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Hot today, but not quite as warm as yesterday. Still, a heavy heat hangs all around and slows the movements, sucks the energies before they sprout.

3rd day of mega-protein intake. Tomorrow is the midpoint, the cusp. Feeling weak despite what I'm ingesting. This phase is the detox segment and maybe toxins are being taken. Perhaps that is the reason for the sense of weakness.

Waiting for the coolness of evening once again. Last night, I fell asleep in my chair with the cooling breezes wafting across me. I awoke about midnight and transferred to the bedroom. Could have slept in the chair all night if it had been comfortable.

My tremor keeps resurrecting and making itself noticeable. Been saying a healing mantra asking the Buddha of Compassion to take away my illness, please! I'm feeling frustrated with getting weaker and uncovering all manner of related ailments and dis-ease. Nearly four months here in this place and I feel like I've been sliding backwards. My early progress has been overtaken by my continued slippage. I know that all of this is not unexpected, but I still ache for some relief, some hint of a turnaround. Patience! Patience! Patience!

Into the heat of the night! Into the dream worlds! Into that space between being awake and falling asleep--the universal mind! Happy Father's Day in the morrow!