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Friday night I ended up awake almost all night. The cumulative effect is zapping. Can't think, can't move, can barely do anything. Called the clinic and got an appointment to see a doctor. He gave me some anti-anxiety medication (Ativan). I have enough to take a tab a day until next week's meet with my PCP. We'll figure a strategy for moving on.

Nice to feel human again (or was all that pain and turmoil more human?)

MO has been a rock through all this--cleaning the entire place, making food, shopping, and supporting me with coaching and working with issues. A blessing incarnate!

As I become unfogged, I realize that there's a lot of issues that I need to address and make plans around--lots of them. I'm going to need help in a lot of ways--and I can't postpone them until I end up in a jam like I'm in now. But no extra anxiety needed tonight--rest and sleep--rest and sleep!