3735

Quiet Leap Year Day! No classes! Reading from the Museum of Lost Wonder. Amazing work! Mystical and memorable!

There was an exercise in it that GH spun into a whole story and myth. When I tried to spin my own myth, I was clumsy and confused. GH did his around "an itch." Mine was around the layers of mists that surround me. Colorful layers of mists that extend from my skin all the way out to the further reaches of the universe. It was a myth about the various layers of an aura that surrounds and permeates my core being. I could selectively activate and deactivate the different layers, creating flows and healing configurations that surround me. It felt pleasurable and powerful. I felt lifted into higher planes of being.

Movement class tomorrow. I came back from dinner (a lush bowl of pasta puttanesca) and fell into a deep sleep sitting in my chair. I awoke refreshed and rested.

3736

Did a PD dance class and weight training session today. Felt really good to do both. I was a bit tired when it was over. Had a green tea latte to boost my energy levels. That seemed to do the trick. Did not sleep in the afternoon although I did nod off for a while in my chair. It was chilly today. Weather is really very erratic.

Was somewhat weak in weight training session. Keep running out of steam doing presses. I really feel the 12lb weights when doing those sets. Most of others are alright. Just the presses seem to make me fade.

Watched a film tonight that was in Farsi. The film was titled Children of Heaven and was a film I had seen before. It's about a boy and his sister and their adventures that begin when the boy loses his sister's shoes. They have to share a pair of sneakers which leads them into all kinds of misadventures. The ending is somewhat left abruptly unresolved--but life is like that sometimes.

Felt good in the dance class and after the weight training. Feels better doing something instead of doing nothing, but sleeping. No gait and balance class tomorrow--too bad! Getting to be close to tax time! Will start the process this coming weekend. Taxes and taxes! Onward I go!

3737

Weather turned cool again! It is quite chilly tonight.

Managed to not sleep this afternoon. Thought I'd not do so and see how it goes. I slept more than enough over the past few days. Time for a change--a shift.

PD dance class and weight training tomorrow. Ready for some movement.

Reading The Museum of Lost Wonders to GH. Quite a book! Don't know how they can publish it at the price that it can be bought. There is also a web site but it doesn't have all of the content from the book in electronic form. Still an interesting site!

Well, time to wrap up and read some more. Lost in wonderment!

3738

Week end ends! Rampant sleep-a-thon it was and still feel like sleeping more. Ate well and had ample foods.

Dreams on the past nights were detailed and literary. One had to do with a famous writer. He had taken twelve excerpts from something I had published and wove them into an overall story. I was immensely pleased that he had chosen my material to set the theme of each chapter in his book. I was wrestling with how best to thank him for the way he had showcased my thoughts. We were to be together at some kind of awards' ceremony and I was certain to see him there. I was telling a writer friend of my dilemma and soliciting his suggestions regarding what I should do. It was a pleasurable, pleasing dream.

In another dream, I was hurrying to get to a meeting with a man who didn't like people being late. I had my daughter with me and we were going through a bad part of the city. One of my tires went flat and I had to pull to the side of the street. I was fearful about leaving the car, but I was also fearful about being late and about sticking around until a tow truck would arrive. Finally, I grabbed a passing taxi and went to the meeting. When I got there, I mentioned that I had left my disabled vehicle and needed to go back that way to pick it up--assuming it hadn't already been jacked and stripped. The man I was meeting with said that it was clumsy of me to leave my car where I did. He was not pleased. Somehow, our discussions shifted to juggling. I happened to have a set of juggling balls in my brief case. I got them out and gave them to the man. He was pleased and started juggling. He offered to pay for the balls plus shipping costs. I told him it wasn't necessary. I could pick up another set at a local fun shop. He told me I'd better get back and see if I could retrieve my car. I left to do that.

3739

It was laundry day and the laundromat was busy. Still made it in and out without too much hassle. Lost a sock though! One of my newer socks! Must have left it in the washer.

Had a tasty lunch at the Thai restaurant. They make a great fish curry. Costs more on weekends though. Their weekday lunch specials are a good deal.

Came back, and yes, went to sleep. No surprises there! Slept a lot this afternoon and evening. Can't seem to keep my eyes open. Hungry and sleepy, sleepy and hungry! And am heading for the bed soon as well. Got cooler today and tonight! Running the heater tonight.

Saw a man in the parking lot at the lunch place. He was shaking and shuffling--like a PD person who was off his medications or wasn't taking any. I felt like going up to him and talking with him about the illness. Why? I don't know! Just felt that way.

Oscar mania tomorrow!

3740

Did well in the PD weight training class today. Weights felt lighter and easy to handle. Have gained some strength. Ate hearty today (and yesterday)--perhaps there's a connection. Stomach continues to get better--seems to be digesting well.

Dreamed last night but don't recall any details now. Think it was a dream about my daughter and ex-wife, but not sure. Laundry day tomorrow! Oh, joy!

Watched a movie tonight--The Secret Life of Words. It's an unfolding story of two people who are put into each other's presence where their painful histories are slowly revealed. The setting is on a nearly abandoned oil rig that is being deactivated because of an explosion. Why the one person who is still injured is left on the rig is not exactly clear. But, that condition triggers the need to bring a nurse on board to care for him. Thus the action proceeds. The woman who plays the nurse, Hannah (Sarah Polley), is eerie (and rightly so once you hear her history) but very good in that role. Tim Robbins, who plays the injured person, is not as compelling but does OK. The reveal in the story is gritty and graphic (even though all you know is done in words).

Today was a postcard Spring day! A bit early but balmy and warm! The flowers are going to be confused.

3741

Movement class today--felt good but I was sleepy afterward. Balmy, spring weather today! Felt good to be outdoors in the sun. I was hungry today--ate quite a lot.

Dreamed last night that I had just married a woman who was quite independent. She had her own way of doing things. She kept on doing things that didn't make me feel comfortable. I kept trying to accommodate her actions, but it wasn't working out. I felt isolated and adrift. I tried reasoning with her but she wouldn't budge. She thought that I was being silly. I think I tried talking to some other people about the situation but that didn't really help.

Felt fairly good today. Bowels are still becoming more normal. PD weight training tomorrow and then it's the end of the week. Life goes on! Hopefully, with some increase in health and endurance! Let there be light!

3742

Gait and balance class today. Felt good to be back in session. Big news is that both the doctor and I agree that there is no need for further GI work. Everything is sliding back to normal except perhaps even better than it was. My energy levels are up and I'm feeling more like myself in some odd way. Movement class tomorrow and so it goes.

Watched a movie tonight -- Focus. It was set in the 40s and was about racism and violence around those times. A man, who is not a Jew, marries a woman who is a Jew but not a practicing one. They both are pegged for being Jews and are marginalized in their neighborhood. The story is based on an Arthur Miller novel. It's a tense story starring William Macy and Laura Dern--a somewhat odd casting choice and an odd fated couple. An OK film but nothing spectacular.

Dreamed last night that I was in a war zone. I was encamped with a large number of soldiers. We were spread out along a ridge facing a force of opposing troops. We were separated by a huge flat area that was covered with small stones--a moraine of shiny black rocks. The opposing troops were firing off bursts in our general direction. We were too far apart for them to actually hit us with anything. I was there as an observer or news reporter. I was hunkered down behind a Humvee. The troops I was with were getting ready to make an assault on the other force's position. Everyone was running about, gathering gear, and checking out their weapons. I awoke before any battle began.

3743

Got the last set of test results! No evidence of bacteriological infestation! My plumbing is clean. Don't know what caused the perturbations but they now seem to be resolved. Had a good dinner tonight to celebrate the good news. Doctor suggests that I see a gastroenterologist but I think I can skip that track as long as the basic problem has resolved itself. Will see what happens when I digest tonight's dinner and so on.

I've felt really good today. Best in a long time! I helped GH with his new calculator--getting it set up and running. It was not an obvious thing to do--everything is getting to be so complex and technical. But, I got it done and I came away feeling good about what I had done and figured out.

I continue to exercise my brain with reverse patterns. Like saying words or names backwards. Or the backward ABC's (CBA's). Gait and balance class in the morrow. Looking forward to it!

3744

Had a tuina session this evening. Felt good and left me floating in a well space. If I were a rich man--I'd get a session every day.

Went to the H's today. Took GH on some errands plus we read some from some "hypothetical" museums--places that contain an assortment of spurious artifacts and stories. I can't recall the name of the book we were reading at the moment but it is an art piece itself.

Bowels are better! Things have gotten really quiet--perhaps too quiet, but we will see. Got two of the test reports back. No parasites or evidence of infection. One test still to be reported, I believe. Anyway, the symptoms are disappearing on their own. If all is well I can get on with other things.

PD dance and weight training tomorrow. Back to the cycle! Onward I go!

3745

Happy President's Day! Not that the president is happy but the day can be. A misty, twisty day! No news yet on the medical testing front. Did some more emptying today--all the food I had yesterday. I'm staying purged if nothing else. Took an Imodium in the late afternoon and it affected things--slowed things down it seems. I slept a lot today.

Dreamed last night that I was writing a play for a well known director. He had given me a lot of leeway on what I was to write about. However, I got the assignment late in the game. It was close to opening night and we had almost nothing put together. It was to have five scenes that were loosely connected, each with different sets, and different actors in each part. The director didn't seem to be concerned that we were pushing up close to the deadline. He indicated that all I had to do was outline the elements and the actors would ad lib the dialog and action. I just had to establish the themes. I worked all night and showed up at the theater with a fleshed out manuscript that had few details but outlined a proposed structure. The director seemed happy with what I had produced and proceeded to do a walk through. Things went well! The actors were resilient and did a good job creating dialog and interactions. The show itself was well reviewed and was successful. It was a happy, creative, buoyant dream.

I'm still sick and tired of being sick and tired. I felt like getting up and running down the street as I slept the day away. But, I ended up sleeping the hours away. I don't know how I can sleep so much, but I do. I've slept a lot in the past six or seven years. Sleep so deep I cannot weep! Sleep is cheap and the dreams are steep!

I taught myself to say the ABC's backward! For no reason! Just wanted to see if I could do it!
ZYXWVUTSRQPONMLKJIHGFEDCBA! Voila!

3746

Spring-like day! No news on the medical tests yet. Had some recurrence of the bowel problems today. They were not as intense as they have been but I sensed that they could be. Hopefully, everything is working its way down and out. But it's bothersome all the same. After this morning's flushing, I took an Imodium which seemed to calm things down.

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired (there is a website by that name)! I am growing so tired of dealing with symptoms, medications, and side effects! The good news is that I am not as bad off as many, but I still can't shake free and move on with life. I slept this morning (except for getting up to go the toilet, take my medications, and eat a small breakfast). I slept until noon or so! Then, I got up, showered and went out for a while (exchange DVDs, eat a late brunch, and sit in the sun for a bit). I then came back and went back to bed for a couple of hours.

Evening went by with me watching some TV, researching PD items (Gait Aid) on the web, and finishing up now with these notes. Soon--off to bed to read some and a new round begins. But I'm sick and tired of this seemingly endless cycle (I know that it's not truly endless)!

3747

Felt good to do the weights this afternoon. Still a bit of a stretch with the 12lb dumbbells but wasn't too bad given that I had a break. Stomach still a little twitchy but OK for the most part. Have had a bit more animal protein (chicken, turkey) over the past few days but without too much turmoil. I've been hungry and have eaten more than normal over the past few days. It's as if the stomach problem has worked its way through and out. Thank goodness! I can put my attention on other things--the list grows longer with each passing hour.

Dreamed last night about being in a house with my daughter and ex-wife (#3). I was directing two men who were friends of mine to another place where they could get a room. We didn't have enough space to house guests and they would be more comfortable in the other place. The dream went on and on but did resolve finally with them going to the other place to check it out. There were other parts and pieces of the dream that dealt with the house we lived in. There were lots of things that needed to be done in the place.

Watched an Iranian film tonight--The Willow Tree. Interesting film! Story revolved around a man who had been blind for over 30 years. He gets an operation that restores his sight. At first, he is transfixed by the flood of images (people, colors, faces, and all) that bombards him. He retreats back into his home and work area but becomes increasingly dissatisfied with his life. He becomes attracted to a woman younger than his wife and his marriage comes fully undone (even though there was no depiction of him acting out his thoughts). There were a few annoying technical issues with the film (captions coming up in English and Farsi on top of each other) but a good work. The director has done other films and has garnered several awards and prizes.

My life is like the man in the film except that I haven't awakened into the light. More like I've fallen into the darkness. As I've said--my list grows longer but the days continue to shrink. I can't seem to shift my vision back into the light. I need a cosmic operation! Maybe I should Google a cosmic surgeon!

3748

Made it to movement class today. Also had a tuina session. Also slept a lot and ate a lot. I'm feeling more and more hungry. Have (over the past week) been eating more food than I've been doing. I notice that I feel more alert and energized with more food. Have not been eating any sugars to speak of and that has produced a noticeable effect. Have missed being in class this week. Will get to weight training class tomorrow and go from there. The whole episode with my upset bowels (the energy and time I spent dealing with it) left me somewhat bummed and missing movement classes didn't help. I have a stack of undone things. I keep thinking that I'll get to them, handle them, but I can't seem to make any headway in that area. I keep saying (to myself) when I get better. But then something comes along (like the recent bowel upset) that eats up my energy reserves.

Whine, whine, whine! Bitch, bitch, bitch! Of what good is there from doing that? I've got to move on with everything. Make room for somehow doing more and clearing up the chaos! There has to be a way! There has to be one!

3749

Got test samples together this morning and dropped them at the lab. Yesterday (and last night) it was like someone had thrown a switch--most of my bowel problems subsided and nearly went away. I slept well and didn't have any rush to the toilet episodes last night. Today, things are almost back to normal. Like I said--it was like a switch being toggled--it was there and then it wasn't. Perhaps the extra dosages of Imodium that I took yesterday finally made a difference. Or, perhaps, it was yesterday's foods (stir fried brown rice and veggies, corn quesadilla and black beans, plus an apple). Whatever the cause, thank goodness for the respite.

Didn't go to class today (gait and balance). Came home and slept. Will make it to movement class tomorrow plus a tuina session. Should make it to weight training class on Friday. Feels so good to be almost back to normal. Will be interesting to get test results and see what they say.

Colder today/tonight. Not as cold as other locales, but cold enough for me.

3750

Went to the doctor today. After consultation, he suggests that I gather some stool samples and submit them for testing. He implied that it looks like I have an infection--either bacterial or parasitic. The tests will identify the source and we can go from there. In the meanwhile, I continue to flux and empty. I did a major cleanout last night (in the early morning). There wasn't much of a solidity to anything, but it all came loose. I hope I produce enough based on today's ingestion to fill the test tubes. Getting a sample to distribute into the tubes will be messy--and looks like it won't happen until later tonight (early tomorrow). Fun and games!

My regular PCP was not in this week. Had an on-call substitute. He seemed like a good person. He said I could continue using the Imodium until we get the test results. That makes me feel a bit better but not much. The looseness continues and elimination comes on quickly. It's been a shitty week to say the least.

Trying to eat a lot of fiber to try and help firm up what I'm processing. Apples, grains, vegetables, kefir, cheese and such! After seeing the doctor today I had a brown rice stir fry with veggies. Later in the afternoon I had two cornmeal quesadillas and a plate of black beans. Apple just a while ago! I eating clean if that counts for anything! Saga of the sagging gut! Missed classes today and will probably do the same for the rest of the week. Bummer! But this issue has to be flattened, for sure!

I'm feeling fine! No nausea, cramping, vomiting or pain of any kind! Just very loose and eruptive bowels! Let the testing begin!

3751

Bowels are better! Had some episodes early in the day, but everything calmed down as evening arrived. Still getting some minor upset but it's better.

Finished the Rimbaud novel that I've been reading at the H's. We move on next week to the actual poems.

Watched a movie tonight--Cairo Time. It's about a woman who gets stranded in Cairo when her husband gets detained in Gaza. She ends up opening up a Pandora's box of old thoughts and feelings--about her life, her family, her work and her relationships. A friend of her husband is the trigger for what happens when he agrees to watch after her until her husband arrives. It was a somewhat cerebral film that supposedly touched on emotions, memories, and unexpressed longings. But it all came off being light weight and having no great insights or resolutions. Patricia Clarkson was the lead and she did a credible job of playing an aging, lack of direction, woman caught in a dislocated swarm of experiences.

PD dance and weight training in the morrow! Some rains today! Onward and onward!

3752

Met with all of the R's tonight (men from the men's team whose first names all happen to start with R). It was good to see everyone and catch up a bit. One R has a new son who is doing well after starting off a bit bumpy. It has been more than a year since we last met (more like four years). Life goes on and things smooth out in some areas and grow lumpy in others. R, who lives in Oregon, was the catalyst that pulled us together. He was down on a business trip and prompted us to get together.

I had regular food today (toasted cheese sandwich, salad with smoked turkey, apple and kefir). Everything seems better in the bowel's department. May it continue to clear and unravel!

I had a somewhat twitchy time sitting as long as we did. I'm not (anymore) used to sitting still for a long time. I need to get up and move about.

Saw someone from the PD gait and balance class. He was the person who had the police stop him after he was reported to be "acting funny" in a fast food place. He was just exhibiting PD symptoms. The cops figured it out and did not detain him.

3753

Laundry done! Not much fun! Got up late and started late. Stir fried veggies and brown rice again. After a week of the same diet things are getting old. But no respite with the stomach turmoil. Still loose and upset. Looks like I'll have to see the doctor on Monday. Guess I can make it until then--just will involve a lot of toilet time. RB and others are getting together tomorrow evening for dinner. Not sure what I'll be able to ingest but it will be good to see everyone.

Watched the second part of Prime Suspect #5. The lead character falls into a shit hole full of difficulties and there is no clean resolution. Mirren was born for the role.

Made it to the library and picked up some new books. I had finished the ones I had and needed replacements. Keep on reading even though I stop the eating!

Don't look forward to having to see the doctor(s)! Keep thinking that everything should clear up on its own. I've never had stomach problems like this one before. Even the turmoils I've had for the past few years (related to PD) were nothing like what I have now. All will be revealed soon!

3754

Weight training went well today. Fairly large class! Nine people with PD were there. I was struck by the various states each of us is in relative to what symptoms we are exhibiting. Nine people and nine different manifestations. People moving slowly versus those of us that are moving well. We each have a range of tremor that we exhibit. There are various cognitive states, range of movement, and speeds of reaction to instructions. And there are several people who move really slowly or don't move much at all. A spectrum of views of the illness.

And then there are the things that are not being acted out--like the state of my bowels (loose and leaking gas). I'm sure there is a range of pains, tensions, cramps, and other phenomena that is not being manifested by each of us.

Yes, my digestion regressed today. Back to more of the looseness and mild discomfort. I had more rice and veggies for lunch again today. I was experiencing the digestion problems before eating--in late morning after I got up. I had some apple and kefir when I awoke. Took an Imodium after this evening's episode. I had a green tea latte after the weight training class--I just felt like having something warm and comforting. Had a bowl of chips (made from quinoa, beans, corn and spices--no wheat) while I watched an episode of Prime Suspect.

Laundry day tomorrow! The daze go by! In the blink of an eye! My, oh, my! Huckleberry pie!

3755

Movement class today (bigger than usual) but no movements. No action on the bowel movement front. Waiting for something to happen. Had a lunch of stir fried vegetables and brown rice (same for past three days). Loose bowels have been replaced by no action whatsoever. Had some kefir with apple for breakfast. Will continue along the same track tomorrow. I feel OK. No cramping or such, but also no hint of anything being out of place.

Watched a movie tonight--Matchstick Men. It was about con men and an episode of a big con that is done to one of the master con men. It was a bit like The Big Sting except there is a big con being run that is not discovered until it all comes together at the end. The film grossed over $65MM. Amazing! It's not all that spectacular. Nicolas Cage did the lead so it had star power!

After class, lunch and some errands, I came back and slept for a while. Feeling good! Weight training tomorrow! Lift those bales (or dumbbells)!

3756

Bowels were better last night and today. I had stir fried brown rice with vegetables again today. Will probably do the same tomorrow. Also had a bit of fruit. May have a little kefir in the morning with some apple. Kefir is supposed to fix all of the ailments I've been having with my digestion. I'd been drinking kefir for the past few months. That's what puzzled me about my stomach troubles. Will ease back into having some kefir each day. It's supposed to be the cure all for the belly.

Watched a SciFi film tonight--Inception. It was about dreams and using dreams to steal a person's knowledge or to plant an idea. The trick in doing so was to open up dreams within dreams. The story, to say the least, got convoluted and dense. The plot allowed the director to go wild with special effects in order to maintain continuity across the different dream levels. The film's budget was something like $160MM! It grossed around $800MM! The film's action took place on the various dream levels--in about 4 to 5 levels. The plan was to do an idea plant using three dream levels. But the dream team ran into difficulties and had to ad lib a few more dream levels. Oh, yeah! Overall it was a clever idea and reminded me of my "Escher-like" dreams.

Movement class tomorrow! Hope my stomach issues are healed. Everything was much better today and I only took one Imodium tablet all day. Still puzzled as to what triggered this episode and its emphatic reversal of how things had been going for the past four years or so. PD mysteries!

3757

Went to PD dance class and weight training session today. Picked up some Imodium since I'm still having bowel problems (loose). Managed to get to classes and participate once I had taken the first dosages. Will see how things go tonight/tomorrow. No gait/balance class tomorrow. Had a simple stir-fry for lunch with brown rice and vegetables. Also had some apple and banana. Will see how things progress and will probably have the same thing tomorrow. One thing and another! Where the wind blows!

Watched a funky Romanian film tonight--The Way I Spent the End of the World. I had seen the film before but didn't recall any details until I screened it again tonight. I don't think the film made a lot of sense on my first time with it. It was more coherent this time and was an interesting film about the lives of a brother and sister during the days when the country became an independent nation. It was the end of the world as they knew it then.

It's been warmer the past few days. Hint of Spring!

3758

And my caissons keep rolling along! I slept deeply last night and I thought my stomach disorders were quietened. But got a surprise later this afternoon. My system did an emptying that was volcanic in stature. I've not felt nauseous, or bloated, or had any cramping. But I seemed to have an awful lot of debris backed up in my system. I am clear, now! Incredibly clear!

In the last few nights, I've dreamed something about being a problem solver. I was giving people advice regarding some products--how to make them work well and how to smooth out their designs. I awoke several times (from several of these dreams) with the knowledge that I had given the perfect answer to some questions that had been asked. As I awoke, the certainty of the dreams dissolved and fragmented. It was a strange feeling.

Watched a Turkish film tonight--Times and Winds. It was somewhat mysterious look at a village of poor, hard-working people and their families. Their five-times daily call to prayer formed the basis of their lives. There were echoes of Kiarostami in the look and style of the film. It got a bit drawn out but was intriguing.

PD dance and weight training sessions tomorrow. Back to the cycle!

3759

Super Bowl (or is it Super Bowel?) is over. I missed it all! I slept and ate and watched the movie Wall-e. Thought the film was dull and rather shallow/dumb. Yes, it had a lot of CGI but the story arc was highly contrived. I didn't feel that it was a kid's movie. I'm glad I finally got to see it but it's not going on my list of must sees.

I keep oscillating between feeling like I want to be doing something other than sleeping/eating/eliminating and feeling like I can't muster the energy to do anything more than those basic functions. My thoughts are really fragmented and disjoint. I know that I should be planning for the future but I can't get beyond the immediate, the now.

Year of the dragon! The year seems like it may be a doorway to major cataclysmic events. 2012 and the end of the current cycle! The circles spin and turn. They wrap back on themselves. Darkness fills the dreams!

3760

Sleep and rest, rest and sleep! I hunkered down today. Went out for a short while but came back and went to bed for several hours. Stomach disruption seems to be playing out. Had a soup and cornbread for brunch plus some fruit before and later. It felt good to just wrap up and stay really warm.

Watched the third segment of the Prime Suspect DVD. Inspector (Mirren) proves her original conviction of a serial killer was well founded. She ferrets out a copycat that is giving everyone a merry chase. She drinks, she smokes, she curses, and a lot more! But, she brings down the criminals despite the abrasions she creates.

The night came quickly since I slept so much. Time already to head back to the bed. Full moon on its way!

3761

Bowel turmoils have abated. Now there has been a lengthy silence. Waiting for go doo! Strange time in the life of a PWP. And time marches onward!

Went to weight training (big) class today. We had 12 people again today (and there were at least 4 people who were not there but have been coming. I was a little wobbly today and had trouble pushing the 12lb weights through the presses. Still feeling strong on the push ups though. Felt good even though I was a bit light.

Had lunch at Garden Fresh cafe. Veggie dish with lots of brown rice. Later, I did have a green tea latte, some crackers, half an apple, and a bit of cheese. I feel hungry but still trying to stay close to BRAT diet. My stomach feels clearer but now have to watch for congestion of the digestion. No rest! Always a balancing act!

Watched a Prime Suspect episode tonight. The stories are "comfortable" in some strange way. And they are always twisty-turfy in some odd ways.

I ran across a word last night that I had to look up today. Autochthonous! It means native or indigenous. As contrasted with allochthonous meaning at a distance or from far away! Strange words for a strange story.

3762

Bowels are better! Rested, slept, ate simply, and kept warm today! Did not make it to movement class--had my own movements with which to deal. Hopefully, can make weight training session tomorrow. Have to keep my diet on the BRAT scale (banana, rice, apple, toast). Had apple for breakfast; tried brown rice for lunch, apple for dinner, and a few wheat crisps for snack. Still taking the anti-diarrhea tablets. Strange disruption of my system! Don't know exactly what it was that triggered the chaos, but it seems to be abating.

Watched a segment of Prime Suspect tonight. Strong story lines in these episodes. Mirren does an incredible job in her role.

Having dreams but don't remember much about the content. Saw an article on quadcopters. They are amazing small helicopters that can be hand built and flown remotely. They are about the size of a hummingbird and can be flown in formations where each copter is in communication with the flock. Amazing use of technology! Each person can have their personal flock of drones! Where is all of this headed? Where is all going to end?

3763

Had to cancel any plans to make it over to Sacramento this weekend for J's birthday party. Sad to have to cancel but my "weak end" doesn't appear to be getting better by the week end. I chomped down some anti-diarrhea tablets. They seemed to help some but didn't eliminate the problem. Also canceled tomorrow's movement class. I had a huge meatloaf sandwich today hoping that it would do what it normally does--clog things up a bit. I'll know more in the morrow.

Out of this turmoil I came to a realization that I need to up my technology and get more ways to stay in touch with everyone (iPad, Skype, etc.). It makes total sense given where I am and what I'll probably be doing as time unfolds.

Watched an episode of a British detective series--Midsomer Murders. The series is a generally light take on English copper stories. It makes for light fare without a lot of required thought. And there's always the British sense of humor (or humour if you will).

So the mysteries of the bowels once again assumes a prominent position in life's madness. So many symptoms and so many things that can be affected. Dreams come and go. I head once again for the comfort of the bed and the dead night dread which comes instead and that needs be fed. Sing a song of six pence and a pocketful of rye!