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Dreamed | a host of old dreams | not so much dreams as memories | I recalled some events when I was younger | Everything was in stark detail | It was like watching a film unfold | All of it replayed and then it was at peace.

Cold today and raining. Still managed to get in a walk before the rains descended. There's talk of snow at lower elevations. Could be, but the cold winds are enough for me. I'm ready for Hawaii.

Had a session with Rebecca this afternoon. I left a bit early so I could snag a couple of bran muffins from the Staff of Life store (and some Odwalla drinks--they are cheaper there). Also went to the book store to try and order the Law and the Promise for gifts. It's out of print. But, I bought one last weekend at East/West. Have to check back with them and see if they can get me copies.

Session with Rebecca went really well. I managed to "move" the pressure associated with the symptom out of my body. Used the heart connection and had the heart talk to the pressure (leg, side, head, arm, etc.) and move it or get it to move. In my head (right side), there was a dark-colored gas. I drilled a hole in the skull and let the gas out, and then repaired the hole. My head filled with a bright light and made the partition that was housing the gas disappear as well.

My heart had a dialog with my right arm concerning the pressure the arm was exuding. The arm replied that it was tensing up to protect me (the self). The heart asked if the protection could be accomplished by relaxing instead of tensing. The arm agreed to try it. The tension released. Then a lime green light flooded the arm and the right side of my body. The pressure and tensions went away.

Somewhere before the dialog between my arm and my heart, I had to remove an arrow from my right arm. When the arrow was removed, I had a quick replay of my mother throwing a fork at me and having it stick in my right shoulder. This incident really happened although my mother adamantly denied it.

Bottom line--I feel like a normal person tonight--hooray! And I have a good tool to help recreate what we did today.

More happened within the session. Rebecca work on my neck/head using craniosacral adjustments. I related my waking dream of some old events that happened around the time I lived in SF. When the events took place, I had a lot of fear and paranoia around them. With the replay, I was more of an observer and could simply watch the actions. I was amazed at how detailed and clear the replay was. It was real enough that I could see objects and places distinctly. It was like watching a replay on a video camera--every detail, every action.

I gave Rebecca's contact information to a friend of mine who is looking for someone to help her reestablish her energy levels.

Speaking of energy levels, I mentioned to Rebecca that I was still feeling weak. She said I should be feeling that way. It's like I've been bed-ridden with an illness for a very long time and it will take some time to recover. I have to go slow. Let my right arm rest. It's been defending me. Time for it to get some R&R. It'll take as long as it takes for me to fully heal and come back to my previous levels. I thought about that last night--four years ago I climbed Mt. Shasta. Where did that vitality go? Into adrenaline-based efforts! Adrenaline no longer works. Have to restore, recover, and repair.

M&E are out dancing tonight. I need to settle my living place so I too can get back to dancing. So be it!