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Saw one PDTeam person today and session was informative and fun... He confirmed that I appear to have Rebellious Qi in the Stomach Channel... Chris, the practitioner, was clear and forthcoming about the procedures... And the implications of doing the treatment--I can't go back... Either I proceed with the treatments or I take the drugs, but I will not be able to do both--it's an either or situation. The treatments flip the system into a dopamine-producing mode, which reacts badly with taking the drugs, even if the treatments don't fully work--which they can do so because of my own belief systems, attitudes, etc...

It's a complex decision. Right now, I feel clear and somewhat well--like I seem to be able to get to nearly everyday--by taking the anti-stress supplements and eating during the rest of the day and into the evening... I realize that there's a lot of repeated conditioning happening--I managed to get quiet in the afternoons a few times and now I do it regularly. Have to transfer that conditioning into the other times when I'm not so quiet.

Restoring my dopamine system to working order is the path to no tremors. Have to love my tremors while they are here. Have another session on Wed and two more on Friday... Fortunately, Marilyn is stepping in to manage the logistics (plus cooking etc.)... My system wants to go into a tailspin when confronted with making decisions and organizing things.

He encouraged me to use the Gratitude Meditation a lot--just sit and think of all the things I have to be grateful for--it's a dopamine-producing activity... I am grateful for all of you who are supporting me... I am grateful for Marilyn and Ellis... I am grateful for my family... the list is quite long...

So was a good day... I learned more about myself and about my rebellious Qi... Planning on sleeping tonight... Going to make that part of the conditioning...