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Had a treatment with Rebecca today. She worked with the lymph system since she had just completed a workshop on the procedure. Seemed to go well. I felt really clear at the end of the treatment--sort of "awake" and alert.

The procedure is supposed to have lasting effects for 2-3 days. Will see what happens. I got somewhat tired after getting home, which can happen since working with the lymph system can release a lot of toxins.

Her reading of my progress is that I'm well ahead of where most people are given the amount of time I've been in the process. She feels that I'm much further along than many clients who are/were at the same stage that I am at. I don't have her perspective so it just feels like it's taking forever, to me. It's all relative. I guess there are others who feel, to them, that it's taking them forever, and that might be happening in their situations.

So I take heart in hearing her assessment and hope my "forever" is shorter than what it seems like.

I've gained back about 8 pounds--I'm currently at 155! That's encouraging news. I don't know how much of it is muscle, but it's still good to know that I've stopped shrinking.

Anyway, it was a good day despite the tule fog that blanketed everything this morning. When I first looked out, I thought my vision was screwed up. Took a moment to see that it was fog all the way to the ground.

I was musing last night, I believe, about the 8 months I've been in this apartment and what I've been doing. I've spent nearly 6,000 hours doing my rituals and so forth over the past 8 months. It's been 24 hours a day since sleeping, eating, and such all were included in the process. I've walked nearly 300 miles during this period of time. I've eaten perhaps 500 pounds of food. I've slept a lot. I've done my Qigong exercises nearly 300 times. I've meditated, read numerous books (thousands of pages), and logged a fair amount of time on the web.

Lots of statistics! And I still feel like it's been forever when it's only been 8 months. Of course, there were the periods of time BA (before apartment)--a total of over 2 years dealing with everything. Still not forever, but starting to get there (for me). May a full recovery come soon. May that be my reality!