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Tried Qigong class today. Feels like a fit. Lots of breathing, movement, centering, and meditation moments. Regular instructor was not there today. Substitute was good, but I bet the regular teacher is really good. Small class, only five people. Looking forward to more. Will do some reading in the area and see what might be there for me.

Got in to see the doctor today. Conclusion--nothing. Have been given a referral to Dr. Lock, a neurologist. He was the one I saw several months back. Good news--no sign of a stroke. The aphasia is present, but not related to a stroke. Doctor made a clear case for why not--if it were a stroke, it would be persistent. I wouldn't be able to correct the problem by focusing. It wouldn't go away. So, even more reason to try Qigong. I could see myself teaching and passing on this discipline to others. Gives me hope just thinking about that possibility.

Dream last night about me living in a partially constructed building. It was like a shell for an office complex that had not been fully finished. One section had been completed and that's where I was housed. It was like a combination living and work area.

Part of the dream dealt with me finding some people walking through the complex and entering my area. They had a set of keys and indicated that the owners had given them permission to do a walkthrough. I pointed out that they failed to get my permission, but they just ignored me and went about their tour. Later, after the unexpected visitors had left, I heard some noises from the parking lot. I looked out and saw that there was a couple of cars parked in the lot that were not mine. It looked like there were people in the cars. One held four men, who looked like fairly big guys. Their attention seemed to be on the other car that had a couple sitting in the front seats talking.

I pulled out a handgun that I kept in my place, put it in my pocket and left the office. I walked toward the cars. I didn't try and hide, but walked directly toward the vehicles. What I planned to do is not known. I don't think I had anything particular in mind, except to find out what they were doing there. The building was out in the desert, fairly far away from any town. It was a remote desert area. The remoteness was one thing that had attracted me to the place.

As I walked, I thought about the people who had appeared earlier in the day. I recalled that one of them had mentioned that the owner was going to cancel my lease and rent the property to them. The dream faded with me walking toward the cars, my hand on the gun in my pocket.

Went to the chiropractor today. I was thinking about the upcoming visit to the doctor and it took a few extra manipulations to get me aligned today. Mind over matter makes for kinks in the torso.

Realized somewhere along the way either yesterday or today that I need to take some vacation. Not just a trip, but a relax and restore vacation event. Nothing stopping me; nothing in the way. Day-o song comes to mind. Down the way...

Told L I would come help her move stuff tonight. Waiting for her call after her first day back to work. See if she has energy left to work on the moving project. I feel clear and still from the Qigong session. Vacation and Qigong--maybe combine the two. Will see. May the dreams become cleared this night.