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Slept well last night. Still feel logy and tired though. Spent the day being quiet, practicing imagining myself healthy, doing some Qigong, some yoga, working out on the cardio machine, going for a long walk, resting some, eating, and such.

Feeling a little restless. Got several emails about the summary I posted for the end of the 4th week of treatments. RS sent me one of his delightful commentaries and recap of the India trip that he's been serializing in his messages. For some reason, I was touched by what he wrote--especially a part that talked about me seeing the woman with pronounced symptoms. He compared my seeing her to the silver on a mirror--me seeing myself in her and opening up to compassion--for both of us. His commentary and observation brought me to tears. The heart is connected.

Got several other messages that were equally touching.

I spent a fair amount of time today imagining myself healthy, being healthy without regard to how I get there--just see myself healthy and whole. There is a right feeling about this activity. It seems to open a doorway to that reality. I've also, less thoroughly, imagined me being in a healing place--in the place where I will live as I continue to heal. This imagining was more difficult, but needs to be done. I worked to see me in the place with everything as it will be, as it can be.

Got my treatment times for the coming week--Wed and Fri--Laura and Rebecca, respectively. Chris actually replied, from Amsterdam. Was surprised to get the notice from him, from my International support line. Good old email!

M&E were buried today finishing up a letter of intent for an arts' summer project they are helping to create.

So, I have two days before my next treatment. First Monday "off" since I began the program. Also four days "off" total counting the weekend. A little concerned that I can keep the momentum going on my own--but must learn to do so. But, I throw away that black hat and don a white one--I will keep the momentum going.

Tremor has been more present today, more active. For no particular reason other than me being more responsible for results and outcomes now. I shake therefore I am! Time to do some imagining and see what realities tomorrow will manifest.