbated by me running my own anxiety over the top of everything. I started taking some herbal anti-stress capsules, which have helped moderate the anxieties and thus help moderate the symptoms. Anyway, I came out of the Monday session still and quiet.

The process involves a lot of active visualizations while the practitioner supports a leg/calf/foot and monitors the flows in the channels. The team considers the illness, Rebellious Qi in the Stomach Channel, as an electrical wiring problem that I have to fix by going inside, visualizing blockages, and removing them. The process is light and not stressful, fun and enjoyable--which is the whole point--it's undoing what has been done by me operating out of a place of fear, stress, and disconnection. Anyway, if you want to know more about the process, I really have to point you to their web site, pdrecovery.org, and their write-ups they have there that can be downloaded.

So Monday, M brought me home (which M&E have made so with their generosity) still and quiet. I had a quiet, peaceful afternoon and evening, went to bed and slept really well (which had not been the case for most of the previous week).

Awoke Tues. and stayed symptom-free until in the afternoon. The symptoms started returning and by late evening were back full force. Didn't sleep well Tuesday night. Went to chiropractor on Wed morning and adjustment helped release some of the tensions. Went to the 2nd session on Wed evening. When I walked into the office, I began getting quiet. Session went well and I was still by the end of it. Stillness lasted several hours and symptoms returned, and I didn't sleep well.

Awoke (from little sleep) on Thursday feeling somewhat quiet and peaceful. Symptoms were present, but not so intrusive. Stayed on a fairly even keel all day and into the evening. Went for a hike, rested, ate. Put on a CD with Dominican monks chanting and sat for an hour immersed in the sounds. Went to bed and slept nearly 8 hours.

On Friday, I had two sessions with two new practitioners (Chris was the person who worked on me Mon and Tues. He was very centered, very clear, and obviously effective), Laura and Rebecca. They engaged me and coached me in doing the visualizations, supporting me in the process and encouraging me to explore and have fun, to open up the enjoyment channel...

A lot went on during this week--a lot of processing, of noticing how I am with myself, my discomforts, my thoughts (where they go and what they do or don't do) and so much more. Despite my anxieties (which are being released) and my discomfort (with myself and doing what I need to do), this past week was much better than the previous hell-week, and makes me hopeful and able to get a glimpse of what's going to be possible--restored health and happiness.

Today, I went to a restorative yoga class--I was weak in spots, but I made it to the final pose--shivasana. It felt wonderful!

I've said this before, but I feel I need to say it again--my writing, when I reread it, sounds as if I have everything together and am strong and solid... Believe me, it is more like the opposite--I have nothing together even in the smallest way, and I am still feeling fragile and weakened from all of this...

I am recovering "myself" and it is taking time... So please keep sending me messages, even if I don't reply, and forgive me for not burning up the phone wires... I never was good at that before all this and it's somewhat of a problem for me to do it now...

Love and blessings to everyone -- to all of you -- and to the world... I will send out another update as things unfold... I am grateful to know each of you...