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End of the 1st week of reduced sessions. Here's a copy of the summary note that was emailed to F&F list...
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Hi All--
This past week involved only two treatment sessions and many more days on my own--practicing what I've learned so far. First session was on Wed so had four days to practice before seeing the first practitioner. It was a long four days. I did pretty well. Practiced, read, slept well, took a few naps (really a breakthrough here--I hadn't been able to nap for several weeks--now I can again).

I just looked back at my daily blog (laranstar.blogspot.com) and realized how focused I was for the times on my own. I was focused despite my thoughts about what I did--despite my black hat thinking. Hmmmm!

I had picked up the Law and Promises book over the weekend and found it to be very relevant to where I'd been, where I was, and where I plan to be. The essence of the book is "imagining creates reality."

There's a paragraph in the book that I quoted in my daily blog that sent shivers through me--

"Thus the man with palsy was told to rise, to take up his bed and walk--to mentally act as if he were healed; and when the actions of his imagination corresponded with the actions which he would physically perform were he healed--he was healed."

That paragraph summarizes what this whole treatment program is all about--imagining and healing, or recovering as the team likes to refer to the results.

Wednesday had a treatment with Laura. She put about 16 needles in what I call my "merry go round" scar. Wasn't that big of a deal--not as much as I imagined it might be. We worked on quite a few things during the session (leg, knee, tremor, neck, and more, including the needling).

Thursday I was slightly out of phase with things--I was clearly more anxious. Could have been a result of the Wednesday session (the needling), or maybe I was just feeling more anxious. Actually, the anxiety started showing up on Wednesday evening and peaked out on Thursday. Thursday turned out to not be a very structured day as the week went.

Friday, I managed to return to the program, as well as get a treatment from Rebecca. With her help, I was able to "move" the persistent pressure that I feel on my right side out of my body. I was able to create myself as a "normal person." With her coaching, I came away with some valuable tools to help me normalize how I feel and what I am experiencing. It is a blessing.

Rebecca and I worked on a number of issues in addition to the movement of the pressure field. I told her about a memory replay that I had experienced the previous night that was like a movie. It dealt with some old fear-based activities that I had been involved with back when I was 20 or so. I had a break back then that put me into a state of paranoia. In that state, I acted out crazy patterns and did some nutty things. All of these events played back on Thursday evening--like a movie--in great detail.

For more detail on the days of this week or the session specifics, please look at my blog (laranstar.blogspot.com). The notes for each day are about the length of this message and I don't want to try and cut and paste them here since this is a summary.

Today was wet and cold. Winter finally arrived! I wasn't well focused today. I did get out for a very chilly walk, but came back and rested. I asked Rebecca yesterday about my continuing feeling of being weak. She pointed out that I've recently experienced what would be equivalent to a major illness--like a person who has been confined to bed for an extended period. That it is normal for me to be weak, and that it will take some time for me to fully recover my previous vitality. That I need to rest when I feel like resting and give myself a break while I restore. That my adrenaline system has been depleted and can't be called upon like in the past.

It makes total sense, but I couldn't help but remember that four years ago, I climbed a mountain in the snow to 13,000 feet. I did it with adrenaline, of course, but I miss being that vital. But, I'm imagining myself being that vital once again, without the use of adrenaline.

I've started looking for a place back in Palo Alto. That activity is creating some anxiety, but I need to make the move and get settled so I can focus on my practices and full recovery. I keep imagining a place materializing, but I've got to make a few trips over there to make it happen.

I guess, bottom line, I feel good about my progress and about the program. I look forward to being moved and settled so I can focus my full attention on fostering my full recovery and expanding my range of activities. This experience has inspired me to volunteer some of my time to help other seniors in whatever ways I can. My friend RS reminded this past week about the magic of mirrors and how seeing myself in one changes my way of being. Love and blessings...