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Been a long good day... Slept nearly 8 hours last night. The mini-ritual I set up (an hour of quiet sitting with a CD of monks chanting) let me sleep the night away. So I was in good shape for the sessions today.

Had two--one with Laura and one with Rebecca. Will write out a summary of the first week of sessions tomorrow to both broadcast and post. In brief, both team members coached me through a lot of active visualizations. The content dealt with my body, energy flows therein, blockages, clearing blockages by me making choices. It was fun, enjoyable, much better than sitting alone and obsessing on the symptoms or my anxieties. It was a lot of work and was difficult sometimes when the tremor would start happening. It was sometimes surprising and sometimes deflating as to what my mind/ego/thoughts would jump to in seeing things, moving energy, and dealing with blockages.

Both of them gave me similar suggestions -- go slow, take my time, don't rush the process, do the best that I can do with whatever effort I can do it right now, don't push the river. Know, in my heart (soul, mind, being) that the universe has created this opportunity for me to grow, learn, and find peace, and that everything I need is available to me--trust, trust, trust.

Rebecca tested me (kinesiology) for contra-indications for the supplements (anti-stress) that I've been taking. She gave a thumbs up on continuing to use them. Sigh of relief! They are helping moderate the anxiety overlays I've been running. Laura asked me a tough question (in the spirit of helping me unravel my anxieties--What's my worst fear?

I'm still digging my way into the heart of that question. It's why this whole process has appeared in front of me--to find an answer and in so doing let go of whatever fear is keeping me from fully expressing who I am. To look for answers in the joys of life, not the darkness.

I'm seemingly starting to babel. Time to turn on the monks!