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July 1. Another month has expired!

Continuing with small portions of fruit and dairy products, but losing traction in the energy department. Starting to feel hungry despite nearly continuous infusions of food. May have to make a protein drink in the morrow to see if that helps fill the gap. Still reluctant to reintroduce any bulky food items, but may have to do so in a staged fashion. The thing I can't do is just start eating everything in any order. I've proven what results that produces.

Today had fruit (banana, apple, figs, papaya, juices) mixed with dairy (cheeses, cottage cheeses, kefir, yogurt) and both tapioca and rice puddings. Had at least six servings of stuff--one about every two hours starting around 9am. Everything was tasty (figs and cheeses), but finding that I want to eat even more.

Picked up some new books from the library today. Lance Armstrong's newest book, a book by a non-religious person that examines the call to religious life, and a set of short stories by an Israeli writer (a set of stories about people/places called A Good Place for the Night).

All have been engaging. I read a hunk of each one since I picked them up this afternoon.

I got up and did my rituals this morning including going for a walk. Just was not as energetic as yesterday (fairly) or the day before (greatly). I realize that what happened Thursday was a "peak" and that everything would settle back some, but I couldn't help but hope for an even longer period of feeling "right."

But, it was a glimpse into what it will be like when the state sustains. There is hope!

There was a statement in Armstrong's book to the effect that the experience of pain is transitory--quitting is forever! I am not in great pain, more like great discomfort--mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Last Thursday, I experienced not having the discomfort for quite some time. May that condition become my permanent reality!