1624-1623

Yesterday was spent doing small tasks--and ending with a "family" meal (of relatives and friends). There were around 10 adults and 4 kids. Daughter prepared a full meal--the son-in-law's mother brought a cake and his sister brought an appetizer. Good solid food--ate a lot!

I went to the PD support group today--missed RSB class to do so. But it felt good to go there--and the RSB owner/coach gave a presentation of what RSB is all about. There were 20+ people at the meeting--and we didn't get much of chance to share since the RSB talk went for quite some time. There is a lot of interest in the RSB activity--and what it can do for someone with PD.

I'll see my PCP tomorrow--can being him up to speed on what he triggered (fortunately) when he noticed the lump on my neck last September. If he hadn't noticed it--I'd probably still be oblivious that it was there and what it was doing.

I noticed that I missed going to RSB today--in order to do to PD group. I could try and make it up by going to the evening class--but I'm not up for doing that just yet. My biggest worry/concern is with the issues identified in Friday's colonoscopy--the issues of there being a growth in the area of the cecum and what that implies for dealing with it. I am so tired of having to deal with everything in my life through my the filter of my health--filtering or relating everything I do as to what it means in terms of my health or the need for medical intervention.

I try to rationalize what I'm doing by assuming that it is good to fix those any problems now--rather than having to do it later when I might lose my insurance or such. I spent 65 years not paying a lot of attention to physical health problems--and have now spent the past 13 years doing nothing but paying attention to them. I guess I should be happy that I had such a long period of unconcern--it's just that I would like the remainder of my time to be more 65ish than 13ish. What can I do to make that happen--try and fix what is obviously broken now and keep striving to get back into 65ish mode.