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Happy Summer! Still feels more Fall-like outdoors, but the sunshine is coming.

Discovered a dismaying fact today--I now don't make enough money to qualify for many of the BMR rental housing units. Seems that you have to be relatively poor, but not really poor. They have both maximum and minimum income requirements. My SS income is below, way below, most of the minimums. Hmmm. Will be investigating more tomorrow when I go to one of the places and apply to get on the waiting list. Hmmmm.

Bumped into an old friend today and he put me on the trail of the BMR units. He has a daughter that has a rare genetic disease (perhaps all diseases are genetic, at the core) whereby she ages faster than the clock. She's now 4+ years old, but more like a 100 years old in terms of her body's aging. He's an incredible example of someone who's had his share of trauma and tragedy, and come through it sane and well balanced.

http://www.sophiasgarden.org/

My session with the chiropractor was deep today. Experienced a lot of release. The session was with a practitioner who was subbing for the regular doctor. For whatever reasons, I found I was releasing a lot of stuff that I don't normally feel myself let go of. I was on the table for over an hour. Lots of Qi involved--both excess and deficit amounts. Felt really balanced when I got up from the session.

Dreams last night were very detailed. One whole sequence had me designing science laboratory experiments. I would design an experiment and then turn it over to a pair of lab students to perform. There was some reason I was creating everything from scratch. We were not doing standard chemical lab experiments. We were working on some new techniques and strategies so we had to come up with unique protocols.

Day has been somewhat of a daze. The chiropractor said that I might need to rest given what happened during my session. I took a short nap, but channeled a lot of the energy into looking into the housing situation. To the point of blurriness or beyond. Walked downtown tonight to help shake off the hours of sitting. Legs felt draggy, heavy and hard to keep moving. But, the overall effects of the walking was positive. Feel energized now, energized and awake.

Realized that I have two things of focus on my plate--Qigong (health) and finding a place to live around here. In both cases, I will have to be persistent. They both will require attention and focus.

Lots of things/thoughts rattling around inside of me tonight. Full moon energies pulling at my psyche, tugging at my dreams. I feel clearer tonight than I've been in a while. Also feel like breaking loose and doing something tangential to my regular patterns. Perhaps head for the beach on Wednesday morning--not tomorrow since the wait list thing has to happen in the morning. But, I'm wanting to do something. Old energies arising and dark days coming to an end again. May it be so, so be it.

Feeling like I want to eat a lot more food than I'm eating. No need to do so, but cravings are there. Today, my friend also remarked on how I look depleted. He spoke of a chelation process that helps remove toxins from the system. He pointed me to a physician who has pioneered in this field, Garry Gordon. Did some preliminary research on his site. It was scary to look at all of the supplements he takes each day. Enough to make him rattle when he walks. Too much for me and the costs look prohibitive. I reordered my Brain Sustain NeuroActives instead.

I'm expecting Qigong to clear my pathways as time unfolds. We shall see. Time to read some more on this topic and perhaps a few of the O. Henry 2003 prize stories. Always a lot to be read as my head nods toward the bed. Wonder what my dream labs have in store tonight?