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Made it to movement class today. Also had a tuina session. Also slept a lot and ate a lot. I'm feeling more and more hungry. Have (over the past week) been eating more food than I've been doing. I notice that I feel more alert and energized with more food. Have not been eating any sugars to speak of and that has produced a noticeable effect. Have missed being in class this week. Will get to weight training class tomorrow and go from there. The whole episode with my upset bowels (the energy and time I spent dealing with it) left me somewhat bummed and missing movement classes didn't help. I have a stack of undone things. I keep thinking that I'll get to them, handle them, but I can't seem to make any headway in that area. I keep saying (to myself) when I get better. But then something comes along (like the recent bowel upset) that eats up my energy reserves.

Whine, whine, whine! Bitch, bitch, bitch! Of what good is there from doing that? I've got to move on with everything. Make room for somehow doing more and clearing up the chaos! There has to be a way! There has to be one!