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Went to bed late, but slept well. Tremor was quiet, like it has been several times after working with Chris. Had a sleepy day--got up later than normal and did some of the practices, but fell asleep after breakfast. Taking a nap during the day has usually not happened. I've rested, but never slept. First time for everything. Went out after lunch and walked 2.5 miles again today, then came back and rested. Feeling OK, just feeling like sleeping. I consider that a good sign--the healing power of sleep.

Part of my walk was in the redwoods. Like walking in a cathedral. A bit cool and damp, but powerful. I prayed as I walked. Each time I walked into a sunlit area, it felt like I was entering an energy zone, filled with light and grace. I visualized myself as being in full health as I walked into those zones.

Tomorrow may be a bit like a fire drill. Everyone has to be somewhere in the morning. So, E will have to drop me off and go to his meeting and come back for me. It'll be early in the morning so we'll have to leave when we normally awaken and may hit some traffic. Life in the life lane!

Feeling wound up today. Like a clock. I'm feeling anxious. About what? Nothing precise comes to mind. Most likely some anxiety over ending these four weeks and feeling like I don't know what's next, even though I do know. More of the same, but with less support and more personal responsibility. A state of being that I've been avoiding. I am I, Don Quixote! Windmills beware!

M will be leaving to go way north (Washington) in March. I guess E will be here alone, which he will enjoy--as long as he remembers to eat. He's blessed with something like zero appetite--he only eats when he's reminded to do so. He's rail thin and needs to maintain his weight, but being home alone won't make that easy.

Have to ring off early tonight and get things together for tomorrow since we'll be up and out so early. Will be working with Janice tomorrow, then two more sessions on Friday and that will conclude this introductory set of treatments. I'm in a much different state of mind when contrasted with three or four weeks ago. I'm also in some of the same states of mind as back then (or from years past) and that causes me concern and stirs up the anxieties.

Trust, trust, trust! And let go of all expectations! Let them be, let them be!