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PD dance and resistance training today. Was feeling a bit slow from yesterday's Core and More class but today's classes smoothed everything out. I got several comments today about how well I look and move. Dance instructor offered to find out what I might do in terms of a performance piece! Scary thought but also energizing! She remarked on my presence and fluidity. MS related the several questions asked about me at the memorial service (Who is that handsome person?). I've not gotten much worse over the past four years--in fact, I may have gotten better. Symptoms are still moderate as long as I'm moving. I don't have a lot of stamina in that I complete classes and usually collapse afterward. But I can make it through each class seemingly well. It's just afterward that I often feel the need to rest or sleep.

I'm still foggy and seem to be cognitively slow and not as sharp as I once was. I think that stress has a lot to do with those conditions. Stress from the illness, concerning its implications, and my inner thoughts about how it is all going to end! Almost every day now, I seem to notice someone who is at some stage of the illness. Some are more dependent than others, but many still keep on going in whatever way they can. I can't help but look at them and wonder why I can't seem to do more than I do. Is a mystery, but one whose revelation I eagerly await! Onward into the darkness! Reaching for the sun!