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Here's the week #3 summary for my activities with the PDRecovery team for the past week. This information was also distributed to the F&F list in an email, in case you're getting both feeds... Was a good week overall... Making progress--changing paradigms.
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Week #3 took some interesting twists and turns (literally and figuratively) and introduced some new interventions (acupuncture) as part of the treatment sessions. I'm encountering, for me, many new parts and pieces of the illness puzzle. What happened a week ago (or even a day ago) seems like it happened a year ago. Time is being stretched and warped.

I'm continuing to drive--a decision that I made over a week ago when I was confronted with the question of whether I wanted to be the poster person for the illness. The shock I felt when I took in that question has galvanized me to get well, to recover, and to not let this illness dictate my conditions. Last Sunday, I drove back over the hill to Palo Alto. It was difficult, but I made it and have been mobile since--driving myself to sessions and around the area.

When I drove to Palo Alto last Sunday, I had a moment's experience that indicates where I am headed. I experienced a moment of feeling myself to be in perfect health. It was like a window opening and then closing, but in that moment it was open I knew what health felt like, for me.

To back up that experience, after Monday's session with Chris, I came away with an overall feeling of joy that opened up for me that afternoon and evening. My energy levels were high enough for me to get into a discussion with E regarding his computer systems and networks. I could follow the conversation, intersperse suggestions, and didn't experience the "brain burn" I would have felt a week earlier if we were to try and talk about those technical issues. Not unexpectedly, I let the energy wave keep me up too long and I had trouble sleeping that night.

There were many details of what Chris and I did during Monday's session. For more detail, please look at the blog (laranstar.blogspot.com), the 1/30 entry (#5957). Sorry to point you off to another document, but the amount of detail that took place would overwhelm this "short" summary note.

Tuesday came and went in soft haze. I rented the Waking Ned Devine (got the title correct finally) DVD and watched it. I was feeling energized, but somewhat foggy. I was feeling like doing something, but not sure just what. I did some exercise, some yoga, some prayer, some talking to my body, went for a walk, drove into town, and rested.

Wednesday had session with Janice. Imagine if you will, someone holding my foot/leg, expounding a dissertation on the Lord's Prayer, inserting two acupuncture needles in my left leg and right hand to test where the channels were flowing, having me twirl my feet (which I was able to do with minimal cogwheeling), walking and noticing my coordinated arm movements. I did a lot of work in the session. Got home tired as if I'd been doing physical labor.

Thursday went about like Tuesday without a movie. M had one of her babysitting charges here for part of the day. I was noticing how much an 18-month old uses her feet and how flexible they are--like hands in many ways. Unlike my feet that are tight and stiff (but getting better daily).

Friday I was back with the dynamic duo (Laura and Rebecca). Laura put 15 acupuncture needles in two injury points in my right hand. When all was said and done, I experienced some pain and release in my right hand. We did a lot of work and covered a lot of ground in her two hours. The session left me energized but ungrounded. I felt a lot of energy coursing through my system. By the time I got to Rebecca's, I was bouncing around, energetically.

Rebecca worked with me to integrate what Laura had initiated. Experienced a lot of spontaneous physical movements while working with Rebecca, a lot of release and energy activity. It was a powerful session that brought me to a balance point at the end of two hours.

Unfortunately, I disturbed my own balance later in the evening. I was reheating some food for dinner and failed to shut off one of the gas burners. M&E went dancing. I sat up for a few hours and then went to bed. M&E returned a few hours later to a kitchen area filled with gas. They had to open the doors and windows to air the place out. Thank the Father they caught it in time. It could have sparked an explosion and a fire--not a good thing.

Today was peaceful, quiet and still. I went to yoga class, which feels comfortable now that I've been there a few times. Looking forward to a good night's rest tonight. Picked up a couple more DVDs with comedy movies.

I began to wrestle this week with the issues of what's next. I'll be doing my last full week of sessions (4) next week and will then reduce the weekly treatments and take on more of the work and practice by myself. Then, again, do the same for the third month and go on a maintenance schedule with some member(s) of the team. But all of that points the way to having to make some decisions regarding where to rent a place, and so forth. At least, I don't seem to be getting anxious as I think of these options. That's the good news!

I believe that I am better for doing what I've done so far. I believe that I can fully recover from this illness and regain my original health (not just my relatively healthy self, but the full health that I've once known and have experienced), and will know how to maintain that state of being. So the 3rd week went well (although it was a little prickly). Looking forward to the 4th and beyond to going dancing once again, and again, and again!