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Qigong. I've decided to take some classes in that discipline. There's something attractive about the movement and meditation in combination. There's a teacher at the yoga center. I'll do a class tomorrow. He's also teaching a class through the rec center starting in July. I like what I've read about the practice. I think it's exactly what I need given my current issues.

The ayurvedic work seems a little off base for me and not what I can afford right now. The combination of movement, patterns, and breath feels like where I need to put my attention.

I'm resting, reading, sleeping and generally taking it easy for now. I'm settling back into a somewhat quiet space, a place of stillness and no tension. Tension is still out there or around. I'm choosing to not be in that state if I can be so.

When I'm reading, I seem to be in a stabile place, a place of stillness. Interaction, moving about where there are others, brings up tension, anxiety, physical sensations, and so forth. Also, I experience some of those same symptoms when there are changes or unexpected situations. Like just now as I turned on the computer. The DSL signal strength was low or not there. My first reaction was a physical sensation of angst. My chest tightened, my stomach flipped, and I wanted to scream.

Also having difficulty with having my text insertion point staying on the screen where I'm typing. The focus keeps popping around the text window, triggered by me making ghost touches on the touchpad. My thumb is lightly touching the pad as I hit the keys.

What a set of pitiful travails. Is my life not involved with anything more important?

Reading a set of short stories edited by J.C. Oates. Eclectic collection written by several famous authors/writers. A case study in how to write brilliantly.

Stopped by L's for a brief visit. She had finished painting out the bedroom. House is in a total state of chaos. She starts her new job tomorrow. Onward and upward.

I awoke early but cat napped for a few hours and then began to move. No naps today. Ran some errands, ate a sandwich for lunch/breakfast and plan to take a walk in a few hours. Just another slow and silly day. Not much accomplished. DragonMan has landed in Oregon. Got an email chronicling the first day of relocation. Sounds like he's landing in a sweet place. I envy him having made the move, finding a place and settling in.

Maybe after a few Qigong (chi kung) sessions I too will become mobile and movable. Who knows! Dreams will light the way. Had dreams last night, but lost them in the awakenings that I cycled through.

Just made an adjustment to the trackpad settings. Turned off the ability to use the pad as a click/drag control. So it now ignores random touchings that were moving the focus about the screen. Where there's a feature there's a checkbox. Verily!