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Dream | less | again | or some universe where that's what's happening. I'm certain that I dreamed some dreams, but they just vaporized when I awoke. Too bad, I was expecting a quantum dream last night.

Awoke fairly early and did a Qigong session. Then went and had a hearty breakfast and did my laundry. Shakes and tremors in the background still, but not like yesterday's temblors. Clouds starting to darken the sky. This morning was bright and sunny, but now the storm fronts are moving in. Supposed to rain tonight.

Got a note from an ex-wife (one of the many--actually only 3) in reply to my health update broadcast. Seems she is on the move--divorcing her 4th (!!??) husband, changing her name, and moving to the East Coast. Reinvent yourself! I guess so!

I nearly forgot my 3PM medication--first time that's happened. Up until now, I've been really punctual. But, I was busy and the time slipped by. Only a half hour off (not a big deal), but definitely a variation of schedule. At the time my symptoms were fairly light and a couple of spasms kicked in, which reminded me that I hadn't taken anything.

Been still and quiet this afternoon. Morning was a bit jumbled what with laundromats and such. Back here this afternoon, with the rains looming, I found a quiet space, a stillness space.

I realized that I'm going to do better with this shaking issue if I can be doing something physical--something active that involves my whole body--something that keeps me moving, lifting, shaking off the symptoms, so to speak. May have to resort to a spa, but I'm going to investigate options. I don't really need to be paid; I just need to be engaged. Outdoors would be ideal. Hmmmm!
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Men's team meeting was lightly attended. RS's wife was rear-ended on the freeway. He had to go pick her up and deal with the car. RM, MD and I met and had dinner. Symptoms went quiet during most of the evening. Picked up some when we had to stand outside in the cold to finish up. But, for the most part, they are reduced. I ate well today (good breakfast and dinner), did Qigong, meditated before dinner, got out and about, met/interacted with people. Some lessons in all of that stuff.

Right now, feel like I could do anything. I'm clear, relaxed, not having spasms, and energized. When I feel like I do now, I feel "normal" and like there's nothing wrong with me--contrasted to yesterday's period of feeling like I was ill, out of balance, buzzy, and filled with dread. Quite a contrasted set of experiences. What will tomorrow bring? Something different no doubt.

MD said that tonight regarding his two sons, the twins. How each day is a totally different set of events. Something new everyday--no repeats. True for everyone--some of us just try for reruns anyway. Have to give that up. Completely.