2589

A, MD's caregiver, managed to make it today--she'd been on an extended trip up to WA state. MD was doing well with A being gone--but it was good that she made it back today.

I slept in this morning--didn't make it up until nearly noon. Went to SB's and cashed in some of my reward gelt--I had a free Frap and a dollar off on a lunch sandwich. Got a treat receipt for a $2.40 Frap when I went back in the afternoon--a total of about $5 for the day, a savings of nearly $8. What a deal--have a reward waiting at Panera's tomorrow! Keep them rolling--rolling and extolling.

But in the meantime, I slept a lot--didn't make it to the gym today. Will hit the circuit tomorrow--and more over the weekend.

My daughter's fiancé's mother made a delicious carrot cake--she is a master baker. This one was without nuts or raisin--but was still very tasty.

How did it get to be so late already--it's 10pm but seems like it was only a short while since I had my cake and dinner? Time flies, I guess, when it has too--the march of time. Time to snooze--and spin my views.

2590

I slept well last night--despite the heat lasting into the early morning hours. I'm heading to dance class in just a while--plus hanging out with some of the dancers after the class. Hope the bistro where we are gathering has AC--it's still quite warm today.

I'm feeling a little groggy after grabbing a sandwich for lunch--will go a bit early to class--pick up a Frap on the way. Have to have a small caffeine boost--as well as the medications. I usually de-grog when we are in the class--movement makes me un-grog.

MD knocked on my door a little after 10 last night--she asked me to turn off the AC since she was cold. Actually the AC wasn't on--there was just the fan running in the living room. The outside temperature was about 100 degrees still--the house was showing 78. Don't know why she was feeling chilled--I made sure the AC was off and that seemed to let her get to sleep.

Found out that my research into bus routes for SD was not needed--he had been shown a number of living skills in the past and he just doesn't use them. He was provided a host of things he could do to get along in life--most of which he's punted. He's more than bright enough to do some of these things--he has just conditioned himself to only do the minimum. He's adopted a number of base patterns--which have, by now, become entrained. But, haven't we all?

Well, it's almost Frap and dance time--followed by a gathering!

2591

Nine o'clock in the evening--and the outside reading is 104 degrees! Helter-swelter--but a promise of cooler times tomorrow.

Went to EDH dance class today--it went well. Had fun dancing for the seniors--and like the simplicity of the dances done there and the good feelings of the people there. Tomorrow will be the FO class--more of a challenge but no class on Fridays for a month. Won't be such a push--having the Fridays free for a while.

Watched the conclusion of a gritty film tonight--Nightcrawler. It was somewhat predictable--so you grind your way through it hoping it won't end like it ends. But it does--and such is the video news world in part. The underside of the flash and dash that the TV provides--gore instead of bore.

I slept well last night--it was so peaceful and quiet. MD complained that she was up and down all night--she thinks she had something with caffeine. It was probably chocolates of some description--there are no caffeinated drinks except my V8's. Unless she drank one by mistake--it would have to be something chocolate.

Have a gathering after dance class tomorrow--one of the dancers makes it her goal to have us gather once each month. We will convene at the bistro just down the street form the class--it will be fun.

July has hurried by--gone forever in a wink of the eye! Story of us all!

2592

Slept poorly last night--if I slept at all. DD, SD, and TD stayed the night--with all that entails in a limited space with multiple people. I dreamed some--I also recapped memories of many of the projects I've worked on in the past. The dream/thoughts were triggered by a comment that TD made--about the possibility of him working in the Bay Area in a start-up. I thought about all of the start-ups I've been with--there were at least a half dozen.

They also reminded me of the boxes of stuff I've yet to unpack--and hopefully can give away. The files and stuff I'm still carrying around--in my pile of boxes.

This trip down memory lane jogged me into thinking about why none of the start-ups were really successful--so close and yet so far. I had the opportunity--several times. I just didn't go about things in a thoughtful manner--too much from-the-hip activities.

Made me also wonder about the future--what might Is still do that would scratch this itch?

Still don't know what is planned for this evening--I'll find out when I get back from dance class. Over 100 degrees promised for this afternoon--about 90 now and muggy!

I had a ham/cheese soufflé, a lemonade, a half of a chicken/artichoke sandwich, soon a Frap, and the other half sandwich for dinner--trying to eat/drink my way into wakefulness. About to take my midday medications--will observe what it does to my feeding schedule/dancing class. And my sartorius muscle is still acting up--on and off! The off is nice--the on is not so bad but gets my attention.

2593

Deluge--chaos! Life goes on--or it doesn't! DD finally arrived--with TD in tow and here to retrieve SD. They are meeting here and plan to leave in the morning for a rafting trip--daughter and her fiancé will go with them plus others that are joining with them at the rafting site. Why am I not going--well, for one thing, I wasn't asked? I probably would have to beg off--but I could have been asked. The main detail though--the sudden overflow of people in the house. I don't do well with change of patterns--and this has been an unexpected shift.

DD brought a bucket of KFC for dinner--with all of the trimmings! I ate lightly--I had a ginormous breakfast at CoCo's. French toast, eggs, hash browns, sausage, bacon, ham, and syrup--and a Frap for lunch.

The entire troop will be moving out around 7:30 in the morning--and will be back later in the day. Plans for tomorrow evening are unknown (to me)--it's possible they'll stay over tomorrow night (or not).

I finished watching the end of season 2 of Rectify--it has a 3rd season underway and a 4th that has been given the green light. Season 2 ended with lots of unresolved issues--still lots that will need closure in the coming episodes.

I did make it to the gym today--I needed the workout even though it was short and sweet. My sartorius muscle felt better afterward--and seems to be quieter.

My new driver's license arrived today--hair looks a lot different (what's left of it)! I have a peaceful look on my photograph--peaceful and a bit dull.

Next 4 or 5 days are predicted to be hot, hot, hot--in the low to mid 100s. Dance class tomorrow--looking forward to it. Time will tell--if you can tell time!

2594

Sunday, Sunday--on to Monday! Moon Day, Moon Day--what can I say? It was a long slow day--awoke early and had a light breakfast. Had too much food over the past several daze--was ready for something simple.

SD departs tomorrow--has to put out over $100 for a taxi back home. He lives about 30 miles away--but it's beyond my driving radius. It would take about 1/2 day to get him there--and get me back. Feel slightly bad that I can't give him a ride--but not bad enough to give him one. Food is love--that's what he came for and what MD had to offer. She put herself out to have him here for so many days--and he ate a lot, especially the pizza last night.

I'm coming down to the wire with the series I've been watching--Rectify. The series if compelling--I didn't think it would be. Yet, it roped me in--especially the lead actor playing the character Daniel. I can't figure out if he's brilliant or crazy--or both. Two more episodes to find out the reality of it all--we shall see, or not.

I experiencing sort of a steady-level burning sensation in my upper left, inner quadriceps--notice it more when I'm sitting with the computer in my lap. Have wondered it the battery charging system in the computer may be disrupting the muscle in my leg--or if I just need to get to the gym and work it out on the machines. Will try and do the latter in the morrow--I've not done anything in terms of exercise since last Friday.

I think I slept well last night--after not doing so on Friday night. I know I conked out relatively early last night--rested a lot today.

Hot daze on the horizon--plus 100 temperatures forecast for the week! Only three dance classes per week though--no class on Fridays during August.

2595

Slow Saturn's Day--I slept really poorly last night. Awoke early this morning--or rather didn't sleep and got up early. I stepped out for breakfast--treated myself to a pastry and a hot chocolate. Not sure it that was a good thing to do--but it felt right as I quaffed the hot coco and ate the pastry.

Came home and gave SD a cook's tour of the Internet--and the associated hardware (computer and iPhone). We traveled to a few places around the world--and demonstrated how much and the type of information that is at our fingertips. I hope this prompts him to get himself a connection--I think he would love what he could explore and discover.

After the tutorial, I grabbed a Frap and a sandwich--came back and napped some. I'm feeling out of sync somehow--I've thought about heading to the gym but continue to stay here. At least I've arisen--even if it was to set up my medications for the coming week and go online to write these notes. I think that I'm feeling anxious for some reason--I'm having to take a pee every time I move. I think I don't need to eat anything for dinner--have eaten enough for this day (and drank enough as well).

This will be SD's last night for this visit--tomorrow his brother will pick him up (or did I just remember that he's not being picked up until Monday?). Oh, well--another two nights then! Slow goes the daze--and slow flows the hours!

The gym tomorrow for sure--have to shake loose these wound up feelings. Daze without ends--don't gather new friends!

2596

Feeling tired--it was a somewhat long day but nothing out of the ordinary. Went to dance class--where we honored the instructor who is retiring from teaching. It was a warm fun event--and we did some dancing but not all the planned dances which was fine with me.

The grandkid was told that she is being promoted to the role of big sister--my daughter is pregnant. They got the sonograms yesterday--confirming that there is a child in process. The grandkid was given a shirt--announcing her promotion. She ran around the house shouting with excitement--it was a fun way for her to be let in on the event.

My daughter made a spaghetti feast for dinner--SD ate his share plus some. He had polished off the Chinese leftovers for breakfast--plus whatever else he may have consumed throughout the day.

The daughter put out a trap last night--and got the rat that was still plundering anything left out in the kitchen. Hopefully, he (it) was the final one--all access holes have been plugged. The only creatures left should be trapped inside the walls somewhere--and have nowhere else to go.

Getting woozy--time to snoozy! Week end begins--let it flow!

2597

Made it to the DMV this morning with SD--he successfully ordered a replacement for his misplaced license. We hit the wave just right--only took us an hour without a reservation. Most of that time was spent filling out the form--and waiting to be called up.

A lady from one of my dance classes was at the DMV--I jokingly asked her if she was doing a different kind of line dance.

I went for breakfast afterward--had a flat bread scramble. Came back and napped a bit--but the hustle-bustle didn't let me sleep much.

I went to dance class feeling somewhat jagged--but by the end of class I had smoothed a lot.

We had Chinese for dinner--lots of food! It didn't taste quite as good as it usually is--maybe my taste buds were off. Dinner was eaten almost in silence--I felt that I had to keep interjecting words into the stillness to jar loose some noise from others.

Tomorrow we may repeat the process--except it will be a home cooked meal.

I slept really poorly last night--I was up a lot with my bladder. In the middle of me dozing off, I managed to be dreaming--and threw myself off the bed (thank goodness it's not very high and there is a carpet). I got up and misjudged where the bed was--and ended up on the floor again. I then carefully and slowly figured out where things were--and crawled back into the bed. The dream involved me being confronted by a rabid rat--I attempted to kick it and that's when I went off the bed.

Last dance class with YJ tomorrow--then no Friday classes for a while.

2598

SD arrived today--he'll be here through the weekend. MD is making sure he has enough to eat--tomorrow we'll do Chinese and Friday will be a home cooked meal.

I'll be taking him to the DMV in the morning--he lost his billfold with his cards and such inside. Not sure how he's planning to get a replacement--but that's up to him. We're heading that way early in the morn--should be done very quickly.

I went to dance class today--in Dorado Hills. Fairly big group today--dancers from other classes were there. The dancing was light--but felt good. I think I'm still recovering from Sunday's dance--in Shingle Springs.

Watched several episodes of Rectify--I had thought it was a movie but turns out it's a series of perhaps 10 episodes. It's dark and torturing--the lead actor does a great job of playing a man who has been out of touch for two decades and is dumped back into the present. His monologues are studies in tortured thinking--like a somnambulist talking in his non-sleep.

Dance tomorrow in Fair Oaks--hope I get some sleep between the DMV and the class. I'm feeling fairly foggy right now--given today's no-napping.

I almost forgot that it was Wednesday--trash pickup prep night! When I went outside to set up the trash cans--there was a wonderful breeze that was cool and soothing. It would be a great night to sleep outdoors--in a hammock perhaps. Maybe--someday!

2599

Rat Prevention Day--pest control people are here plugging the access routes that the rats have been using to infiltrate the house. Their intrusions had subsided a bit--but there were still some active ones. Hopefully, by plugging up their access points, that will limit their visitations--and stop their midnight snacking expeditions.

Cooler today--and promised to be so for most of the week. Dance class today--the first of four planned for this week. About midweek, SD is coming for a 5-day visit--a long time for MD to deal with him. But she triggered the visit--she just won't have her caretaker, A, around during that time. She and A are out shopping today--trying to load the larder in anticipation of SD's ability to eat his way through everything for the five days.

Expecting MD's new LA system today--hopefully I can get it installed and working.

Thinking about getting a FitBit bracelet--it seems like such a useful gadget considering the movement activities I'm doing. It's a little pricey--but apparently worth the cost as validated by many people's testimonials. I could give myself one for my natal anniversary--I just need to home in on the exact model. As with most hi-tech gadgets--there are several choices of units with a range of features. Have to go through a cost/benefit analysis--and pick the one that provides the best trade-off given my needs.

Also want to investigate setting myself up to  do some fishing--there are numerous fishing spots within minutes of where I live. Given my previous fishing experiences--learning to fish the local waters should be a no-brainer for me. Watch out fishes--you are going to be invited to dinner!

2601-2600

Went to Shingle Springs dance yesterday--about a 30 minute drive straight up Highway 50. It was not a big event--but there were people I'd seen at other dances and classes. The place was not air conditioned--they had fans set up which helped. I got lost briefly--actually I missed the exit and drove a bit too far the turnoff. I managed to find my way back--and located the community center where the dance was being held. Overall, it was a positive expedition--I missed dancing on Friday and yesterday's event more than made up for the loss.

I went to the Folsom PD support group today--one person who had been coming to the group had passed away between last month's session and today's. He went quickly--he was having all manner of problems and they finally did him in. We had a slightly larger group--with several new attendees. Despite the relatively positive discussions and exchange of information--I still came away with some slight heaviness afterward. The loss of the one person--and the confirmation that the current facilitator is stepping down put a slight damper on things.

It got hot, hot, hot today--looks like it will be in the low 100s even as we go into the evening. The AC is struggling to keep up--but it's supposed to get cooler in the next week.

Dance classes on the agenda for the next four days--and another round with the Life Alert system. Moving and moving--grooving and grooving! Roll on, roll on!

2602

Had a hearty breakfast after sleeping in a bit late--waffle, bananas, caramel syrup, walnuts, whipped cream, two eggs and a turkey sausage patty! Yum--and then some!

Came home and slept--until I awoke and went out for a Frap. Afternoon was spent with the ex and the grandkid--I'm glad I was rested. We all had "dinner" together--although I passed on several of the dishes and just had some apple, cheese, and a couple of fig newtons.

There is an afternoon dance tomorrow in Shingle Springs--about 20 minutes from here. The event is from 1pm to 5pm--the time and distance would work for me. I'll make the decision in the morning--based on how I'm doing.  There is a lot going on next week--PD support group on Monday and classes Tuesday through Friday. We shall see--and pay the fee!

Right now, I'm kind of nodding off--don't think I'll do any more Netflix tonight. Been viewing Luther--a gritty police series about a cop who keeps ending up in dilemmas. Dark and gritty--weird and tense.

2603

Life Alert--not quite! Got the new LA pendant--but when we tried to activate it nothing happened. The tech support people walked me through a number of procedures--but the new pendant does not activate on the new device. I spent two hours going through various checks and configurations--only to told finally that a new (and different) unit would be sent.

All this started when the battery light on the original unit signaled that there was a problem with battery--LA sent a new battery. When I went to exchange the battery--I noted that the ground connector was heavily corroded--LA said that the main unit should be replaced.

They sent a replacement unit--and I installed it. As required on the installation, the pendant was checked--to see if everything was properly connected. Alas, the pendant would not talk to the unit--after many tries, the tech support person said they would send a new pendant. The pendant arrived--and we tested it with the new unit. Double alas--it too didn't work. The tech support person said they would send another unit--a model that is slightly different from the one last sent. I await its arrival--and to see if it fixes the problem.

The particular issue for me was that I missed today's dance class--by the time I was told that a new unit was being sent, I didn't feel like rushing around to make the class. Instead, I grabbed some lunch (I had missed breakfast--not good)--and slept for several hours. My brain was fried after several hours of dealing with today's testing--I used to be good at dealing with tech questions but no more. Complex tech issues leave me enervated--my brain runs out of juice.

Can sleep in tomorrow--and I will probably take advantage of that option.

2604

Passed the test--did alright on the vision test and aced the written one! I was in and out in less than an hour--celebrated with a hot chocolate and sausage/egg sandwich. Came home and napped for a short while--then went to dance class.

Class went well--I wasn't distracted thinking about the test. I came away feeling good after dancing--had a Frap and sandwich to round off the long day. Dinner was light--a corn taco with cheese.

Have reviewed the dances for tomorrow's class--next to last class for Y, the teacher. She will be missed--her teaching style is great.

So, have made it through three dance days so far this week--without any major repercussions. Will finish up with a fourth class tomorrow--and then rest on the weekend.

 Slept poorly last night--could have easily slept in were it not for my date with the DMV.

There was a woman at the DMV--afflicted with some kind of dystonia. Her body and neck/head where twisted like a pretzel--she looked like she would be in constant pain. I wonder what she was doing at the DMV--getting a license to drive would be a scary thing. There would be no way she could turn and look over her one shoulder--the one she was twisted away from.

But she was in the driving test queue--go figure!

2605

Danced again today--took some effort. And it felt good--and was fun. Came home to a series of techno issues--MD's life alert system, her TV system, me prepping for tomorrow's DMV tests and such.

I go to the DMV early in the morning--recover and have a dance class in the afternoon. Plus prepping for Friday's class--more difficult dances like tomorrow's batch. And it's getting warm tonight/tomorrow--it's already muggy here tonight (9:30pm).

Will watch the next episode of Luther--and wrap it up since I'll be arising around 7am. Oh, boy! Oh, joy! A DMV toy!

2606

Dance today--and it felt good! I'm still tired--before and after dancing. But while dancing and afterward--things felt clear and smooth.

I ate a lot today--breakfast, lunch and dinner plus! My belt is telling me that I'm losing weight--or slimming down.

Dance tomorrow in El Dorado Hills--plus need to study DMV materials. That will take the whole day--and I need to rest tomorrow night so I can get to DMV early.

Tonight is muggy and warm--supposed to get even warmer over the next few days.

Heading for the bedding early tonight--will read some. Adios--good night!

2607

Moon Day again--happens every seven days and nights. Over and over--until the last syllable of recorded time!

I have not been feeling exactly right--loose bowels, tired, rats chewing in the walls, no exercise, several days/nights without dancing, and such.

Several different small activities--MD's medical alert system (battery problems), trying to stabilize my diet to address bowel issues, sleeping a lot, register for workshops, birthday note to LA, prepare for DMV on Thursday, and other small events.

Watching a detective series (in French)--Witnesses! Strange and very odd serial killer tale--directed at the police. Wits battle wits--pitting a smart set of killers against a brilliant woman detective and her mentor.

Yes, there was a rat (or squirrel) gnawing in the bedroom wall last night--and there appears to be evidence of other transgressions elsewhere in the house. Worrisome--and not something that sets easy on the awareness. Creatures crawling in the walls--chewing their way in! Not a pleasant turn of events--along with life in general.

I can't seem to find a way to keep myself going--the more I do, the more I have to stop in order to recover. Three days of dancing--turned out to need three days of rest! Pacing not racing--have to keep on bracing! Interlacing--facing and embracing!

2609-2608

Been a couple of days of LB--Loose Bowels! Not exactly sure what is triggering these episodes--has to be something I'm eating but not sure just what. Could also be one of the medications--although the question would be why now?

I was really tired Friday, yesterday and today--only moved when I had to do so, else just slept. Yesterday, had a flat bread breakfast--with scrambled egg, bacon and onion. Also apple and Frap--went light in the afternoon. Today, had a flat bread sandwich (BBQ chicken), a hot chocolate--and a cheese danish for dinner. This is a jumble of foods and beverages--but I'm going with what I'm craving and seeing what arises.

It also could be the green tea--perhaps my system has maxed out on how much green tea it can process. Who knows--the flower grows!

Started a batch of laundry--will be busy in the morrow. Lots of little things stacking up--while I am stacking up.

SM sent a note about the Monday dance--but I'll have to pass on that. I'll need to get clear before heading into the end of the week--and all of its activities.

2611-2610

Danced three days in a row--two in El Dorado Hills and one in Citrus Heights. I had difficulty today--I felt sore and creaky after the previous two outings. Looking forward to resting tomorrow--and over the weekend.

Yesterday, I went to the dance class in Rescue--a small town in the El Dorado Hills. It was about two hours of dancing--friendly crowd of people. Some people from the Wednesday class--good floor there.

Today, I went to Citrus Heights class--floor was a bit sticky. I had trouble moving smoothly--and I was still feeling the effects of dancing the previous two days. Several people back from vacation--dances are a lot more difficult than those in El Dorado. Just two more classes with Y as the instructor--then a break for August with classes to resume in September. I guess that will give me a chance to build up my endurance--with only three classes each week until September makes it four.

It's been cooler--which I do better with than really warm days. Have the possibility of doing four classes per week for the next two weeks--may the coolness prevail over those days.

Take my driver's tests next week--Thursday 7/16 early in the morning! Can celebrate passing--by dancing in the afternoon. Got a haircut today--looks a lot better with hair trimmed really close. Will give me a new look on my driver's license--trim and slim, with a double chin, don't grin!

2612

Danced today--and it felt good! I wore myself out--but it felt right! Will try tomorrow's Rescue dance and see how that feels--an alternate venue for Thursdays. I had a good breakfast this morning--then napped for a short while before heading to the dance floor. Had a light lunch (just a Frappuccino) and also a light dinner--may have to eat more.

It was cooler today--and promises to be even more so in the morrow. Just discovered that Dragon Tattoo has six episodes--not three as I was thinking. Just watched the 3rd segment--ready for the 4th (and 5th and 6th). I was pleased to learn that there was more--the story and all is quite good.

Practiced the DMV test questions for a while today--did well on all. I usually passed--even though the tests have some glitches (some answers get marked wrong even though correct answers are chosen). It's free--so no complaints.

Except for the short nap after breakfast--I've not slept any this afternoon. Makes me a little woozy right now--and it's only 9pm. Will read for a bit--and fall into a slumber. Will look over the two dances that they will be doing tomorrow--in the morning. Enough for now--horizontal is my name, going flat is my game!

2613

Went to the Roseville PD support group today--bigger group still. They had guest speaker who did a good job of going over reverse mortgages. He had the details behind the process down cold--it's nice to know there are competent people around.

I came away from the meeting feeling better than after the Orangevale meeting last week--humor helped a lot as did the number of people in attendance.

I came home and slept though--a solid couple of hours that I had to just check out.

I started watching the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo--watched the first two of the three episodes. Good story--strange story.

Tomorrow there is a dance class in El Dorado Hills--I plan on going. Not sure about the next day in Rescue--will see how tomorrow goes and how I feel on Thursday morning. Sunset class on Friday--plan on being there.

Cooling down for a few days--with slight chance of raindrops.

Need to put more time on driver's test questions--want to ace the written part of the test. Go for the gold--or like the cheese go of the mold!

2614

Moon Day! When I got up and out this morning, made it to CoCo's for some breakfast--ate a flatbread scramble that was perfect for my stomach. Yesterday, I had an episode of loose bowels--flatbreads and cheese seemed the cure.

I came back and slept for a couple of hours--awoke around midday and went out for a Frapuccino. That drink seemed to ease my stomach even more--plus gave me a slight boost (sugar and caffeine). I spent several hours taking online driver's tests--I did well on them so I scheduled a DMV appointment (7/16 8:40am). The die is cast--and all of that!

From midday until now (nearly 10pm), I've felt good--clear, awake, steady, and all. It's still a bit muggy and warm--even though the outside temperature is around 75 (it was close to 100 today).

I've decided that I will go to the Roseville PD support meeting tomorrow--1:30pm to 3pm. The topic they are discussing (negative mortgages) does not apply to me--but it will be good to touch base there. The moderator's jokes make it worth while--even if some of them are not exactly PC.

Then there will be dancing on Wednesday (thank goodness)--and the possibility of dancing on both Thursday (new place) and Friday (regular place).

So went the day--so went the time!  

2615

July 5th and the fireworks are over--except for the ones that keep burning in the brain. RB dropped by this morning (early)--it was a joy to see him. I'm glad he made the time to drop in--we went and grabbed some breakfast and gave each other an update on things in our lives.

As usual, he has several things going on--one is that he will be doing some hunting with a bow this season. Made me remember the stillness of the forest in the early morning--and moving silently in order to not spook any game that was about.

He prompted me regarding my participation in any clinical trials--I admit that I've not joined any trials so far, but need to do so just to be in touch with people. I noticed that I could make the Roseville PD support group on Tuesday this week--since I don't have a dance class that day.

I came home from visit with RB and fell asleep for a couple of hours--when I awoke I had missed having lunch. I went out and grabbed some corn tortillas and cheese--my stomach was still slightly upset and my bowel was loose. Bread and cheese--if you please!

In the afternoon, I watched a couple of movies--and finally punted on a not very good film about DEA kill teams. There were a lot of well known actors in the film--but that wasn't going to save this one.

Did laundry just a while ago--light load. Did not have any caffeine today--perhaps why I'm feeling like I could go to sleep early tonight. No Frap but lots of crap--will shut my yap!

2616

Boom, boom, boom goes the fireworks--Bang, bang, bang goes the 4th of July! It's been a quiet day--until now! Around 9pm and the celebrations have begun--Pow, pow, pow!

Went to CoCo's this morning--had one of their new peach trimmed breakfast treats. The season changes--and they serve strawberry, or peach, or apple, or berry as the season dictates. How they manage to get such fresh fruit is a puzzlement--but they do!

After breakfast, I slept until around 2pm--then took my midday medications and went for a Frappuccino. Watched a couple of movies--dark movies!

RB left a message that he will be dropping by in the morning--look forward to seeing him. It's been several years since we've touched base--hope BH's wife has gotten some better news regarding her illness.

This weekend has been slow in the going--it's difficult to realize that it's still only Saturday with Sunday to be revealed. And it's only 9:30 right now--Boom, boom, boom!

And I'm ready to haul it in and climb into bed--despite the amount of sleep I've had today. Pop, pop, pop--the barrage continues! The ending begins--the beginning ends! There is no clarity--just the explosions and concussions.

2617

Fried Day! I've spent the day feeling fried--ate and slept, ate and leapt. Cooler today--but still warm outdoors.

I dreamed that I was at a meeting of men from various mens' teams--I was scheduled to be there at a particular time. I was late--I had decided to do something before the meeting. That activity made me late--and when I showed up I was told that thing were on hold. We were waiting for one of the key  people--and he was late. That left me off the hook a bit--but there were mentions of me having to make amends once everyone was present.

The man we were waiting for arrived--he came walking down the aisle heading for the stage. I realized that it was RB--one of the men from my men's team. He was carrying a large bundle--something he was going to hand out to everyone once we were underway. When he joined our group, we embraced--and the meeting formally got started.

When I got up this morning, I was surprised by a rainstorm--it dumped a fair amount of water on the thirsty yard. At first, I thought someone was hand watering--but realized that it was raining. Speaking of dumping--I had to do so in my morning purge. My stomach was a little fluid--perhaps after processing yesterday's large lunch. By the time I managed to get up and out, I'd missed the breakfast bell--so I had an early lunch. And of course, after eating, heading back to my bed--slept until it was time for my midday medications.

Found a web site with a 1,000 practice DMV questions--questions more subtle than the DMV's practice quizzes. I'll make my way through those questions--should be ready to take the actual test next week perhaps.

I continued to think about the sense of needing to be doing something with purpose--not just drifting and floating, letting life happen rather than making choices.

2618

The campers have returned--MD spent the whole day worrying about their arrival.

I went to the PD support meeting this morning--there is a dynamic there that focuses on the negative, the hopelessness of it all, the progression. I find that I want to jump up and move while we sit there--frozen in place.

I had a detailed dream last night--I was in a small community and was touching base with people I once knew. HMcA was there performing a play about all of our lives--I went up to her and DS and gave them both huge hugs. It had been years since we had seen one another--we were all healthy and upbeat. The dream had two parts--first the play and all that it entailed and revealed about our lives. The second was more in the now--we were talking with each other and sharing what we had been doing with our lives. I was disease free in the dream--I could feel the aliveness in my body.

As seems to happen after each PD support session--I feel at a loss regarding what I am doing and what I am accomplishing. I feel that I just should be doing something more meaningful with my life--doing something other than just making it through the days.

I went to Annie's and had the Thursday special--meat loaf, gravy, salad, garlic bread, vegetables, mashed potatoes. It was filling and comforting--I wasn't hungry at dinner time.

It's 9:30 and I'm fading--nothing planned for the morrow.

2619

July has arrived--June goes away. I danced today--for the first (and only) time this week. It was wonderful--tried out my new shoes. They were a little snug--but they will loosen with wear.

Several people from class stayed and danced for the seniors--that was enjoyable. I got several comments on my dancing--it was nice to hear the good thoughts.

It was not quite as hot today--there was a wind and some clouds. It still got warm--but less than yesterday.

I hand watered the garden and plants--the wacky old dog goes crazy when she hears the water. She got totally soaked running in and out of the sprinklers yesterday--today she just tried to bite hose.

The campers are due back tomorrow--it's been really quiet here.

There is a PD support group meeting in the morning (I think)--I'll be up early with the dogs/fish/yard issues. So I should be able to grab a light breakfast--then hit the meeting. I've got the copies I need to distribute--it will be interesting to experience the new moderator again. Last time I wasn't impressed--we shall see this time around.

I truly feel great this evening--because of the dancing. While dancing, I was aware of how I felt like I was floating--light on my feet! No dance class until next Wednesday--bummer!