5411

Made it to the beach today! Woke up and did exercises. Ate some breakfast and just felt like walking on the beach. So, motored over the hill and went walking along the shoreline in a misty drizzle. Not that many people out and about over there--was a peaceful meander. Came back through HMB and grabbed a bowl of soup at the organic foods store. Tasty vege stew with rice! Motored back to a warmer clime. After going shopping, I lay down and slept for a bit. Will be taking a trip to the beach more often--it was a break, something different, and invigorating. Worth the effort--just to breathe the sea air.

Dreamed last night about being involved in a major technology company startup. There was a whole scene of being in a classroom with other new hires. There was a young kid there who knew everything about everything. The instructor handled it smoothly even though the kid was disruptive--talking a lot, making comments, and so forth.

A second part of the dream involved getting assigned to a work group. It was done by lottery. Everyone was assigned to a specific group and had to find their way to where that group was being set up. I wandered around checking things out. I found a pile of gear and appropriated some equipment. I was carrying the equipment with me when I found my way back to the grouping areas. I realized that for some reason, I was assigned to be a group of one. It felt odd to be isolated from everyone else, but I found my desk and started setting up.

There was a lot more that happened in this dream. Things that had to do with meeting the CEO and so forth. CW was there and was part of the action. He introduced me to the CEO. There were parts of the dream that seemed to be from earlier dream states--ones that I hadn't recalled or recorded, but that played out last night. Interesting!

Maybe I'll have some ocean dreams tonight. That would be nice!

5412

Fell asleep early again. Met with L to give her a belated B-day gift. Had a cookie and a huge glass of milk. That and the lunch I had at DeeDee's kept me from having to eat dinner. Had a glass of chocolate milk instead. All that milk made me want to sleep. And, it's continued today. Slept this afternoon until the temperature made it too uncomfortable to nap. Just don't feel like moving around--just want to sleep.

Had an elaborate dream last night. I call it the NASA dream. It was about a space travel (transfer) project that used electromagnetics to set up platforms in space and connect those platforms during transfer operations. The dream was about a demonstration of the concept and letting NASA people experience the transfers. Each platform had a large flat surface where people could stand. There were a few wires and magnets attached to each platform that helped locate and orient the surface. It was fairly chilly since these platforms were sitting high in the atmosphere. Some people, who were lightly dressed, got cold. The transfers worked as planned and people were zipping back and forth from place to place.

It was an exhilarating dream and I awoke filled with energy. Quite the opposite of this afternoon and my mega-sleeping. Dream was clear and uncomplicated despite the subject matter. Fun stuff! May such dreams continue!

5413

Fell asleep early last night and awoke to someone playing the flute. It was still fairly early, but it was quiet and the flute notes hung in the evening air. I'm was restless--full moon energies.

Dreamed last night about making a toy. It was made in four sections that when moved together created a counting sequence. Section one counted 1-2-3. Section two when attached to section one counted 1-2-3-4-5-6, and so on. Section one counted by itself when it was shaken. Also experimented with a three-section version that counted 1-2-3-4-5, 6-7-8, and 9-10. The original version counted to 12. The dream dealt mostly with play testing the devices.

Like I said, I've been more restless than sleepy. I have to lay down to get quiet, but don't necessarily fall asleep. I replied to the PDTeam's check in note and requested four sessions for the final four months of this year. That means I'll be doing some chiropractic work, some acupressure massages, and some treatments. All that, and I'll working on my H-pylori colonization, and resting as needed. The beat goes on!

5415-5414

Missed another posting as I fell asleep early last night. Getting to be a habit--dozing off as the day cools down and I'm coiled up on the floor. Not causing any problems--and I'm sleeping well even though I'm napping mostly and having to get up to shift into bed.

Dreams have been prolific. Two dreams on Thursday night. One about a huge lawn party that was attended by a host of AARP types. They were all elderly and silver-haired. Elaborate event with dozens (or more) attendees. Lots of food and music. I somehow didn't fit in--my hair was not silver enough. People were generally older than me. I mixed and wandered around, but nothing of substance ever happened.

A second dream involved a wolf. I was on a ranch on the plains. There were livestock of all sort. A wolf appeared and wasn't bothering the livestock. The creature just seemed to want to hang around the place. There was a woman there (my wife) and the wolf took to following her as she went about the chores. He shadowed her everywhere she went--always keeping a distance, but being very attentive to what she was doing.

Last night, I had a two-part dream. One part involved working on the solution to a mathematics problem. The problem was stated as an equality with terms that were tensors as coefficients. There was a team of us working on the solution. The team was being coached by a woman. She helped us parse the problem components and suggested approaches that might lead to a solution. The second part of the dream involved having the team fly to a conference where we were to present our results. For some reason, I had assumed that the conference was in town within flying distance of the team's location. Turned out that the conference was taking place in Hawaii. I had to scramble around to book flights for everyone, get them rooms, and rent cars. None of us had clothing for that location. I assumed we'd just have to buy stuff when we landed. We all made it to the conference and there were scenes of us on the beach as well as attending sessions.

I've been resting a lot today--not so much sleeping as just being still. The past few days, the symptoms have been light for the most part. Got a note from the PDTeam asking how I'm doing. Will send them a reply and ask them to set up some monthly sessions for the last four months of this year. Time flies!

5417-5416

Went to sleep last night before I posted anything. Double up and ketchup!

Dental session yesterday was disappointing. My teeth/gums were in the worst shape in a while. Hopefully, with the cleaning, renewed attention, mastic gum and other interventions, I can turn things around. Had a lot of bleeding, but pockets were not deeper than at last exam. Some hope!

Yesterday (and the day before), I didn't sleep in the afternoon. Went for a haircut around my usual nap time and I didn't seem to want to sleep. Grew tired early in the evening.

Had an acupressure massage today (now on a weekly schedule). Feel "quiet" and was also quiet last night and this morning. Will see what happens!

L returned! She was at a family gathering for over a week and is now recovering from the trip. I guess she mentioned the trip earlier this year, but I only vaguely recall anything about it. Hmmmm! Alzheimer's too!

Dreamed last night that I was attending a seminar being run by Dr. D, my previous chiropractor. It was not about chiropractic information--not sure what the course was about. He was giving the opening class and going over the ground rules of what was to happen. It was a huge class. Previously, he was doing something similar, but for small groups of 10-15 people. In last night's session, there were 100's of students. He was smooth and polished, cracking jokes, and being really upbeat. I believe the course was about health and healing, but am not sure about that. He acknowledged me and others who were some of his old clients. It was a positive, energizing dream.

May make an excursion to the beach tomorrow. Nothing set for next week except a massage session. Feeling like being on the move in some way.

5418

What was exciting today? Laundry! That was it! Biggest thing on my agenda. Didn't nap today! Spent a long time out of the apartment. Not doing anything particular, just ran some errands and drove around. Lazy, crazy day.

Have dental hygiene in the late morning and maybe will get a haircut. Acupressure massage on Thursday. Feel myself slipping into hazy mode--not sure why--just how it feels.

No word from L. Keep expecting to hear from her. At least get a summary of what's going on.

Egrets flying! Saw a snow white egret sailing over the trees. Omen? Perhaps!

Early to bed tonight? Perhaps! Waiting for the cool to arrive. It's still muggy!

5419

Good session with the chiropractor today. Sat in front of the Tesla machine for 8 minutes. Then went shopping, grabbed a sandwich, and sat in the park for a spell. Nice breeze today and it was peaceful in the park. Came back and fell asleep. Heat starting to build.

The quiet and peace of the park made me think of having a place to live where I can sit undisturbed in nature. That living arrangement would be ideal.

I saw a man downtown who was having difficulty walking. He was festenating and struggling to move. He obviously was dealing with PD. My walking isn't as bound up as his seemed to be, but I'm having issues in that area. Using a treadmill might help. Have to explore.

Dreamed last night about doing a play. I've had this dream before (several times) and it always ends up with the troupe doing the performance, but not having rehearsed the final scene. It's a key part of the play for me and I start to panic when I realize we haven't rehearsed. Last night, I produced a copy of the script that covered the final scene. It was abbreviated from the standard version, but would have worked. Someone else produced a copy of the standard version. We were debating what to do as I awoke. Strange dream to be repeating. Not having rehearsed the final scene, but the show must go on!

5420

Dreamed last night about me creating a set of scenery sketches for a musical. There were seven major scenes and I produced drawings for all seven plus ancillary sketches for certain key props, costumes, and miscellaneous equipment. I delivered the drawings to the director and producer the night before a major dress rehearsal. They grabbed them and went charging off to implement the concepts. It was a major production and what I proposed would highlight the musical elements. As I dreamed, parts of the scenery was being built and installed. Costumes were being altered. It was a whirlwind of creative work that was accomplished in record time. It felt good to have contributed to the overall effort in such a key way.

Fuzzy, buzzy day! Was lethargic and kept wanting to sleep. It was warm and muggy most of the day so afternoon was lost. Cooling a bit now, but still muggy.

West Nile on the rise. Haven't seen many mosquitoes around here, but parts of the state are getting cases. Too many hazards--no end to it all.

Unit down the street going for $1.2MM (asked), but not a lot of interest. Tiny townhome on a tiny street! Convenient, but nothing great!

July rushes to the end of its days! August arrives with more heat! The daze of summer!

5421

Relatively quiet day on the symptom front. Still slept a fair amount and didn't get out much today. Did a few crossword puzzles.

Dreamed last night a series of dreams. One had to do with remodeling an old house. We were stripping it bare and had plans to rebuild from the bare walls. I worked on cleaning and clearing; stripping walls back to the studs.

A second part of the dream had me, and others, waiting for a plane that was going to take us to the Arctic. There were four or five Canadian mounties waiting. They were riding a horse drawn carriage. A single horse was attached to the carriage. As we waited, a pack of dogs, a mother dog and several of her pups, came bounding through the people waiting. They were a pack of dogs who belonged to one of my neighbors. I seldom saw them when I was at the house because of a dense hedge that separated the properties. Eventually, they clambered back toward their house and yard.

There was a third part of the dream that dealt more with the house and the group of us who lived there. No details on that part of the dream.

Well, Bush had his polyps removed today. Cheney was in charge while Bush was under. Scary times!

5422

No jury duty! In five days, they only called a handful of people and, I assume, only empaneled a few of those. Summer justice at work! Can't complain! I didn't get called.

I was really logy today--feeling like I wanted to sleep, but couldn't get still. May crash early tonight unless I encounter a flux of energy.

Started getting this place ready for a cleaning. I've been here 1.5 years (hard to fathom!) and the place needs a clean up. I'll have to hire a service, but it'll be worth it--for my peace of mind. Have to do a little prep, but I think I've got that figured out. It'll be an easy clean for the service.

Saw my previous chiropractor today. I was in good spirits and indicated that I was making progress. He just moved into some new offices near where I get my hair cut.

I've been relatively quiet today, but not highly energetic. Perhaps some let down from anticipating having to deal with jury selection, which didn't happen. Had a cup of chocolate ice cream--as a reward for doing my duty!

L should be coming back sometime over this weekend--based on whatever's been happening. I'm sure she's been in Finland dealing with her father in some way. Hope all is well! Peace, peace, peace!

5423

Acupressure massage and no jury duty! Massage was wonderful! I'll be seeing him every week for a while to check out what happens with more frequent sessions. Good things, I believe!

The system of justice must run slowly in the middle of the summer. Lots of potential jurors not being empaneled. No complaints--just observations.

Read a story last night in the Farley Mowat collection. I had seen the story dramatized on TV a long time ago. As I started reading, the whole story came back to me visually. It was like watching a movie. It was the story about a frontier pilot who got stranded in the wilderness. He was taking an Eskimo woman to a hospital and they crashed. She helped them survive by using her native skills. He learned how to deal with elements from her and ended up surviving because of her. She, however, didn't survive the journey back to civilization. It was a great story when I saw it a long time ago. It was a great story to revisit. I'm still amazed at how clearly and completely I recall the images. The brain and mind are astounding things.

After the massage today, I successfully juggled three balls for a number of repetitions--almost went into continuous juggle mode! A breakthrough! I've said all along that when I can juggle at will, I'll be recovered! Today was a good day!

I was a bit logy after the massage, but also energized. I slept for a short time.

L has been out of communication for about a week. There must be some problem with her father and she flew to be with him. Hope all is well! My telephone was not working for a few days and I didn't know it. It wouldn't let me call out--don't know if it was blocking incoming calls as well. It's so smart it should announce that it's not working. I had to power cycle it to get it unscrambled.

Busy week next week! Hope my jury duty luck (not being called) sustains. May it be so!

5424

The jury duty angels are still keeping me unempaneled. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Slow week at the courts it seems.

Rained a bit today! April showers in July!

Was a bit slow in moving about this morning--probably the low pressure system that brought the rain. Feeling logy, but OK. Have acupressure massage scheduled for tomorrow--jury duty permitting! Just had a serving of salmon chowder. It was rich and savory. Will probably take a nap in a bit.

Been reading Farley Mowat's short stories. Interesting insights into life near the arctic circle and the customs and beliefs of the people who once lived there in numbers--before they were decimated by disease and famine. Snow Walker! Legend, myth, and life in the frozen world. His stories have a compassion for the people and their ways. He's written quite a bit of non-fiction--some eco-books.

I've two other story collections that I've not dove into yet. Going to bed times have been erratic over the past few weeks--weather and stuff creating dislocations. Feeling more settled this week. Still napping/sleeping a fair amount. So be it!

5425

The grid was fired early this morning. I woke up around the time (4:11AM) and was able to add a sleepy set of good wishes to the event. Let's pray that it was effective and made a shift across the planet.

No jury duty today! Will check back in a while regarding tomorrow's schedule--hopefully more of the same--nada.

Dreamed last night that I was with a team of men who were camping in a densely forested area. We were some kind of survey group with a lot of cross discipline experience. I rode a train to get to a pickup point. I was retrieved and taken by jeep to the campsite. There was a peculiar ritual of one of the men expounding on his subject area as the rest of us made camp. At first, I thought we were just there for the day, but realized that it was going to be easier to stay and camp. We had a lot of equipment and looked to be outfitted for the long haul.

Slept quite a bit this afternoon after lunch (DeeDee's). Conked out for over two hours. Heat finally made me give it up. Feeling fairly clear, but want to sleep. Keep thinking that I'm about to shift into a new mode, but hasn't happened. Went for a walk this morning, which helped foster the sleeping binge.

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow--creeps on! Juris prudence!

5426

Wasn't called for jury duty today. Will check back later this afternoon for tomorrow's assignments. I'm feeling good! Still rested/slept some today, but feeling like there's some life force in this old vessel, this old bulb of flesh. Symptoms are abated today--feels nice!

Dreamed last night about being in a wooded area like a national forest. There were people here and there, but no big crowds. The first part of the dream had me skating on downhill trails using a pair of "Heelies"--the newest skating craze. I was careening down the trails some of which were precipitous and quite twisty. There were some young kids on some of the trails and we were skating together. It was fun and exciting.

In a second part of the dream, I was in a cabin with one of my sons (when he was younger). The cabin was dark and there was a man moving about outside. He had something to do with my son--something he wanted from him. I was figuring out how to get us out of the cabin without encountering the man. I was packing our gear in knapsacks and was planning to skate out on our Heelies. The dream ended just as we were leaving the cabin.

Fire the Grid meditation early Tuesday morning--a planet-wide earth healing meditation--at 4:11AM my time. I'm ready for a planet-wide healing! Let it be so!

Feeling clear, but slightly askew. But, it's been a good day--what can I say? Looking forward to extra acupressure massages--soon. Fill this bulb of flesh with Thy holy, healing light!

5427

Cool at last! Was a warm, muggy day and extra heat in the afternoon. Not conducive to napping.

Fell asleep last night under the fan. Awoke after midnight chilled and made it to bed then.

Walked again this morning--getting back into the rhythm of doing so. I really need to push myself and do the walks. I was slower today over yesterday, but pushed through and made my route.

On alert for jury duty tomorrow. Will be interesting to see how that activity affects symptoms, etc. If I'm called, at least it will be air conditioned.

Dreamed last night but forgot the details. Seemed that is was a replay dream from the night before, which I also didn't recall.

Have an acupressure massage scheduled on Thursday (jury duty permitting). If I do make it, I'll accelerate the frequency to one every week. I think that will be a good step to make. We shall see! Fill my bulb of flesh with thy divine healing light!

Been using the mastic gum for a week now. I think there's been some positive changes--will see when I get next dental hygiene (late next week). Onward and upward!

5428

Bastille Day! Happy revolution! Was in and out of it today. Warm day. Got out for a walk early before the heat settled in. Still muggy now. Made resting/sleeping difficult.

Today was L's B-day. Hope she did something fun. I believe it's her big 6-O event. I'm sure her lady friends had something planned.

I think I dreamed last night, but can't recall anything about it--just the impression of having dreamed.

Really want to be doing something different--I'm burned through on healing and am ready to move onward--on to something that reverses the inward spiral that I'm cascading downward with. Spending more time with humorous stuff. RB sent a link through about outsourcing daycare (on The Onion site). Funny stuff! Also got a clever note from LL about a flooding in the Crawford, TX presidential library--both books were destroyed and one wasn't even colored in yet.

So, ha, ha, ha! Ha, ha, ha! Ha, ha, ha! And the beat (and the heat) goes on!

5429

Friday the 13th! Usually one of my lucky days. Nothing particularly momentous about today. Maybe it will come in a dream. Of course, last night was the dream time for today and I don't recall what dreams I may have had.

I'm on call for jury duty starting today. Maybe that's the momentous event. Jury activities will really begin next week and I know I'm not empaneled for early Monday morning--maybe that's the good news.

Warmed up today. In fact, was hot this afternoon despite a brisk wind. Had trouble resting/sleeping because of the heat. My small fan is still cranking away and it's almost 8pm.

Fire the Grid world-wide meditation is scheduled for Tuesday morning at 4:11am my time. There's even chaos around that event--people posting "warnings" that the event is a plot by the dark forces to mind-grab the multitudes. Nothing is simple any more--everything has to be complex.

Trying to follow the news is boggling! Right is wrong and wrong is right! And, the bulk of the news involves body counts in some form or another. Over the past year I've become a news junkie. Have been cutting back recently. Too much negative stuff. Not helping me heal!

L's birthday tomorrow! The big 6-O! Happy B-day L! Many more!

5430

Quiet day! Rested and slept while it was cooler. Getting warmer now as the day proceeds.

Went to bed a bit earlier than usual last night. Felt tired and just wanted to sleep even though I napped yesterday. Having some slow digestion issues. Ate lightly yesterday and today, but plan on eating at DeeDee's tonight. Had a burrito on Tuesday that slowed down the digestive processes. Animal protein seems difficult to move through my system. Have to take some HCL tablets to increase my stomach acids when I eat animal protein (meat). See if that makes a difference.

Dreamed last night, but don't recall the content.

Didn't make it out for a walk today. Will make a ramble in the morrow. Almost time for dinner. Ran across a humor site -- http://www.allowe.com/index.htm -- by Al Lowe, a Sierra Online games designer. His collection of visual gags is impressive--almost a 1000 images! Lots of chuckles!

5431

Awoke to the Wednesday morning trash pickup activities. Pulled the bedding over my head and went back to sleep for a while. Finally, made it up and did exercises, etc. Ended up doing laundry. Wednesdays are good days at the laundromat--virtually only one there.

Went to library and picked up some reading materials. Got a short story collection by Farley Mowat--will start with his work tonight.

Things went fairly smoothly until about 2pm. Then, had to rest/sleep. I went out for a couple of hours. Symptoms stayed with me today--not much of a let up. Trying to notice the symptom intensity and characteristics. Varies each day, but the larger daily pattern seems to play out each day.

Last night, symptoms quieted down in the late evening. Seemed to be a response/reaction to the chiropractor session. Body work seems to work--seems to have a positive effect. Looking forward to getting more frequent acupressure massages and what that does.

Nothing special planned tomorrow. Perhaps can make some progress on "next steps." Need to walk some tomorrow--missed taking regular walks so far this week. Onward and onward!

5432

Chiropractor returns! My back and shoulder are doing quite well. It's been 3 weeks since my last adjustment with him and things are relatively quiet. Good news!

Two major dream segments last night (despite me falling asleep on the floor and awakening in the early morning hours). One involved moving to a new town. I was with a woman (sort of a mush of my different ex-wives). We had moved to a house in a town that was nestled in the foothills. It was heavily forested and a bit rural. I took off on a bike ride around town and ended up at a pub. The people were friendly and I lost track of time and it got quite late before I noticed the time. I called the woman and told her what happened and asked if she wanted to join me. She was tired from the move and told me to go ahead and enjoy, be careful coming home, and she'd see me later.

The second dream involved building a toy. The toy's components were developed by individual teams and the parts assembled using a robotic assembly tool. The toy was intricate, but was built well and could withstand heavy usage. I was in charge of one of the component teams and was feeding assembly data into the assembly tool. The data were in the form of stacks of paper (like the paper stacks in the previous night's dream). The atmosphere in the assembly area was light and positive--we knew we were creating a great product.

Continue to wrestle with the PD issues and what I'm going to need to do about my future(s). Can't seem to put a lot of focus on my options without falling asleep (which is one option--just keep sleeping my time away). My dreams seem lively enough and filled with energy. My waking seems less energetic and coherent. The one thing I've come to realize--I've had this set of disorders for some time--decades. The feelings and sensations were happening for many years--all the way back into early childhood. Not that that makes a lot of difference now--just a data point among many.

5433

Chiropractor got stuck in Atlanta--holiday travel delays. Will see him in the morrow.

Dreams last night about making some copies of documents. The documents were thick and had inserts in each stack that kept jamming the machines. I'd figured out how to solve the problem by only copying up to the inserts. Not sure what the documents were about.

There was another part of the dreaming that dealt with an eating place. The food was served in a massive buffet arrangement. There was a lot more food choices than could be made before you encountered overload. Food was good, just too much to deal with.

I reached a conclusion today--I've got PD! I've been dealing with everything as if I didn't "have" it, but was only temporarily experiencing symptoms that eventually would go away. It's been a bit over 1.5 years since all this began and I'm still wrestling with some of the same issues (tremor and cog-fog) plus I've been dealing with fatigue (which was not part of the equation at the start--at least not to the extent that I have now). Each day, I seem to discover some new limitation that I wasn't aware of previously.

So, I've got PD! What to do about it? I don't have a clue! It's like I'm starting all over--as if the past 1.5 years was a dream--not a pleasant one--and one that's looking ominous. It's clear I'm going to have to make some accommodations. What exactly that may be is not too clear. The next phase begins!

5434

Met with RB this morning for breakfast. He was here over the weekend with his lady friend, M. First time I met her. She and RB make a good couple.

We met at 8AM, which threw my day out of kilter. It was good to see RB and M, and good to have breakfast early, but my system is just now recovering--I felt dislocated and really fuzzy most of the day. It wasn't what I ate, but more like the stress of getting up early and having to move around ahead of my normal schedule.

I've been called for jury duty the week of the 16th. Concerned about my ability to get to courthouse, etc. and keep my self together. I'd like to explore doing it, but don't want to deplete what little energies I can muster. Today was a data point and not a very encouraging one.

I collapsed a lot today--sleeping and resting. It's been hot and muggy, which does not help.

No sign of dreams or dreaming. Inner world is staying inner. Starting to cool down a bit. Have chiropractor session in the morrow. And then some noodling over jury duty and how to do it. Would help if I can take public transportation to/from (or only have to go to Palo Alto court--would be a miracle if that happened of course). We shall see!

5435

Still feeling positive effects from acupressure massage. Was able to deeply meditate last night--late when all was quiet, but deep.

Slept a fair amount today, but restful sleep. Got somewhat warm late this afternoon, but managed fairly well with my small fan moving the molecules around.

Walked after lunch. Experienced slowing down some. Keep discovering new things that I can't go--such as fanning myself with a magazine. The cogwheeling takes over and keeps me from making a smooth motion. Progressive!

Read about a patch that's being used to deliver a newer form of medication. It still has some of the side effects, but simplifies the pill-taking process. I don't know! I really don't want to take any medication. Will increase my number/frequency of acupressure massages first and see what happens there. So far the indications are very positive.

Dreamed some the last few nights, but don't remember them. Doing Hong-Sau breathing late in the evening seems to balance everything. Will keep on keeping on. Breakthroughs can happen any moment. So be it!

5437-5436

Acupressure massage person is back from long vacation. Had a session yesterday! First one in five weeks. It was wonderful! Need to get more of those treatments!

Got really warm here yesterday. Can't imagine what it's like in all those places with 110+ degrees. Hotter than hot! Getting warm today, but milder than yesterday.

Slept a fair amount yesterday despite the heat. Turned on my small fan and used it to keep a cooling draft aimed my way.

Week feels scrambled! Holiday in the middle throws off my sense of which day is which. Feels like Saturday today, but it's only Friday.

Just got a call from RB--wants to meet for breakfast on Sunday. Should have days sorted out by then. Meeting at the CG at 8am. He's down for the weekend with his lady friend. Will meet her for the first time.

Fell asleep last night on a set of pillows. Woke up and made it to bed around 2am. Tremor was quiet--from acupressure massage. Still fairly quiet today. Been drinking, for me, a lot of water. I feel parched and am downing the liquids. Massage specialist remarked yesterday that we often don't know what form healing assumes. Certainly, true for me! Nothing like what I expected or would have predicted. And so it goes! And goes! And goes!

5438

Scorching today! Lots of heat. Cooling down some now, but still plenty warm.

Dreamed last night about being in a rural mountain region. One part of the dream involved me finding my way through some parts of the region by walking. I had to traverse several ridges in order to make my way. I did so and felt good navigating the trails.

A second part of the dream was about a building that housed some intelligence operations. I had a key card that let me gain access to any of the rooms. I was moving through the rooms recording data from terminals. There were some people meeting in some of the rooms. They looked up when I came by, but didn't try and talk with me.

Both dreams were quite detailed and clear.

Have to curtail this posting. I'm dripping wet from the heat and don't want to short circuit my keyboard!

5439

Foggy day, in symptom town! Had me up and had me down.

Was also hot and muggy--still is. Awoke early, exercised and walked. Smoothie for breakfast; DeeDee's for lunch. Slept several hours in the early afternoon.

Tomorrow is the 4th. Seems like an odd day to have a holiday--middle of the week! Looking forward to the 5th--acupressure massage person returns. Let the massages begin!

Time to do some more Hong-Sau breathing--and visualization of my next abode--let there be light!

5440

Days fly away! Click-click! Another 24 hours is consumed.

Spent the day flopping around. Slept some and the rest. Tried to monitor my status, but lost track somewhere around noon. Awoke feeling fairly clear (except for 2 hours from 6 to 8am where I'm half awake and the tremor is active). Lasted for about 2 hours and the fog sat in. Went back to bed and stayed there for a couple of hours. Then up, ate, went shopping, and the rest of the afternoon is a jumble. Did crossword puzzles, some shopping on the web (ordered some mastic dental gum), and dinked around--and slept some more until the heat settled in and turned the place into an oven. Noise factor went up as well (how many different ways can a person slam a door?).

Place where my daughter has moved shows 100+ degree temperatures for the coming week. Hope they have a swamp cooler on their new abode.

Noodled around some thoughts of what I want in a place. Words come to mind--quiet, peaceful, in nature, neighbors close by but not adjacent, walking/biking trails, pool (would be nice), sanctuary. I'd feel OK paying a bit more than I'm paying now for the right place. Need a place to heal--not just a roof and camping spot.

Energy! Need energy! Need energy enough to make something happen. It's time for a shift! A shift in time! Sending out the guides and angels to help me find the right place! May it happen soon!

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July 1st! One half of a year counted down and out!

I was a bit foggy today (what's new?). Slept a fair amount--seemed that that was what my system needed. Making up for yesterday's excursion. Was fairly quiet here and about today until a few hours ago. Quiet again now!

Days becoming so much like each other that I'm beginning to lose track. I still know which day it is so I must not be in a total blur. If I start losing track of which day is which, I'll start to be concerned (more so than I already am).

I need to create some breakthroughs this month. Despite the ennui, I feel that I have to do something to break the patterns and create new grooves. Here's to July! May it be a breakthrough month in this cycle of illusions. Fire the Grid!