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It's been a chunky day. Keep feeling like resting/napping. Still bubbling some from yesterday's treatment, but that's not the total reason for the way I feel today. I'm churning about in the waves kicked up in yesterday's session. Questions of what it is I am doing (or not doing) and what changes to make that will create better results. Habits! I am a creature of habits--I try and codify everything (diet, schedule, way I sleep, and so forth)--turn them into formulas. Nothing works that way. It all starts unraveling and creating loose threads that don't hold anything together.

I had one great moment today though! I stopped by the donut shop after going to my mail box this morning. There was a man there that I know. His son used our computers in a project we did a long time ago, and went on to do some successful things with Amazon.com. The man always remarks on that event each time we meet. The last time I saw him, I'm sure I'd told him of my diagnosis. It was clear today that he wasn't thinking about our last conversation, and I didn't feel like bringing the subject up this time. I had just finished some affirmations regarding my habits and was at a still point.

I interacted with him as my "clear" self. It felt great to do so! I was aware of the fork in the conversational road and chose the alternate route. It was like I took a quick step in the direction of not being my symptoms. It was an energizing interaction.

So one of the tools Chris gave me yesterday has already worked. Every moment brings up an opportunity to make such choices--just have to notice and act.

Like I said though, I'm still going through waves of wanting to rest/sleep today. Have done some as the day unfolded. Will no doubt do more. Don't recall any dreams from last night. Seems like I dreamed something important, but no memory of what it was about. May even be a residual memory of the previous night's mega-dream. There will be more tonight!