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Oh, what a difference a little white pill makes! I took myself to urgent care this afternoon. I complained of anxiety and feeling weak. They did an exam, drew some blood (which looked normal across the board), and gave me a tiny crumb of a pill--Ativan. Anxiety blew away like a cloud and tremor eased. I started feeling hungry--which I have not been feeling. They gave me a couple more doses for tomorrow or whenever the anxiety reappears. He encouraged me to schedule an appointment with my PCP and go on from there.

These few hours have been like day and night! The stuff is addictive and is on the no-no list of the recovery group. Will see how I sleep tonight--hopefully well--and can go from there. I don't have enough to throw things off track--in fact, it threw things back on track. We shall see said the glow worm!

What drove me to the clinic was the anxiety--I couldn't handle any more of its burning its way through my brain. I was becoming paralyzed by the circular forces--tremor and anxiety, anxiety and tremor, anxiety and weakness, weakness and anxiety, things that need doing and anxiety, and anxiety and things to be done.

I'm still shaking some, but at a much lower level. I'm having quiet spaces and I nodded off to sleep a little while ago. My appetite returneth! All with a tiny pill--a pharmaceutical crumb.

People in urgent care were great! Really felt looked after. So, a merry Xmas to all and to all a good night! May we all sleep well and deep!