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Had two servings of CALM ES yesterday (2pm and 6pm) and a dose of the Flower Remedy (8pm). Tried going to sleep around 10:30pm. Had trouble falling asleep--in fact was wide awake (felt calm but was shaking a lot). Finally fell asleep but woke up just after midnight. Went back to sleep (1am) and awoke again around 4am with shaking. Tried to go back to sleep, but finally got up and poured a cup of warm water to see if that settles things down. Feeling wide awake. Will try and lie down after drinking the water. I don't feel all that anxious, but I'm concerned about the shaking (which is a bit less if I'm not lying down) and the lack of good sleep.

I'll brew up some more CALM ES around 7am and do a dose of flowers around 9am.

Warm glass of water around 6am helped me get about another hour of sleep. Got up and brewed a cup of CALM ES and had breakfast (cereal, banana, fruit, nuts, milk). Things seemed to quiet a bit, but still felt jittery and shaky. Took the flower remedy around 9am and things seemed to quiet slightly. Began to feel more anxious around 11am and took another CALM ES. Quieted some and had lunch (lentil soup and wheat crackers). Took a flower remedy around 1pm. Things quieted some and I catnapped for about 20 minutes around 2pm. Woke up with shaking. Will do another CALM ES around 3pm and a 3rd flower remedy around 5pm. Will have a snack (nuts or chocolate milk) around 4pm and dinner around 6pm (fruit and yogurt or more lentil soup). That should put me into my daily "grace" period (when things quiet down before going to bed--had such a period last night before the wakefulness set in). Will do another CALM ES before bed when it seems time to do so.

The above represents many snap shots of this morning/early afternoon instances. It doesn't reflect the minute-by-minute discomfort/distracted time I'm spending when things are not quiet (not quiet is about 90% of the time). I'm feeling really dysfunctional--I'm going to need some kind of assistance. I'm really bummed out!

Now in a somewhat grace period. Had dinner (soup) and it isn't seeming to cause problems. Rebecca wants to do more testing and put together a Pulse Test survey. I think I need to do an intestinal rebuild a la the Guts and Glory book/protocols--but I'll need help--so I've got to find some, soon! Need to get off the computer--it's helping create some of the chaos I'm experiencing! Crap!