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Had a sort of blah day. Everything seemed to be dull and without a lot of purpose or meaning for me. I keep expecting to wake up in the morning and be in some kind of "health bubble." Don't know where this thought comes from, or why it even manifests.

Instead, there's Qigong, vitamins and juice, oatmeal, a walk (which was long route and very nice), and on into the day and its rituals. Eventually, it's nearly bedtime once again and then a repeat/replay/rewind.

If it's not obvious, I am in a funky state this day and evening. At least it's been temperate today--didn't use the heater all day!

Went to the hardware store to pick up some miscellaneous items. When I was shopping, I experienced some moments of anxiety. I noted them and put them aside so I could get what I came for and leave. Now, I feel like I need to look at those feelings and situations more completely. Really let myself feel the anxiousness and see what happens to me, to my state of being. Somehow, not letting those feelings in fully seems to require more energy.

I'm probably not making much sense tonight. I'm tired (even though I did rest some today) and want to go to bed early. Good dreams! (I've been dreaming, but I've not been recalling them when I awaken. Perhaps time to return to recording my dream notes.)