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Slept last night! Still awoke early, but slept through until then. The ativan quieted me down and let me relax. Awoke though with shaking and a load of cognitive fog. Did my laundry. Didn't take any more ativan today--didn't want to unless I had to do so. Still experiencing anxiety, but not as intense as yesterday.

Have acupressure session in the morning and a meeting with the neurologist in the afternoon. He'll review where we are and we'll go from there. I'm still shaking, have anxiety, and feel weak. I'll probably see my PCP soon to deal with the body/food issues.

I canceled a session with Rebecca on Friday. I'm uncomfortable driving over to SC and back feeling how I feel. Until I feel OK about driving that route/distance, I'll have to figure out some other way of getting there. There is a bus, but it would take forever. Having someone drive me is impractical. Teleportation! That would be nice!

I feel like I'm at a junction point in this whole process. I've been at it for two years. Two roads diverged in a yellow wood--I memorized that poem after overhearing a couple discussing whether it was a yellow wood or not. Turns out that it's mentioned twice in the poem--once with yellow and once without a color attribute. The things we put in our brains!

Tonight has seen a bit of the evening grace period--I can still get quiet! Not yet quiet enough it seems, but a stillness all the same. Time to fly!