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Hot one, today! Went from a pleasant morning to a scorching afternoon without a lot of relief from the winds. I managed to sleep/rest some in the morning before the heat descended.

Been waiting to see if my constant and steady diet (fruit/dairy) is going to make a difference in my energy levels. I spoke with one of the men's team members last night, one that had disappeared several months ago while dealing with a severe illness. His voice, last night, was back to full volume--he sounded really clear and healthy. It shocked me to hear the timbre in his voice.

I admit I felt jealous of his good fortune. If him, why not me? Of course, he's put in the work to make it happen--125 days, he said, of being sober and off the addictive medications they had him on. He sounded recovered and whole. Can't wait to see him later this week. His recovery gave me hope along with a jealous twinge. I too wish to be recovered and to not be weak and whirling in small circles.

I intend to recover! What else do I need to be doing to make that my reality? I ask the universe for guidance and direction!