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Feeling a bit of grace period right now so thought I'd post for the day. Didn't sleep much last night. After falling asleep around 10:30pm, awoke at midnight. Managed to get back to sleep then and awoke again around 4am. Couldn't get back to sleep--tossed and turned until I got up around 7am. Couple of short naps today--that's it!

Managed to write checks for my bills (not an easy task anymore--hands and pens don't work well together now. Went out to mail them, change library books, shop and gas the truck--and that was it for the day! Not driving all that well--good that I didn't try and go to SC today.

I'm definitely experiencing a lot of anxiety. Spent most of the day thinking calming thoughts. Worked to some degree. Waiting for the magical Chinese remedy to arrive. I noticed today how one stray negative thought can trigger a whole burst of symptoms (shaking, feeling tight, cogfog, etc.). Happens in an instant. Also noticed the moment when a symptom clears--feels so good.

I feel like I'm in some new phase of the recovery process--a testing phase, a challenging phase. Just hope I'm up to the tasks. It's like a logjam of issues have accumulated, which is adding to the overwhelm. If I can manage to unjam a few items, perhaps the rest will let go as well. But I need some good sleep. I'm starting to run a deficit and that's not working.

Dreamed last night (despite the short sleep), but lost the content in the shuffle. They were interesting that's all I remember. Here's to a good night's slumber!