Monday, May 31, 2010

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End of May! June 1 is on its way! It was a bit cooler today. I slept a lot over the past few days. Look forward to PD dance class and a movement class tomorrow. I went for a walk in the nearby park today. Made myself walk even though I felt like I was moving through molasses. Have to keep on moving!

Watched a Renoir film, The River. In an interview, Scorsese says that this is one of the best films ever made. It was good, but I'm not sure about it being one of the best. He was greatly influenced by the film which he viewed when he was about nine.

An intensely interesting documentary about Rumer Godden, the author the book that formed the basis of the film, was included on the DVD. It told a moving tale of her life and trials. Despite numerous setbacks, she persevered and wrote many novels and more. The documentary is a testament to her tenacity and unique view of life and cultures.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

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Week ends with warmer temperatures. I made it out to the baylands for a slightly longer walk today. It was nice and breezy at the marshes. It was very low tide and the canals were mostly mud banks. I came away feeling quite tired from the extended walk. Despite a couple of naps, I still feel somewhat frayed and frazzled.

Watched a hokey SciFi film Enemy Mine. Film starred Dennis Quaid and Lou Gossett. It was a totally improbable story of an alien and a human being stranded on a hostile planet and having to learn to live together. There were lots of holes and leaps in the storyline. Gossett's alien makeup was pretty bizarre.

Dreamed last night about being in a house with my daughter (as a baby) and her mother. There were some overtones of danger, but not so much that it made the dream tense. There were just some scenes where I was concerned about the daughter, who was sleeping in another part of the house. There was also another segment of the dream that involved other people. I don't recall the specifics associated with that segment.

Memorial Day tomorrow. Perhaps another walk on the baylands. We shall see!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

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Warm day! Got a bit steamy in the afternoon. Broke out the fan and cranked it up. Did a short walk in the late afternoon. There was a little breeze which felt good. Ran a few errands and had a sandwich at the CG--almond chicken with cole slaw on the side. Picked up the latest SciFi periodicals. Have much to read.

Watched the movie Moulin Rouge. It was the one done in 2001 with Nicole Kidman. I'd seen it in the theater, but didn't seem to recall much of it this time around. Visually, a spectacular film. All the more so since the actors did the actual singing. The film did clever homage to many songs and song writers. I enjoyed seeing it again although the finale went a bit flat and seemed somewhat repetitious.

My short walk felt difficult today. I felt tight and tired while I was walking. My energy picked up once I completed the short trek. I'll just keep on moving until I stop. Only thing to do!

Friday, May 28, 2010

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Had an acupressure session this morning. It felt good! I went for a walk in the late afternoon, after napping some. I went to the park where there is a biking trail. It was nice to be in nature while walking. I had some difficulty walking--my legs felt heavy and didn't want to move.

I watched a Japanese movie Departures. It was a good film about a young man who has to abandon his dream of being a cello player in a concert orchestra. He blindly falls into a job as an encoffiner--a person who prepares a dead person's body for burial or cremation. The film dealt directly with the issues of death and dying, and how the job of the encoffiner can bring dignity and closure to the final process. It was one of the best movies I've seen in a while. Rich and honest!

Woke up last night as the full moon was passing overhead. It was a bright one that bristled with light and energy.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

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Had a movement class today and made it out for a short walk. I was somewhat draggy during the walk. I was not as loose as yesterday. Will continue walking though. I know I need to keep doing it, no matter what.

Watched a visually stunning movie, The Company. It is an Altman film about a dance company. It comes off more like a documentary. But it was done with the Joffrey Ballet and the dance segments are spectacular. The story line is almost not present. The focus is on dance and dancing. It was an unexpected pleasure.

Acupressure session in the morning. Got a call from the dental office. The cap that's being cast is more expensive than quoted. The price of gold is driving up the price of dental crowns. It's only a $75 increase over the quote. I told them to cast away! I'll be worth something when I'm gone!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

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Did a PD exercise class today and made it out for a short walk. The walk felt good but left me a little sore. Just another sign that I need to be walking and exercising more.

Dreamed last night that I was hiking along a trail above a body of water. I came to a place on the trail where I could look down and see a house. The house was near the water's edge and had some decks and covered docks that jutted into the water. There was a man on one of the decks sitting in a lounge chair. I walked closer to the house and found myself in a lower part of the house. There were piers and decking. In one corner of a deck there was a man tangled in the rigging. He was underwater and had drowned. The dream transmuted into a room in the house. There were people playing music. I started singing along with everyone. At one point, one of the men said something about my singing. He pulled out two books and handed them to me. One book was titled Singing 101. The other was titled Singing for Dummies. I clearly was not singing well.

Nearly a full moon tonight. Lots of odd noises coming from the apartment below. I'm feeling tired and stiff. Early to bed tonight!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

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Met LL from Hawaii today for lunch. It was good to see her again. I wish we could have spent a bit longer just talking. Lunch sort of took over and then the rains started. The lunch at the new Mexican cafe was not that good. It was a bit underwhelming and overpriced.

I napped in the afternoon and went to the movement class. It felt good to move and relax. I didn't make it out for a walk today. Will try and get one in tomorrow after PD exercise class. I need to walk regularly. It's a must do thing for me.

Dreamed last night that I was working in a toy factory. I was working on the design of a toy that used marbles. The marbles were solid colors. I was having problems locating an adequate amount of them for the prototype. In one part of the dream, I was in a car speeding over the roads. We were driving to a marble store to get the marbles that I needed. The car was moving really fast and I believe we ran off the road. It was both scary and exciting.

Monday, May 24, 2010

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Made it out for a short walk today. It was a push, but I walked for 20 minutes. Left me a bit stiff and tired. Made me realize how out of shape I am despite my movement classes. I also did a CW line dance class today, which made the walking even more difficult. But it was done! I slept for a while when I returned.

Watched a documentary called Brother's Keeper. It was not all that exciting and I ended up FF through some of the later parts. It was about a brother who was charged with the death of one of his brothers. The four were farmers who lived together in a ramshackle old house. The four were a bit slow and were not all that educated. The film went into the brothers' backgrounds and subsequent trial of one of them. Their community came together to support them throughout the arrest and trial. The one charged with the death was acquitted.

Had a hodgepodge of dreams last night. No PD dance class tomorrow--just a movement class. LL will be in the area and we may visit for a spell.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

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Booked a ticket to see/experience Braco. Checked out train schedules and such. The train station is just five blocks from the place where the gazings will take place. But, it's a long five blocks so I may grab a taxi. It will be a bit of a push to get there and back, but I feel that it is important enough to give it a try.

Dreamed last night that I was cleaning out some of my storage areas. I was looking through piles of things and throwing lots of stuff away. There were three specific collections of items that cleared away in the dream. I also dreamed this afternoon when I took a nap. I don't recall what these latest dreams were about.

I watched a Film Movement movie, El Bola. It was a tense story of an abused boy--his father was physically and emotionally abusive to the child. The story revolved around two families and the friendship of two boys. It was an intense portrayal of the effects of abuse on people, and how people cope (or don't cope) with the problems created.

Weekend ends! Last CW dance class until next Fall. I looked up the ongoing class in RC. Also getting leads to body workers who do tuina/acupressure sessions. Didn't do a walk today. Will do one tomorrow.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

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Have been reading the book about Braco, 21 Days with Braco. There is a "light"-ness and a brightness about the material. I researched how I might get to SF for one of his viewings when he's here in June. Looks like I could take a train in and back, and grab a cab to get to the viewing. I'll decide tomorrow and reserve a ticket. The energy around him, his viewings, and his materials is tangible.

I also got a haircut today, which also makes me lighter. I'm getting quite bald.

I dreamed last night that I was in a workshop. The subject of the workshop was a modeling system that could be used to build up complex systems and simulations. The man giving the seminar was one of the creators of the system. For some reason, I was aware that I knew more about the way the system could be used than he did. I didn't make it a point to embarrass him, but I did ask quite a few questions that forced him to elaborate on how the system worked. The room was full of high level scientists and engineers who would be using the system to model important problems facing humanity. The dream was quite detailed. I was at the workshop with on of my old business partners, CW. As always, he was helping keep things balanced and productive. During the recesses, I spoke with other attendees and we shared ideas regarding how we would be using the system in our areas of expertise.

Friday, May 21, 2010

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Had an acupressure session today. It restored my balance and sense of wholeness. I will miss my practitioner's weekly intervention when he moves away. I've put out some feelers and am getting the contact info for people who do similar work. Changes, changes, changes!

Slept some this afternoon. The noise in the complex got loud today. Have to get serious with looking for a new place. The noise is getting to me.

Stopped by the H's today and dropped off my stash of banana peelings. She uses them to help fill out her compost. GH was asleep. She said he's still struggling to regain his well being. I wish him well!

Will restart my walking program tomorrow. Must walk regularly! Move it or lose it! Got the Braco book. Will begin reading from it tonight.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

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Busy day! Movement class went well. Felt good to move and stretch. I was a little tight and achy from Wednesday's PD exercise class. Did laundry in the afternoon. Came home and slept for a while.

Dreamed last night that I was in a company where we had to move our offices. The new space was sparse and not well lighted. Our cubicles were set up in a cluster that was surrounded by a lot of empty, shadowy space. The lighting over each cubicle was very poor. There was no uniformity in the cubicles. They were odd sized and joined in a strange way. Some people had personalized their workspaces; others had not. I noticed that my workspace was fairly barren and sparse. It wasn't clear what we were doing other than trying to settle into the new space. We didn't appear to be very busy.

Heard from LL in Hawaii. She's passing through next week on a visit back to this area. We'll get together perhaps early next week.

Acupressure session tomorrow! Looking forward to it!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

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PD exercise class followed by a session with the Gentle Dental team. I now have a temporary cap on tooth #30. In about two weeks they will install the final crown. I made it through the dental work today in fair shape. The tensions did make the symptoms come forward, but it was not too bad. I went into a sort of fog when I got home. I slept some and got confused as to the time of day and whether I had taken my medication. Finally got everything sorted out. I'll probably head for the bed early tonight. I'm off schedule. I need to do laundry. Will fit it in tomorrow perhaps. Still plan to make it to movement class.

Dreamed a lot of different dreams last night and today. I don't recall any details. I just remember them being active. There was one where everyone was having fun and laughing.

Week has passed quickly. Time rockets on!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

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PD dance class, movement class, and a meeting with LL today! Slept some as well. Classes went well. Meeting with LL was fun. I hadn't seen her in several years. Turns out she is a friend of my Tuesday movement class instructor. The instructor had me be a "mystery" guest. LL is busy writing her biography (maybe for publication) and fretting over her virtual computer museum project. It was good to catch up on what we've been doing.

I think I dreamed about working on some type of math models this afternoon as I napped.

I've got a dental appointment tomorrow to begin some restoration work. Don't look forward to having the work done. Will be able to make it to PD exercise class in the morning before hitting the dental office. One thing at a time! And time to thing at one!

We did a chanting movement activity in PD dance class. It was energizing. It involved doing a two-part chant. I can only recall the base component and not the harmonizing refrain. It goes Ay Dumba, DeeAy Dumba, DeeAy Dumadum, Ay Dumadum! We moved on each phrase. Felt good!

Monday, May 17, 2010

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Dancing with the dentist day! Had to get up early and get to the dentist office during my normal early-morning nap period. Came away with the information that I have two cavities in and around some existing fillings. It's going to take around $4500 worth of work to remedy things. Fortunately, my insurance covers the bulk of it. I'll still be on the hook for $1700, but that's a lot better than having to shell out nearly $5K!

So that was my "dance" for the day! Have an appointment for Wednesday to start the restorations.

I had a great late breakfast at Joanie's Cafe (which also is the name of my dental worker--Joanie!). I had an egg scramble with spinach, smoked salmon, avocado, rye toast and home fries. Delicious! I came home and slept for several hours. I watched a movie, Junebug. The film never got very deep into all of the characters. The story focused mostly on a woman who was inserted into an existing family's patterns and ways of being. She didn't quite fit and there the tale goes. It sort of ended with lots of loose ends--like someone throwing a hand grenade into a crowd of people and ending with them splattered about the scene.

I dreamed this afternoon something about my ex wives. I seemed to confront and be confronted by each of them in a hazy, dark and mysterious manner. The dream was uncomfortable. I felt badly after each interaction and awoke feeling sad.

PD dance class tomorrow and movement class in the afternoon. Will be good to be moving!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

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Tomorrow's dental appointment trumps the CW line dance class. Have a dental session in the morning that will probably keep me from making the class.

Watched a movie, Frida, this afternoon. It was a well done film that portrayed the life of Frida Kahlo. She endured unimaginable pain and discomforts and yet continued to paint and live her life fully.

Dreamed last night about working on toys that used magnetic fields that let the toys communicate. It was a project that I had dreamed about in a previous dream. We were successful in last night's dream to get several of the toys to send each other information and to act upon the data. Everyone was very happy with the results.

I spent some time looking at the below market rate options in this area. Also spent some time thinking about where/how I would like to live. Got a telephone call from GH. He shared some of what is going on as he, his wife and children figure out how they are going to set up what happens when he and she are gone. It's a complex and stressful process that he seems to be handling well.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

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Today was a noisy day. Seemed like there was hordes of screaming kids running about nearly the whole day. It began early in the morning and has continued on and off up to the moment. I spent some time today thinking about where I'd like to move and how I might go about doing so.

I'm considering doing more than moving across town. I'm also exploring a more radical move--to someplace where I can be at peace, be outdoors more, and that will be a place where I can continue to deal with my PD issues. I've come to this juncture several times in the past five years, but I've not really done anything about it. I get tired just thinking about the possibilities, but I need to press on through. Things are not getting better with the passing of time. I need to make some decisions while I'm still somewhat mobile.

Watched a movie, Ironweed, tonight. Not a particularly happy film, but a good story. Jack Nicholson and Meryl Streep played the lead characters. It was an absorbing film with good work being done by the cast.

I downloaded the information packet from the low-cost new apartments going up across town. I think I qualify for the third tier based on my income. That would make my rent around $760. I don't qualify for the $460/$560 units. I bumped into JV and he suggested that I look into the older places just down the street. I'll look into those places. The time has come...

Friday, May 14, 2010

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Changes! Always changes! The person who does my acupressure sessions is moving out of the area. He will not be doing so immediately, but when he goes I will have a tough time finding a replacement. He's planning on moving to Ashland, OR. He's thinking about coming back to the area once a month. He will be missed.

This information dovetails on the news that the person who conducts my Tuesday movement class is planning to retire. Changes! Changes! Changes!

Dreamed last night that I received a copy of a book I wrote that had been changed dramatically by the editors. It was not the book I had written; it was completely altered. I was concerned since I had at least four other books in the hands of the editors. I was worried that they too would be changed without my agreement.

There are fireworks blasting away over on the Stanford campus. Not sure what is being celebrated, but there's lots of fireworks being exploded.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

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Movement class went well today. However, I came back zoned out. I slept for several hours later in the afternoon. I felt tired and unclear even after sleeping.

I watched the movie Dead Man Walking tonight. It was OK, but I somehow expected more. I'm not sure what else I was looking for, but there was something vaguely disappointing about the film. Maybe I'm getting tired of watching movies. Too many screenings perhaps!

My dreams last night were chaotic and all over the map. I feel like there were lots of short dreams about all manner of issues. Even so, I don't remember anything specific--just the chaos.

Acupressure session tomorrow! I can use some relaxation. I noticed after the movement class today that I was relaxed and my symptoms were quiet. More movement!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

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PD exercise class today! Big class! But it was one of those "reminder" sessions that point out what the disease is doing. Not a lot of joy! Exercise itself felt good for the most part. It was just the information sections that were depressive and heavy. I'd rather be dancing.

Check finally arrived from the Fastrak people. It took them long enough. It wasn't a huge amount of money ($61) but it took them forever to send it.

When I came home from class and getting a bite to eat, I slept for several hours. I woke up stiff and achy. The exercise class pushed my limits some. Will use the movement class tomorrow to smooth things out.

Dreamed last night that I was doing something with the management consulting group I once worked for. I don't recall what we were doing. It seemed technical and dull. I'm sleepy! Time to drift away to dream land! Goodly night!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

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Double dance day! Had a PD dance class this morning. It was a lot of fun! People in that class are inspirational. Some of them can barely get to the class and yet they come. Never giving up!

The movement class was a bit overshadowed by the instructor announcing that she won't be returning next session. Looks like she's going to have the guy from the Thursday class take over. It will be nice to have the class continue.

I slept for several hours between outings today. That felt good even though I had to push myself out of bed--I could have just slept on.

PD exercise class in the morrow. MegaMillion lottery tonight! The dreams roll onward!

Monday, May 10, 2010

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Took GH to his doctor's appointment today. It is always a pleasure to spend time with him. He's going through a lot of medical issues, but he's keeping his spirits high. BH is also having some issues as well, but she keeps on with everything. I wish them well.

I watched the Braco DVD yesterday and I've felt positive and well since doing so. There is something uplifting in the faces of the many people who gather to listen to his voice or stand in his presence. He reminds me of Amma--selfless and giving. I look forward to getting a copy of one of his books. It should arrive soon.

I watched the X-File movie. It was nothing of substance. The story was muddled and highly improbable. I believe it was solidly panned when it was released, and rightly so.

Dreamed last night that I was with the people in the management consulting group I once worked for. I can't seem to recollect what we were doing in the dream. It seems that we were working on some projects, but the details escape me.

Went to CW dance class today. It felt good to dance. When I arrived, they were dancing a heart-thumper of a dance that I knew. I joined in and then did a full regular class. Came away feeling good and not at all tired or wonky. PD dance class tomorrow and a movement class as well. Moving on!

Sunday, May 09, 2010

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Happy Mother's Day to all of you mothers out there! Last night, I paid the price of eating a burger on Friday. The burger was delicious--a foccacia burger with pepper jack cheese and fried onions. The beef in the burger totally clogged me up. It took me a long time to clear things out so I could get to bed. I'll think twice the next time I crave a burger.

My new modem seems to be working well. As I mentioned in yesterday's post, I lost the whole day trying to get the device to work properly. I think the stress involved helped with my clogging problem--I was sitting nearly all day and not moving around much.

Dreamed last night that I was with a group of people who were making toys. We were being put into small groups and were asked to name our group. One group group named themselves the Sun Spots. The game of naming was a lot of fun, but had a serious side that I never got to in the dream.

I watched a movie, House of Sand and Fog. I'd seen it before and I was amazed at how little I remembered of the film. It was like watching a dream in some ways. The story was a Macbeth scenario with nearly everyone dying at the end--a grand tragedy set off my one person's failure to stay conscious. A chain of events like the clashing of pool balls on a billiards' table.

Tomorrow CW dance class and taking GH to his doctor's appointment. Maybe in the rain!

Saturday, May 08, 2010

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Day of techno-puzzles! After I checked my email this morning, my wireless modem crashed and locked me out of access to the Internet. I went to Frye's and picked up a new modem. Then began a six or seven hour episode of trying to get the modem to work. I spent hours on the telephone with tech support people from the modem company, the DSL service, and the telephone company. Finally, after many hours of flailing, I finally figured out what connected to what, and the connections needed to be made. I'm now back on line with a deeper understanding of how to connect my computer to the Internet via a wireless modem. A very deep understanding that I hope I never have to repeat. It was a puzzlement!

Dreamed last night that I was staying in a house (one that I had stayed in for previous dreams). I heard some noise outside and looked out and saw a crane fall over and crush the neighbor's truck. I went outside to see if there was anything I could do. I ended up jogging down the hill to a campus area. There were some scenes of me with people in classrooms. I was also in a studio room where several students were making a display. They were cutting long strips of paper and gluing the strips onto a surface. It was some kind of project. I was in the room but wasn't doing anything in particular.

I'm stiff and sore from being hunched over the computer/modem all day. I even missed getting a midday meal. I enjoyed the puzzle solving even though it was difficult to decode what needed to be done. It's amazing that some of these techno-problems can be solved in real time. I don't know what the average person does though. It was a flood of techno-babble that I had to sort through, decode, and implement. Good news though! I'm back online!

Friday, May 07, 2010

4399

Had an acupressure session this morning. It felt good! Came back from lunch though and went to sleep for about three hours. The combination of the session and a big meal put me to sleep. It felt good to relax and rest.

Made a run to the library and picked up several DVDs. Got a call from GH. He asked me too give him a ride on Monday to an appointment with his foot doctor. Works out that I can do so. It'll be fun to ferry him about. He's seeing the doctor for a checkup on an old foot injury.

Dreamed last night about something to do with devices and kids. There were two kids who each had a device of some sort. They were holding the devices in the path of a blowing wind. The devices were being activated by the force of the wind. I don't know what the devices were supposed to do. It was all a mystery.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

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Went to movement class today. I felt up and down during the class--actually been feeling that way all day. Feeling unsettled in some ways. Up and down and all around! Where it stops, it stops!

World seems to be highly chaotic and out of control. Stock market made a plunge today that is still sending shivers around the globe. Oil is spilling. Terrorists are planting bombs. Wars are being fought. Nothing seems to be solid and stable. Where is the "off" switch? The magic button that will make things quiet and peaceful? Inside, outside, on side! On the side like a dish of mustard?

I didn't take a good nap today. I'm feeling it now. Ready for an early to-bed evening. Acupressure in the morrow! That will be wonderful! May I dream warm thoughts.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

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Feliz Cinco de Mayo! Didn't have a PD exercise class today. Did my laundry! That was like exercising, somewhat. Dropped in on GH and delivered his copy of PH's recently printed book. He is looking much better and is in much better shape. He's still having to deal with the effects of the congestion, but is in better spirits.

They had to get a new phone system. Their old one wasn't working reliably any more. They got a really compact, simple set of phones at Frye's. We assembled the units and started them charging. They'll be back in operation after the batteries charge for a little while.

Watched the final episodes of Taken. Last segment got a bit draggy, but overall the series was well done. There were a lot of actors in the series who have gone on to regular roles in other TV series.

I didn't win the MegaMillion lottery! One person did (or at least one winning ticket was sold) and stands to collect $266M. Not too bad for a $1 bet. Movement class tomorrow. Looking forward to it!

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

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My lost keys have been found! I checked the L&F at the place where I take a movement class. Someone had found the keys and turned them in to the L&F cache. It's a minor miracle! I could have lost them anywhere, in all manner of ways. Good news!

Some not so good news! The movement class instructor (on Tuesday nights) will not be teaching this summer or in the fall. I will certainly miss taking her class. There's some chance of another teacher doing a class, but in a more distant location. Will have to wait and see what transpires. Change is the constant!

Had lunch with my friend PH today. She brought a signed copy of her book. It has an attractive cover and a pleasing design. It is great to see her work in print. I did a Google search on her book's title ("out of my mind") and a keyword "hall" which is her last name. The search brought up an Amazon link to her publication. The link was the third link in the search results. Impressive! She gave me a copy to give to GH. I hope to do that tomorrow.

Had a PD dance class today and a movement class. So it's been a busy day! May there be many more!

Monday, May 03, 2010

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CW dance class today! My feet were a little slow today. I started out late to the class and was a bit anxious about getting there on time. Had to park at the far end of the parking lot. Had to walk fast and far to make it to the class. Generated more anxiety that triggered more tightness and the slow feet.

Checked the lost and found for my missing keys. No luck! Will check the L&F at the movement class tomorrow. If not there, I guess they are gone.

Picked up volumes 3-5 of the Taken series. Volume 2 wasn't on the shelves, but I can extrapolate the story arc for that DVD. Watched Volume 3 and half of Volume 4 tonight. Have to force myself to stop and sleep. I really want to see the next episodes, but not tonight.

Checked my dinky stock portfolio. I was surprised to see that it has a non-trivial balance thanks to a few shares of Apple stock. Surprise! A nice one!

PD dance and movement classes tomorrow. Also meeting my friend PH. She's bringing a copy of her recently printed book. Looking forward to seeing her and the publication.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

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The week ends (or does it begin?)! Who knows which day it really is? The clocks have been tweaked so often, they no longer show the reality of time. Minutes here and there, days gone everywhere, a blizzard of moments. Swept away by the winds!

I spent the day (the days) going nowhere. Lost in a whirl of motion, I moved about but did not achieve lift off. I was grounded by the fictions that I read. I grew tired listening to the voices, the radio voices that purport to give the news. News, snooze! The stories repeat and repeat. There is no new news! Just endless repetitions floating on the winds.

It grows late and I look into the days to come. I see repetition and replay. I await the novel, the new, the unexpected. I sail seaward on the waves, floating on the towers of water and salt. I grow weary. I wish to sleep.

Dreamed last night that I was picking up a printed copy of a manuscript. I had started editing the work but had to stop while all of it was being printed. I had made a few marks on the opening pages, but I wanted to wait until I had the whole piece before starting a full review. The manuscript was quite thick. It took almost a ream of paper to make a printed copy.

Saturday, May 01, 2010

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May Day! Maze Day! 33% of the year 2010 has been experienced! Didn't win the lottery last night, but neither did anyone else. It rolled over. The jackpot grows larger.

I'm feeling really tired tonight. I slept a lot today but am still tired. Got out a little while today. Did a few errands and grabbed a bite to eat. Felt like I was in a fog though. Foggy and smoggy! Hot diddly doggy!

Dreamed last night that I was looking for a place to live. I went from place to place, but couldn't find the right location, the right setting.

Figured out how to make a withdrawal from my IRA. I'm going to sit right down and write myself a big check! The check is in the mail! The check is on its way! Check it out!