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Warmed up today! Hotness everywhere. Too hot to sleep.

Awoke feeling fairly good. After lunch, symptoms started creeping into awareness. Was in fairly good state last night. Finished the Buddhist fiction anthologies. Great set of stories. Unique!

Neighbor's cat is parked outside my door. Asking for its dinner, I suppose. Or complaining about the heat--or both.

Last night, as I went to bed, I could get a sense of what it would be like to be past this state of low energy. I could envision myself waking up, still having the surge of energy, and ready to charge onward with life. There was still some of that feeling when I awoke, but a few hours into the day and I was horizontal once again. Then I started spiralling away.

Has to be some way to shift all of this. I've been working a lot this past few days with the Hong-Sao breathwork. It should be energizing me, but I'm not noticing a lot of that. Perhaps I'm not doing it correctly--although I am waking up feeling a bit more energetic. Just doesn't persist! (Well, nothing does!)

I feel like I've been climbing a sheer wall with few places of purchase. I feel like I'm near the lip of the wall, but can't find a suitable hold to get me over the top. Can't hang there either. Have to make a move! But what? How? Let there be light on all of this! Let it be now!