6183

Back from breakfast and my morning pre-ramble. Talked with LL this morning. Nice to hear from her. Told her of some of my various turmoils. We both are awaiting clarity--the clearing vision.

Felt really good last night as I went to bed. I attribute it to the Qigong session. I was awake and clear; I was able to focus and read quite a bit about Qigong before retiring. Came across a retreat scheduled over my birthday weekend. Will have to make the decision soon if I plan to go. My soul feels called to go and it would be a fitting birthday present to the self.

Dreams last night of a crowd of people like at a rock concert. Everyone was dressed in outfits that looked like retro-hell's angels costumes. My mother was there and she was decked out in a leather suit. I kept asking her what she was doing, but she just laughed and ignored me. The whole scene was chaotic and dark. There was music playing, but not loudly or at full amplification.

There was a second dream that dealt with lots of people as well, but on the city streets. People were waiting everywhere for the arrival of buses. It was like we were all supposed to go somewhere on the buses. People were getting impatient. There was a feeling of darkness about everything in this dream as well.

I awoke and tried to recall some of the Qigong exercises. I remembered some, but not all. So my practice was not truly complete, but it still felt good to do what I recalled. I need to go by the rec center and sign up for the coming class. Have several things I need to get out and get done. Fastrak check (cancel and replace? It seems to have been lost.), class sign ups, laundry, eat something that will hold me over through dance tonight, and other miscellaneous meanderings.

May have to take a nap this afternoon. Energy level seems a little lower than yesterday evening's state. Breakfast was a high-carbo feast of French Toast so my blood sugar has taken a hit. But, the dish was really tasty. Peninsula Creamery classic dish.

Sent off a note to LS that she could use me for a reference. She's interviewing at Netflix. Looks like a cool job. Hope she gets it.

Getting close to finishing up the Oates short story collection that she edited. The stories do build as she predicted in the forward. The later stories, also as she predicted, are evoking strong sentiments (plus and minus). As the stories get more strange, they also get more fantastic, which helps the reading--at least for me. Strange and real would be more problematical, I think.

Looking forward to getting Jahnke's book on Qi and Murakami's Kafka book. Both are starting to get off the waiting lists at the library.

So I await the wisdom of the universe. May it pour forth upon me and drown me in its clarity and joy. May it be so for everyone.