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I felt strong in resistance training today! Did the presses as strong as I've done them in a while. Have a G&B session tomorrow. According to forecasts we can expect some winds up through tomorrow evening. Blow winds and crack your cheeks! Rage! Blow!

When I went out for dinner I encountered some sad news--my favorite eating place, the Country Gourmet, is quitting business on May 19. They've sold the location to a developer who's planning to install an, as yet, unnamed food place. Unfortunately for me and all others that like to eat there, I don't anticipate anything as good and tasty as the CG produces now. Plus it looks like the warm and friendly staff will no longer work there as well. To bad! So sad! I will greatly miss the place. I always could count on the CG for a healthy, hearty, tasty meal! Not many places like that anymore.

The flushing/redness hasn't been happening lately (for the past few weeks). It went on for about the same period of time as it did the past few years. It's seasonal! Makes me suspect pollen even more. Allergic to Winter and Spring! Strange allergic reactions!

Resistance class was fairly well attended today. Several people are on holiday and a few are having issues (like CM and her newly broken hip). I guess that tomorrow's G&B class will be overflowing as usual.

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Heat today--lots of it! It got into the low 90s or so it seemed. When I stepped out to go to C&M class it was like I'd stepped into the jet stream of a blast furnace. Thank goodness for the AC in my truck! I could at least ride about in some comfort. Forecast is for more of the same!

Went to the dentist after the C&M class (which was really a workout today). No big deal at the dentist--they just wanted to take an impression of my lower teeth to make sure the bridge will be right for my bite. The dentist, Dr. Thai, is a stickler for details and asked the lab making the bridge to take some extra steps. So, I can't really complain--they're just taking good care of me and my teeth!

Dreamed more last night about working on a project. It was like a continuation of some parts of previous dreams--like the pause button had been pressed and then the movie restarted from where everything left off.

It was really warm this evening and the new neighbors took to the tiny recreation area. I think they also had a few visitors. Things got noisy for a while but eventually tapered down and stillness descended. I'm really so ready to move into the senior community for which I'm on the waiting list. I've now been here a bit over seven years! Time to move on! Get 'em up, move 'em out, get along--rawhide!

3311

Sun day on a Sunday! No rain of import until the Fall is the prediction. Meanwhile, things will get warmer. Oceans are heating and the danger of wild fires is on the increase.

Dropped by the new Safeway grocery that's in the mega-mall where PA, LA, and MV all come together. It's a really spacious store! There were a host of people checking out what it offers. There are two Starbucks in the complex--both near the store's main entrance! Incredible! Shop until you drop and then get a Frappuccino flop! Parking was challenging but doable it seemed. Of course, this was not a holiday weekend--when it is beware of the crowds in cars coming to the place!

Have a dental reprise tomorrow! Appears that they have to do another cast for the bridge. Not sure what all that entails but will find out soon enough. Have a C&M class in the morning before I head to the Gentle Dental offices. Maybe I'll break down and have a Frappuccino when all is done! I've never had one--I usually just drink a grande green tea latte--which has plenty enough caffeine for me!

Dreamed last night that I was helping with a print project in a design house. We were creating a coordinated set of materials--flyers, posters, and large format banners. The flyers were to be handed out for people to put on their local bulletin areas. The posters were targeted for high traffic locations such as kiosks. The banners were targeted for backdrops to be used in media interviews and presentations. The materials were very colorful and vibrant. In the dream, we had already produced the comps and were ready to send everything to the printers. This dream, like several others this past month, dealt with working with teams of people to create a variety of products that required a cadre of talents.

3312

Slept in this morning and it felt so good! I just turned over after taking my morning pills and went back into the dreamland. I just felt like sleeping so I did! Awoke finally around noon time and started making my way into the day (light). Went out for a late brunch (had a delicious sandwich at CG) and then on the spur of the moment call the woman who cuts my hair. She had an opening and could take me right away. After getting a trim, I made my way back to the apartment and, yes, slept some more. I feel really great now from having rested all day.

Watched a fantasy film this evening--The Golden Compass. It's a huge budget, CGI extravaganza with several big name stars and a really wacky storyline. It did alright at the box-office but didn't get the green flag for two sequels that were planned. This first episode ends with a blatant plug for a sequel, but guess that will never be. OK, by me if it's never made. I'm not sure why they made the first one except that they were fortunate and hit it lucky, especially with European audiences. There was some push back by Christian/Catholic groups who claim that the film encourages atheism or such. That push back supposedly blunted the U.S. receipts. I think the film blunted the receipts!

Time to check the lottery tickets! MegaMillion from yesterday and Power Ball tonight. Let the numbers rock and roll!

3313

Resistance training class was filled this afternoon. Lots of people there and lots of people missing. Hear that CM fell out of her bed and broke her hip! Too bad! That's a really common injury. She was looking quite fragile and thin over the past few months. I ate a lot today! I seemed to be hungry despite all the food I ingested. Cooler weather and exercise make me a hungry man!

Got a call from the dental office! Have to go back to their place on Monday so they can take another cast for the work that's being done. For some reason the initial cast does not work for the lab people.Oh, well! Guess I have to cast the die again!

Watched a tension-making film this evening--Shattered. It's a mystery/thriller about people doing evil and having to endure the retribution. The film has several twists and turns that kept me guessing and trying to figure out what was what and who was who! It was an intricate script and storyline--chilling, scary, and effectual. There were a number of misdirections and false clues that kept things spinning until the final unraveling takes place. It's worth a second screening even though it means I already know the conclusion(s).

Weekend begins! Days without borders--time without clocks! The soft pulsating of the cells and nerves! Endless dreaming across an infinity of space! What will I be when the sun returns?

3314

Movement class today turned out to be a 1-1 session with the instructor. We were the only two to show up today. My good fortune! The instructor used the time to give me a sample of the bodywork that she does using the Rosen techniques. It was a very energizing and relaxing experience. I felt really positive movement responses to the very light touch of the techniques. At the end of the session, I was aware of energy flowing upward through my spinal column--bubbling upward in an undulating pattern. I carried the energy of the session for several hours, until I ate a fairly large meal. I then fell asleep for several hours and awakened in the late afternoon. It was instructive to experience how the movement techniques cross over into the bodywork sessions. There is something about all of the Rosen procedures that help mitigate the PD symptoms. I'm convinced that this is so and that it has something to do with lubricating the joints.

Anyway, had a good day! Weather is cool and comfortable. Have a resistance training session tomorrow! The beat goes on!

Didn't win either of the two lotteries (MegaMillion or Power Ball) but still holding tickets for the next few draws. Both are over $100 MM! What are the odds of winning both? Enormous no doubt, but still fun to dream and play! Let there be stochastic benevolence!  

3315

Cooler day in every way! Went to the (large) G&B class. It was as usual a stretch to make it through the exercises, but everyone made it. Had almost no flushing/redness today! The symptoms have been less for the past few days. Perhaps it is related to the pollen count which was heavy over the past two months or so. Have a movement class tomorrow. Looking forward to it!

Watched an Australian film this evening--Wake in Fright. The film was made in the early 70s but got lost along with its negatives until someone found copies in a repository. The material was scheduled to be destroyed and was saved at the last moment. The materials were used to help make a restoration of the film. The digital restoration is unbelievable! The color and depth of the original were completely recreated. The result is a powerful film. There are some horror scenes in some of the film (shooting of kangaroos) but the film is very realistic and in your face. The whole story involves a straight-laced school teacher who heads out on holiday over the Christmas period. He gets sidetracked while on his journey and end up drinking, fighting, shooting, and more. The film is a walkabout--literally and figuratively--that takes him on a journey that eventually brings him back home a bit changed and a bit wiser. In fact, the film would be better titled Walkabout--Wake in Fright doesn't really say what the film's all about.

Dental repair work has been benign and not all that noticeable. Look forward to getting the permanent installation and get on with the rest of the work that needs to be done.

Late it gets and night is here! Have a toddy, have a beer! Let the brilliant stars appear! Have no worry--have no fear!

3316

Today was a cooler warmer day! It was cooler than yesterday but still a bit warm--although the breezes helped moderate conditions. There was a smaller crowd at the resistance training session. We seemed to zoom through the routine today--or so it seemed to me. My temporary bridge (installed yesterday) didn't exhibit any discomfort or sensitivity today. All's well on the dental front (distal as well).

G&B class tomorrow! Usually a big class--we'll see if the smaller class size today was a trend or an aberration. Got a $10 rebate check from the company that makes the space heater I bought last year. I had all but given up that they would keep their word--but they did. Unlike the toothbrush company that never sent me the rebate coupons they promised when I bought a new electric brush. The universe is uneven--not symmetrical and rounded--more like the chaos that surrounds everything we know about.

Now playing both MegaMillions and PowerBall lotteries. Why not? Can always hope that something magical will happen--despite the odds involved.

Starting to fade even though it's not all that late tonight. But will honor the fading and migrate towards the bed-a-roo! Let the dream times roll! Let them roll--let them roll!

3317

Went to C&M class this morning and it was a workout. Weather was warmer, as promised, and I slumped out for a lunch and then went to the dentist. I was scheduled to start the work around 3pm. Three hours later I got up from the chair. The procedure was lengthy and composed of several layers of work most of which I'm not sure exactly what was done. The final result after such a long process, lots of drilling, packing the excavated area, and making casts of the region was a temporary bridge. In 10 days to a week, I'll go back for the permanent item. Interesting tonight that I don't feel anything from all that was done. I'm only feeling a tiny bit of pain and tenderness. The dental office and staff are all newly trained and at ease with a host of hi-tech tools that are now standard in the newest offices. The dentist, Dr. Thai, is very supportive and caring. She is quite young but very well trained as far as I could tell. She made sure that I got the debris from the old bridge--a packet of gold particles that I can sell if I choose to do so.

No PD dance class tomorrow but still have a resistance training session. Will be more warm weather for the next few days and then a cooling spell.

I dreamed a series of dreams over the past few nights that were highly charged and emotional. One involved an ex-wife who was planning on leaving me. She told me that she had decided to leave--that she was going to move in with a girlfriend of hers. They planned on living together and adopting children. She left and took the bulk of the things we owned and the money we had. I was left in a rundown apartment with mostly my clothes and little else. I felt really sad and lost by what was happening in this dream.

A second lengthy dream had me in a city. I was there with an ex-girlfriend. I was helping her scout out places to take dance lessons and go dancing. Most of the dream took place in a side street in an artsy part of town. In one part of the dream I had been using a color palette but had mixed up the parameters of the settings that people normally used. I had to enlist the help of some of the people there to reset the colors to their normal settings. In other parts of the dream I was going to dance places on the street and finding out their schedules and class times. There was a creepy scene where I stopped the car I was driving and a scrubby man got into the back seat. He started rummaging through the papers I had tossed around the area. I finally told him I was leaving and he needed to get out of the car. He did so but at a pace that made me want to run him down.

Late it is already! Time to dream the dreams! Adios muchachos!

3318

Earth Day is on the way! Let there be earth! Warmed up today! Temperatures were in the 80s or so. More of the same tomorrow and Tuesday. Cooling some later in the week.

Have a C&M class tomorrow followed by a major dental episode--installation of a temporary bridge in my upper right gum area. More to come, but that's probably all that will done tomorrow. Not looking forward to what has to be done but it will be better for my long term health and harmony.

Apartment complex was noisy this afternoon--kids galore making a roar! Looking forward to moving eventually and being in a quieter place. The thumping of a basketball will probably not be the daily sound I'll hear in the senior complex. Maybe other noises but most likely not a B-ball thunder.

Boston area is moving back to normal I suppose. Last week will not be forgotten but I'm sure everyone is ready to move forward and let the drama and trauma slide into memories.

Made a run to the library to exchange DVDs today. Picked up a couple of the MidSomer Murders episodes. They are truly formulaic but are done really well and the predictability is something that feels right. I can just enjoy and not have to keep trying to solve each mystery--that will be handled by Detective Chief Inspector Tom Barnaby. He is unflappable and has seen it all! He'll do all the work--I can just relax and enjoy the chase.

Well it's time for dental dreaming and travels into dentin universes! To bed, to sleep, to dream away the night!

3319

Warm and muggy day! Somehow the cool spring breezes have already changed to hot and sticky puffs of sultry air. It was a day to sleep in (which I did thoroughly) and do laundry (which I also did thoroughly). It was around 4pm when I finished with the laundry and went out for a bite to eat. Grabbed a Midwest sandwich at CG (toasted open-face sandwich with cheese, turkey, tomato, lettuce, and more).

Found a pair of ear buds when I was doing laundry. Looks like one bud (left) has been crunched but they still seem to work. Now I just need an iPod to go with them.

Watched a Japanese horror film this evening--Dark Water. I had seen this movie before but didn't recall enough of it to ruin the plot. It's a masterful way of dealing with the frightening elements in a horror film without resorting to SFX, CGI and such. Just creative use of lighting, dripping water, slowing everything down, and other ways of holding a viewer's attention. The film was sufficiently creepy and murky that it carries you along for a weird and strange ride.

Boston is celebrating its being set free from the yoke of terror and mayhem it had to endure. Attention shifts to China where thousands are hit by a massive earthquake and its accompanying destruction.

I'm already to head to the bed even though it's still an early hour. But feeling tired and sleepy, logy and warm! So it goes! From my head to my toes!

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The Boston Marathon (of all out police action) has come to a conclusion--and a new beginning! The second suspect has been found and taken into custody. Maybe he will be able to make some sense of what was done earlier this week that altered so many lives. Most likely he will not be able to do so and there will just be more uncertainty and confusion. But for the people of Boston they will get a break from so many days of chaos.

Had resistance training class today--a full class--almost every seat taken. The workout felt good especially after me jumbling up my sleep pattern like I did. (I fell asleep yesterday afternoon; woke up disoriented think I had slept all night but had only went out for about five hours; then having some difficulty getting t and staying asleep last night; waking up early this morning.)

Watched a lot of the online coverage of the Boston manhunt. It was a compelling segment of video that was streamed live most of the day. Let everyone  be vicariously in the places where the story was unfolding. It was an incredible feat--finding two unknown people out of several million possible suspects in a relatively short period of time.

Watched a tension-filled crime movie this evening--Black Widow. A story of a serial husband killer and  a woman agent of the justice department who becomes obsessed with finding the widow and stopping her from killing again. The plot has a surprising conclusion and resolution of the actions by the widow and the agent.

Laundry day tomorrow! Warmer weather on its way! Meet the heat! So early on its feet! No one will compete in getting on the street! That'll be so sweet! Think I'll have a treat!

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Movement class today was small but relaxing. I went from class to Thai restaurant and ate a dish of Chinese broccoli and chicken. It was very good. I came back home after doing a few errands and went to sleep for about 5 hours! I awoke and wasn't sure what time or day it was. At first, I thought that I had gone to bed and slept the night away. But then I realized it was only 9pm and I had not taken any medication. I finally managed to sort out that I had just taken a long nap. I'm amazed that I slept for so long this afternoon. I would have expected something would have awakened me but nothing did--so I slept the time away.

Resistance training tomorrow (now that I know it's today and not tomorrow).

It's quiet here tonight. A lot more quieter than usual. No complaints--just observations!

Looks like the FBI (and many others) have found images of the people who did the Boston bombings! No place to hide now that there's surveillance cameras everywhere. Person of Interest, the CBS television show, has become reality!

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Big G&B class today! The room is practically filled with shaking bodies. The routine today was strenuous, per normal. I've been somewhat logy today and feeling like I have a constant flush/redness in my face. The symptom didn't appear until after the G&B session but has been felt all afternoon and into the evening. I'm also feeling hungry. I keep wanting to munch on things despite the flush/redness.

Watched a somewhat strange film this evening--These Lovely Bones. It's a fantasy/horror/creepy film about a young girl who gets killed but hangs around until her killer is outed. There are fully realistic scenes interlaced with ghost sequences of the girl frolicking about in a bright, colorful purgatory (or cosmic waiting place). Her killer is a nearby neighbor who is a serial butcher who has done the deed many times before. I found the film somewhat compelling but also jumbled and distorted in the realistic, family/agony scenes. It was a film done by Peter Jackson who operated on a fairly large budget. He used a lot of the budget on the CGI work that was done to create the purgatory scenes.

Movement class tomorrow! Looking forward to it and to resting a bit as well. This week has felt heavy and I've felt somewhat out of sync with everything. Time to sync up! Let there be sync!

3323

Busy day! Busy busy day! Got up early so I could pick up TA and give him a ride to the PD dance class. Did PD Dance class (with people shooting a video of the action)--we concentrated on the tango. Grabbed a sandwich for lunch and began an on again/off again series of flushing and redness. Did a resistance training session in the afternoon. It felt good to lift the weights. After that class I took TA back to MV and went in for my Tuina/acupressure session. I felt somewhat frayed and frenetic by the time I got on the table, but the session smoothed things out. I came away feeling better and with my energy smoothed out. Picked up a few things at TJ's and came back to the apartment and a bouncing basketball in the carport. But I soon settled in and listened to the radio for a bit to catch up on what was happening in Boston. Lots of people injured--the casualty count continues to rise.

I woke early this morning and I read more of the Richard Armour book It All Happened with Columbus. The book, one of his earliest focused on humorous content, is like a non-stop pun where he intentionally uses word play and such to create humorous copy. He wrote over 60 books--poetry, humor, classics, and more.

Watched a fairly new alien warfare movie this evening--Battle Los Angeles. It was a non-stop alien attack on the major world centers by a race of cyborg drones. A small, but resilient cadre of Marines and a few civilians take on the menace and manage (no surprise) to destroy the "brains" of the attack network through ingenuity, guts, and sheer improbable camera work. The film was not reviewed all that well, but it seemed to recoup its $70MM (mostly CGI) budget at the box office. It's probably better on the big screens, I presume! Go Marines!

G&B class tomorrow! I'm ready, teddy! After I hit the beady!

3324

Windy day! Gusts this afternoon rocked the roof of the building and felt like there were mini tornadoes roaming through the area. Sudden bursts of wind would whip through the trees and screech around the corners of the apartments. There would be a howling sound and bursts of debris from the trees scattered across the landscape.

Minor stuff vis-a-vis what went on during the Boston Marathon. So sad and disturbing! Craziness abounds!

I dreamed last night that I was helping evacuate (clean out) an old warehouse. The building was decrepit and almost falling down. We were pulling out rotted timbers that had been inserted in the loft area. We were pulling the timbers down from the ceiling and carrying them outside where they were stacked and made ready to be burned. It was a light dream. There was a sense of satisfaction at doing such manual labor. Everyone who was working on the project seemed happy using their muscles and helping clean up the place.

Cooler today and this evening. Temperatures dropped quite a bit from yesterday's warmer weather. Have a PD dance class, resistance training session, and an acupressure (Tui na) appointment in the late afternoon. Full  day is on its way! Will also pick up TA and give him a ride to/from dance class. Had some flushing/redness in the afternoon, but not as much as happens sometimes.

Ready for bed tonight! Ready to crawl under the covers and read a bit before entering the dream machine.

3325

Sun Day, sundae, day of rest, rest of the day! I slept this morning and this afternoon. Rested for nearly the entire day. Went out for brunch and a few errands, but came back and napped the day away. Tomorrow back to the regimen--starting off with C&M session in the morning time. Will feel good to move and groove some to kick off the week.

Dreamed last an elaborate dream about working. I went to a warehouse district to interview with someone about a part-time job. When I got to the place, I discovered that I knew the person doing the interview. In fact, I had worked for him before on some other projects. CW, another business associate, was there interviewing as well. He too had worked with the person doing the interview. We both got the nod and were hired to start working. The job involved operating a high end printing device that required two operators. The printer was in another room in the warehouse. For the most part, the warehouse was virtually empty with just some debris and junk scattered about. The man who hired us said that he would eventually need all of the space and that we could clean up the place with any spare time we had.

As we worked, we observed other people coming and going from the other buildings in the area. The curious thing though was that almost everyone who worked in the area were old business associates we had worked with in the past. Each day, we would encounter more and more people we had known before.

Watched a French film this evening--Leaving. It was a story about a woman who becomes obsessed with a handyman who is doing some work on her home. Despite her being married to a well-to-do physician and having two children, she throws it all away to be with the handyman. She goes from being affluent to doing day work in order to survive. Her ex-husband makes it more difficult for her by playing the abandoned husband card, trying to force her to return. When she hears that her ex and kids are going to be away for a while, she concocts a plan to take things from the house. When they attempt to sell the goods, the handyman is caught and thrown back into jail (he had a record). She returns home but in the end leaves once and for all--let's just say a gun is involved in letting her get free of her ex's grasp.

The film was alright--just a bit too matter of fact interspersed with rugged sex scenes. The film seemed more about making a point of delving into French marital issues than about people being people.

3326

Hazy, lazy day! Slept in this morning and then did much of nothing until I got hungry and went out to find some food. It just felt so good to turn over and fall back asleep while the neighbors made their morning noises and banging about. For the most part, I felt good today--not too shaky and not too achy. I caught myself thinking how much I'd like to feel that way all the time. Why not? There are stranger things in the world today--much stranger!

I think I dreamed a lot over the past few nights--dreams that were a mix of internal movie scenes and external life scenarios. I think my dreams have been extensive lately--it's just that I don't recall them when I wake up to take my morning pill. Life is a dream! A dream that fills the nights with images and fills the days with thought bubbles.

Sunday on its way! How will the story play? How does it fill the day? Does it weigh and play? Perhaps one day, who can say? Time for me to hit the hay! I'm on my way!

3327

Mental dental! Gentle Dental! Finished up the round of deep scaling that the hygienist wanted done before the tooth replacement work begins. Thank goodness for insurance. The three procedures that they have planned would cost about $10K overall. With the insurance, I will only have to pay about 1/3 of that total--still a lot but not as much as it would be otherwise.

I watched a French film this evening--L'Argent. The title means something like pay it forward or more simply"money." The film is one of Bresson's well thought of productions. The whole story revolves around people handing on some bit of bad luck that they encounter. Each pass forward puts the recipient into deeper and darker circumstance. The finale is a scene of mayhem and crazy violence. I thought the film was overly long but it's only cited as being 80 minutes in length. I have to admit that I'm a bit foggy this evening. The stress of getting the hygiene done, eating late, and getting some flushing/redness when I did eat makes for a dull boy. Also missed not doing a resistance class--will try and do some on my own tomorrow and Sunday. (Somehow it feels like it's Saturday but it's only Friday.)

MegaMillion draw tonight and Power Ball tomorrow (yes CA now can play Power Ball)! More ways to spend money on events with impossible odds. I feel lucky! I feel ducky! I feel plucky! All the way!

3328

Movement class today! It felt good! A new student dropped in on the class. She is a specialist in the Danis Bois movement technique and is holding a workshop in the area over a weekend. Her workshop looks intriguing but it takes place over three days even though it's local (nearby). I think that would be too intense for me. I had an excellent tuina session this afternoon and will do another next Tuesday. These sessions are like miracle pills--I feel so much more grounded and stable after a session. I should look into finding something that's comparable that I can do each week the tuina instructor is not in the area.

Meanwhile, I have a dental appointment tomorrow--to finish up the second deep scaling procedure that I'm scheduled to have done. Will miss my resistance class!

I ate a late lunch after the movement class and had a flushing/redness episode afterward. It was not too intense, but it definitely was noticeable. I napped for a short while before the tuina session and awoke with the flush and redness--which subsided after the tuina/acupressure session.

It cooled off today. Yesterday the temperature spiked in the high 80s--today everything was back to the low 70s. Strange, one-day phenomena!

3329

G&B class was a workout today but I felt good after doing the activity. Had a strong case of flushing/turning red after eating lunch with GH--had sour cream and banana. Weather was warm today--got into the high 80s! Where did that come from?

Watched rest of Michael Collins film this evening. It ended as I knew it would--he was ambushed and shot while making a trip into Ireland to talk with the rebels. He was only 31 when he died. He accomplished quite a lot in his short time on the planet.

Movement class tomorrow and a session with LM (acupressure and tuina). It seems a long time since we last did a session. It will be wonderful to get a treatment again.

Dreamed last night but don't recall the details now. I think I dreamed a repeat of a previous dream or picked up in this dream where I had left off in a previous dream. I'm fading as I type. I just want to go horizontal and fall into my dreams. Let there be a silver shining over all that is and will be! Let there be! Let there be!

3330

Quick post this evening! It's getting late and I'm getting murky! PD dance and resistance training went well. I'm tried now though! So will be shutting down soon.

Watching a historical film--Michael Collins. Liam Neeson was born to do the role of the hero in the film. The film is on a two-sided DVD and I've only made it through the first side. Having to call off watching the rest until tomorrow. I'm ready to put my heady in the beddy! So good night Ireland and good night MC, it's time to sleep.

3331

C&M class today was a workout! (It always seems to be so.) I came away feeling better than I felt when we started. It felt good to stretch and work the achy body--which was stiff and achy from not doing much that was physical over the weekend.

I dreamed an odd and twisted dream last night/this morning. I was with a large group of people, many of whom I knew from past work and associations. I was trying to tell everyone about my PD symptoms and some of the effects they were having on what I could do or say. As I was talking, I experienced being unable to speak clearly and to use the correct words for what was happening to me. I felt really frustrated and saddened as one after the other person turned and walked away. I managed to tell a few people about the cognitive dissonance I was exhibiting but could not address the whole group because my voice was weak and intermittent.

I experienced a passage of time in the dream. I was much older and very fragile. I was nearly alone. There were only a few people still around me. I wasn't able to make myself understood by those that remained. I felt really sad and disconnected from everyone and everything. I felt heavy and dense, and felt like I couldn't stand up or move.

Today, as I was leaving the PD Institute's C&M class, I saw LW (a man who was taking the PD dance class late last year). He looked quite fragile and unsteady. I talked with him a while. He was still having problems with getting his medications correct and was not doing well. It was a shock to see him in that state and how emotionally painful it was for him. My he find a way to get some relief and stability. May we both be well!

PD dance class tomorrow and resistance training. Onward and onward! Always onward!

3332

Sun Day and the leafing is greasy! Phish are surfing and the twitters are high! Your daddley's rico and your Ma is wheezy! So brush little BB, just give a sigh! Yes, it's been that kind of day. Another day that I'm on my weigh. Just found the buttons that launch the old sleigh. I keep learning new features on the new laptop--so many features and elements.

Tomorrow it's back to the routine. C&M class in the late morning and read aloud at the H's in the early afternoon. Whirl and swirl, swivel and pop! Make the day go round! Napped some this afternoon after grabbing a sandwich at the PI coffee house--or was it before grabbing a sandwich? Time and events get mushed and mixed. I don't try and record the sequences--takes up to much Flash memory.

Watched a French (Canadian) film this afternoon--Bon Cop Bad Cop. It was a cop/comedy with two detectives from different provinces paired up on a serial killer rampage. It was a Beverley Hills Cops transplanted north of the border with dialog in English/French instead of English/Street. It was a mildly funny film with perhaps an excess of fights, murders, kidnappings, sexual references, and many other tiresome elements. The good guys (cops) finally got the bad guy (really got him) in a drawn out Die Hard lookalike ending. Film was OK but I wouldn't go out of my way to watch it again (unless I forget that I saw it and pick it out once more--which I have been known to do.

Had a bit of flushing/redness late in the afternoon. I don't recall any specific possible triggers, but it did happen briefly. Dreams away! Here to stay!

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Did the laundry today. Laundromat was infested with a horde of noisy kids. The mother simply ignored them as they ran about, screaming and hollering. With the sounds of the washers and driers, the din was overwhelming. One of the customers finally had enough and shouted out for them to stop making noise. The mother didn't say anything--she just focused on text messaging with her phone. I was happy to get out of there. Oh, yes! There was a TV channel blasting away along with the other noises.

I had a hearty meal--went to Chef Liu's and gobbled some General's Chicken. It was spicy but didn't seem to trigger much of a flushing/turning red episode. Something has stopped triggering those episodes--just like in the past. I seem to have a cluster of episodes around the first of the year (as I've noted in posts for a few years). When I returned home, I nodded off for a few hours, then got up and out to check my mailbox. Refund from FTB was delivered! Thanks to TurboTax!

I went onto the App Store and downloaded some free games. Now that I've spent some time browsing the store and scoping out the procedures, I had no problems downloading a few items. Very neat! Very cool! Of course, I spent the better part of the afternoon/evening trying out the programs I had retrieved. Much fun!

Rain forecast (again) for tomorrow. Rain has been on a rolling forecast for nearly a week, but little has arrived. Maybe gravy!  Or maybe not!

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It's been a long and fuzzy day! I woke up early but suddenly it was late morning and time to start heading to resistance training session. After grabbing a sandwich I headed for class. Got there in plenty of time and had a good workout. Stopped by TJ's on the way home and picked up some grocery items. I then spent what turned out to be several hours learning how to use the Apple App Store. I downloaded a couple of free games. Doing so was not all that obvious but I figured it out and acquired a couple of time-spinners.

I watched an intense film this evening--Rendition. It was a story about the controversial tactic that the U.S. government and the CIA adopted to handle suspected terrorists. The film was released back in 2007, right before the 2008 elections. It is a graphic depiction of what it was like for an innocent person to be snatched and spirited away to some secret torture facility in some unknown place. There is a short documentary that's on the DVD that records the suffering two men endured when they became ensnared in the program. There are chilling cuts to Condy Rice and G. Bush emphatically denying that anything like rendition was being done with the agreement of the government, when the facts were exactly the opposite of their assertions.

Laundry day tomorrow! Ho, ho, ho! It's off I go! Into the non-silence of the machines! Getting late tonight--time is flowing, flying and flipping away! Let there be dreaming!

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Movement class felt good today! Came away feeling rested and loose. Picked up mail and found a check from IRS. That was a quick turnaround--viva the online systems--makes things happen quickly.

Came home from class, picking up mail, and grabbing a bite at Curry Up and napped out for a couple of hours. Last night I fell asleep without taking my medications. Felt that I slept well but was a little jittery when I awoke. Nap this afternoon was restful--I could have napped more but made my way up and am feeling good now.

New laptop froze on me this evening. Not sure what happened but had to shut down and then restart the system. Only possible clue is that the Google cloud feature, Drive, seemed to automatically launch and attempted to do a sync. I don't have any files in the cloud yet so don't know what happened--other than the system locked up.

Resistance training tomorrow and then the weekend arrives. Laundry day is on the way! We're getting some light rains. I didn't have a flushing/turning red episode today--even with the spicy food I had at midday (Curry Up spicy dish). Something shifted but can't pinpoint just what that might be. Good to be flush free anyway!

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Weather has warmed some and the promised rain has not fallen. Had a moderate-sized G&B class today. There was a photographer in the room and our photos were taken for the newsletter.

Feeling foggy today--foggy and groggy and also relaxed for some strange reason. The H's are back to normal after their interlude with the hospital yesterday. BH is fine! She was just concerned over something that she thought should be checked.

Dreamed last night that I was in contact with several people from my distant past. There were multiple conversations with these ghosts--some odd and difficult--some perfunctory and difficult to follow. Most of these ghosts were people that I had worked with in the distant times.

Movement class tomorrow. Despite a small lunch to day with GH, I still had a major flushing/turning red after we ate and read some from the book we are reading. The session didn't seem to last all that long, but with the warmer weather it was definitely noticeable. It happened after lunch and reading, right before I took the midday dose of medication. Doesn't seem to happen in the morning after breakfast nor after dinner or snack in the later afternoon--mostly around midday after exercise/activity. Will keep watching and parsing when it happens and what else is going on at those times.

Lots of dust and pollen in the air around where I live. Lots of construction/excavation being done so there is a lot of dust being blown everywhere. Let there be rain! Lots and soon!

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PD dance was a lot of fun today. We were doing a tango step and some African moves. The energy was up and enlivening. The instructor asked me to help with the demonstration of the tango steps. It was really joyous as we made the moves with a lot of expression and flair.

Only experienced a light flushing/turning red episode around midday. Had a grilled cheese sandwich and a salad, which didn't seem to raise any issues. Resistance training session went smoothly. I'm still fading a bit on the presses with 10-lb weights but did them all.

BH was sent home last night after her tests came back clean. GH sounded mellow when I called him this afternoon to check in and see if he needed anything.

Watched a German/Greek film this evening--Soul Kitchen. I enjoyed the film. It was a bit funky in all that it did, but was engaging and occasionally quite funny. The story involves a young Greek man who starts his dream cafe. His girlfriend is off to China and he is split over whether he should give up his cafe and go with her. Meanwhile he has a brother who is just out of jail and is on probation. The younger brother meets a gourmet cook and hires him for the kitchen. The place's menu is not what the chef wants to work with--he wants to rework the whole offering. Trouble ensues as regular customers boycott the place, but new patrons are found in the arts/music arena. The whole film keeps on moving, dodging, and morphing into all kinds of twists and untwists. The whole thing was fun to watch even the ending credits. The director is a young Turkish man who seems to have some association with Kusturica, the Serbian filmmaker who did Arizona Dream. Soul Kitchen had some of the same touches as Dream.

G&B class tomorrow plus a read aloud session with GH. We're getting into the more interesting parts of the book about the creation of the Paris Commune.

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C&M class was heavy work this morning--but my overall strength is up so I could do the exercises. When I came out of class my vmail on my phone was pinged several times. Turned out that BH had gone to the ER for an evaluation of what she was worried about being her heart. She was given an OK by the ER staff but they wanted to hold her for a while for tests and such. GH was at the hospital and I went there and picked him up, took him to his house so he could pick up some things, and took him back to the hospital. By then, I was feeling somewhat ragged. I had not had any lunch and I was flushing/turning red (right on schedule it seems). I went to the market and grabbed a meal. I ate and came home. Odd! I can't seem to figure out just what I did when I returned home--I don't think I slept or napped, but I seemed to have zoned out.

I watched a French film in the afternoon--Wild Grass. I'm not sure what the film had to do with the title. It was an intriguing film in that all the characters were a bit wacky although they supposedly live normal lives. There is an incident (which is the title of the story from which the film was scripted) near the start of the film where a woman has her purse stolen. Her wallet is found by another man and there the tale unrolls. Like a lot of French films the ending was left mysterious and hanging.  There are even two endings to the film (Fin screens)--the first a wry perversion of the ending of an old movie, the second for real and abrupt.

PD dance class tomorrow followed by a resistance training session. Dreams and things are calling! May the fool's day be over and April blossoms pulling down the branches.