1954

1955

Rescue dance today--a goodly crowd despite the number who went to the workshop. I sort of zoned out after about 2.5 hours--but then went to lunch with a couple of the dancers which clocked up another 2.5 hours plus.

I had a pisole for lunch/dinner--tasty but not quite as good as it was in the Bay Area. The cafe is a combo of Salvadorian and Mexican foods--very good looking food but really slow service. Gave us a chance to talk--but got woozy waiting for the food.

Nothing planned for the morrow--RSB on Monday.

It's getting warm--it's like we are going to skip Spring and go directly to Summer. The house is muggy and warm--especially if the outside temperature is high.

I'm zonked for now--the dancing and lunch were a stretch for me.  

1956

Dance class at RP today--and it was good to exercise. There are a pair of CW dance events this weekend--but I'm not going to attend. The back-to-back workshops are too much for me--I'm only good for about 1 hour so 4+ hours doesn't work.

My energy today is good--I started increasing the Vital Reds I take and it seems to be giving more energy. I got a call from the Vital Reds people--trying to sell me more product. But I have an ample supply--since I bought 9 jars of the product in my last order. Even increasing my daily intake--won't make me short of the product for several months. The person who called me sounded like he was asleep or depressed--he was not especially good to talk to.

My daughter and her spouse are making a special "breakfast for dinner" dish tonight--sounds like it's going to be a treat. They have been making all manner of dishes for dinners--very healthy and tasty recipes. Looking forward to tonight's concoction--should be very special.

Dance up in Rescue tomorrow--not going to do an early morning RSB session. Will look at restarting a Saturday RSB class in May--will have done 3 sessions the first few days of next week. Can add a Saturday session after the full week--dancing will be fading back during May and June.

1957

RSB this morning--with my new gloves! Had about 10 people in the session--coach kept us moving through the whole period. I was sort of weak throughout today's activities--my muscles just seem to operate up to a level and then fade. Stamina--I need more stamina!

Just took a V8 Fusion and some Vital Reds--with an energy bar. I tried to nap a bit--but couldn't manage to drowse. I'll be heading to the FO dance class in just a bit--will get a chance to move for an hour or so.

My ex was here this morning when I awoke--I thought I heard her partner announce their wedding. But nothing was said as I passed through--on my way to grabbing a smoothie before going to the RSB session. It was really strange to dream what I did a night ago--on their wedding day.

Got a notice from the medical people--that I'm to see Dr. Hadi. I believe he is one of the key people in this area who works with PWP--he's not as well thought of as several of the other doctors but he is nearby and has dealt with PD patients.

I stopped and picked up a Mexican dinner for Cafe Rio--tamales, rice beans, greens, pico de gallo, rice, and sauces. It was good--and I also had a horchata which is the best in the area.

Dance at RP tomorrow--a light day given today's activities. Will not do a walk today--the double day just completed has been enough.

I'm on the verge of shifting my focus onto a more disciplined lifestyle--one that could possibly moderate my PD symptoms. I'm looking at diet, exercise, socializing--and doing whatever it takes to overcome this condition.

1958

EDH dance was good--I felt as good as I've felt in a while and for the most part danced smoothly.

Dreamt last night that I was picked up by a woman--who was to take me to an event. I had only met her briefly at some earlier time--but I needed a ride to the event and she had agreed to take me. When we got to the event (after making a couple of stops that she had to make)--it was a lively party with a band, food, dancing, and lots of people. At some point, I found out that the event was a wedding celebration--of my ex-wife's latest marriage. I was chagrined that I had been brought to such an event--I felt that it was inappropriate for me to be there and I wanted to leave.  However, my ride was somewhere in the crowd of people--and I could not locate her. I decided to leave--and I left the place and began a walk home.

I had heard that my ex was getting married yesterday--they were having a low key event but had not disclosed a lot about what they were doing. My dream seemed to overlap reality--if they indeed were doing the deed yesterday.

Yesterday, I took my third dose of medications late in the evening--I had planned on taking it around 5 but I let it slip from my consciousness.

I made it to the sport's store and picked up a new set of boxing gloves--they feel really good and will be a welcome change from the multi-use pairs that the RSB gym provides. The pair I got were on sale--so I got a primo pair for a reasonable price. Will get a chance to try them tomorrow--Rock Steady!

1959

RSB today--and a long nap afterward. I stopped and grabbed a Frap and sandwich on way home--then hit the bed and slept. I had a good night's sleep last night--but after the RSB session I just wanted to sleep. I've only had the one caffeine drink, the Frap--debating whether I'll do a V8 for dinner along with Vital Reds. Don't want to mess up tonight's sleeping--so may just do the Vital Reds and see what happens.

The RSB coach suggested that all of the boxers might want to get our own gloves--the usage of the free gloves has been increasing. More use mean more funk--as all the different people use the same gloves. Makes sense--I've started looking online and will probably go to Big 5 tomorrow.

EDH dance class tomorrow--and shopping for boxing gloves.

Today's RSB session was done with a large TRX segment--I don't love the TRX activity even though it is probably the one I should do the most. It really works out the muscles--using my own weight as the moderator. Heavy stress on the muscles--much more than most other activities.

1960

Went to PD support group in Folsom this morning--smaller than normal group but of interest. Heard some discussion of using PQQ (a supplement) and the Wahls' diet--both of which I'll investigate.

Got a call from the doctor's office--setting up an appointment to see the new neurologist. Appointment is not until 6/28--2 months before I can be booked in. Will also be put on the waiting list--which may get me in earlier.

I did a walk today--about a 3/4 mile trek. I also did the same yesterday--as well as drinking a V8 Fusion both days to support the activity with a bit of caffeine. I had lunch at the BBQ place--a tasty chicken marsala dish which will also be for dinner.

Have an RSB session tomorrow--which I'm looking forward to since it will be 4 days since I've done a workout.

Right now, I'm sort of blitzed--the walk woke up some but not fully. Perhaps, after some dinner I'll feel more awake--I'll do some Vital Red with dinner since I've not had any yet today.

1961

Dreamt last night about Memphis and high school--earlier had done some surfing about the school. Had retrieved a photo of a class reunion for the women's school--for my graduation year. Scary photo--who are these old people? Did I once know some of them--did I dance with anyone?

At one point I was talking with someone in the dream--retrieving the names of classmates and such. I awoke myself talking out loud--I had been talking in my sleep. It is amazing how many names I thought of--wonder what all of them are doing now?

There were dream fragments of a number of things that I did--or didn't do.

I awoke around 3am--and couldn't get back to sleep. I read some from my SF zines--and flipped and flopped until I finally just got up.

I went to CoCo's for a waffle--it's been a while since I've gone there. It hasn't changed much--same people working there and same foods.

Have a kink in my left ankle--that foot keeps cramping and torquing. May soak in a epson salt bath--see if that loosens things up.

I almost forgot my last pill dosage last night--I thought I had taken it around 5 but I had spaced. I was so focused on my dinner (ribs and salad)--that I forgot to take the pills on schedule.

No RSB tomorrow--PD support group in the morning.

1962

Went to Rescue for dancing today--I was plenty tired after two hours. I'm still tired--but more at ease after sitting still for a while. I'm feeling really stiff and achy--having problems walking smoothly and muscles in my legs not working well.

I sort of dreamt last night about the play I acted in during high school--I surprisingly recalled the name of the play (The Silver Whistle). I had the lead role--but I don't remember much of what I did except for the night I forgot my lines and had to be rescued by another actor. The role I played was a 77 year old tramp--who had lots of stories about traveling about in various foreign lands and cultures. The age of the character is the age I am now--77 strangely enough. I want to get a copy of the script--and see if I can recall more of the play. It is not a short piece--there was lots of dialog and lots of details in the yarns that were spun.

I think I also acted in another play during high school--but I don't remember much if I did. I was on a debate team or an essay contest (where I also froze and got off track during my session)--and was on the team that battled other schools in quiz competition. It is all hazy now--like something that took place on another planet. I was the Salutatorian of my graduating class (2nd overall)--and gave the closing salutation when we graduated. I did lots of other things in high school--besides taking classes and such.

I acted in West Side Story, the King and I, King Lear, and possibly other shows--in college.

I don't know how I managed to get accepted to Marquette--and made my way there after high school. I did a 6 week training in the Army Reserve the summer before heading up to Marquette--or was it a 6 month training? I don't recall the details--but I believe it was 6 weeks.

1963

Friday was a dance day--went to RP dance class and moved through several dances. Weather has changed dramatically--it is warm and muggy. Tomorrow is dance day up in Rescue--I will not do an RSB session first. I'll probably start doing Saturday RSB next weekend--I'll eventually be doing 4 sessions per week.

MD just asked me to go to KFC and get a dinner--A, her caregiver, had to leave early today so MD is feeling like she has to do something for dinner.

I had a fair amount of caffeine today--three beverages all with booster juice. It's left me a bit edgy--but a good dinner should mellow things out.

1964

RSB and dancing today--along with trying to get the medical system to let me see a doctor. I was late to RSB because I had to deal with the medical stuff--and I was late to dancing because I napped out after coming home from RSB.

I discovered that dancing at FO and RP are going to be curtailed--the instructors are going on the road  and will not teach classes for a lot of the summer months. Classes in May and June will not be happening--will have to use other dance resources such as EDH, Rescue, and any others I can find. Will also do more RSB sessions if I can do that--not clear how many RSB sessions my being will tolerate before there are diminishing returns.

I awoke around 1am last night--and had trouble falling back to sleep. I had gone to bed early--and was feeling like I just wanted to get horizontal.

RSB class was small today--nine people. Don't know why this class (Tues/Thurs) is so lightly attended. The instructor is one of the founders--and she knows how to put together the routines. The Monday instructor has big classes--over 20 last Monday and I think she has big classes on Wed and Friday.

My dreaming is active--even though I wake up in the middle of the night my dreaming still happens.

Will go to Rescue tomorrow--but won't restart Saturday RSB until the last weekend in April.

I just discovered that tomorrow is Friday--not Saturday. That means I'll be going to RP--and dancing there.

1965

Danced today--and it was better than it has been. I'm having trouble moving easily--but I am moving. The 2.5 hours of dancing went by quickly--as did the day.

I started the process of seeing a new neurologist--the paperwork is dense and not particularly streamlined. But hopefully I got it started--and an appointment will be made.

I haven't eaten enough today--I awoke late and grabbed a sandwich before dance class. I just had a light snack after stopping at the PCP's office--where I delivered the paperwork for getting an appointment with the neurologist.

I have some of the lunch I had yesterday--which I'll have for dinner. Will get more if I have to--tomorrow is a double day and I don't want to do it lightly fueled. Have to keep the calories up--especially doing RSB sessions.

The scar from the surgery is healing quite well--it appears that it is going to be fairly invisible once it heals completely. Better than I first thought--just after the surgery was completed.

1966

RSB went well today--and was rounded off with a Trager session this afternoon. I slept for couple of hours after lunch--which I had at the BBQ place. Right now, I just came from the massage table--and I'm ready to nap for some weird reason.

Weather has shifted--getting sunny and bright. Better than the rain--and coolness.

I did well in the RSB session today--surprisingly well for the break that I took. Heard that one of the PD people that I had met at the support group--passed away on Sunday. He was in a lot of discomfort--probably a blessing to move on and let go.

Dance class tomorrow--and a day off from boxing. Although I really should be figuring out some movement rituals--to keep my FitBit step count in the 10,000 range. Like today I only clocked about 4,000 steps--even though I did an intense workout at RSB.

BH cooked dinner--smells like a tasty dish.

MD plugged up her toilet last night--BH cleared it for her this morning. Both her toilet and mine plug up easily. I can keep mine fairly clear by drinking some prune juice every day--I'm less likely to be constipated and moving large stools when I have to go.

There's a new RSB gym opening up nearby--however it probably will not work for me since I'd have to pay to go there and I don't want to quit going to Roseville

1967

RSB today--and it flowed despite my feeling I wasn't 100%. The 1.5 hours went by quickly--and we had the biggest class of over 20 people.

I awoke several times during the night--despite all of yesterday's events and stimulations. And I had trouble falling back asleep--I tossed and turned for about 2 hours before managing to nod off for a little while.

I listened to a TED talk--on string theory. It was more of an overview of the field--unlike the Stanford course which is more detailed and mathematical.

Not much else to report--I'm feeling tired and fuzzy. Can't seem to get past the feeling of being low on energy--no matter what I try and do. The RSB, dancing and caffeine help mellow me out--but there never seems to be a breakthrough or a respite from the low energy.

Tomorrow is a double day--RSB in the morning and Trager in the afternoon. Trager is restorative--at least for the night after the afternoon sessions. I always seem to get a good night's sleep--after I get a Trager session.

One of the dancers sent a note saying that there may be a dance class starting on Wednesday night--not too far from where I live. If one starts, I will consider going--since it's close by and Wednesday is a light day. We shall see--when the lights come on in the new venue.

1969-1968

Easter Sunday--and I skipped over Easter Saturday. Went to Rescue dance yesterday--and drifted through the afternoon and evening. Today I went to the Hopper family get together--somewhere around 40 people with food, desserts, and lots of candy.

The house where the festivities took place--was a huge place set into a hill of other huge places.

The dinner was a huge potluck--where everyone brought a dish and the hosts furnished the main culinary items.

When we got back home--I started my Sunday laundry and fell asleep for a couple of hours. It's now approaching regular dinner time--but I'm still full from the Easter brunch.

RSB tomorrow--will be good to shake off some of the calories that I accrued today.

I dreamt last night that I was talking with someone--and MD walked past the doorway where we were talking. It felt like we had been caught doing something covert--the intensity of the dream awoke me and I had some difficulty getting back to sleep. I was up and down last night--restless.

Weather turned cool--and it started raining today. Rain is promised for the next few days--rain, rain, and then more rain.

1970

Cool today--windy and brisk outdoors. Still sunny though--heading for dance class in just a bit. Had my morning latte--and an almond croissant. Feeling fuzzy and heavy--can't seem to shake the lethargy that is with me most of the day. I slept in this morning for a bit--but awoke as the rest of the household got going. MD and A are on their Friday excursion to shop--and munch some lunch.

I'll down a V8 Fusion before dance class--and see if that wakes me up and gets me going. I have to swing by Sprouts--and pick up some Vitamin D3. Could grab some food from Panera's--but will see as the day unfolds.

BH just left with Birch--who wasn't sounding very happy about heading out. All is quiet now--the house is empty and everyone but me is out and about. Although I will soon follow--heading for the dancing.

Had an intricate dream last night--don't recall the details but remember the intricacy of the dreaming. I'm reading a SciFi story about a tesseract--a 3-D shadows of a 4-D cube. I think the story is influencing my dreaming--perhaps having a 3-D dream of a 4-D object?

1971

RSB was patchy today--the designated coach failed to appear. We coached ourselves--and got some exercise but hardly what we would normally have done.

I came home and slept though--and then hit the dance floor. I was tired in the dance session--but I managed to stumble through the new dances.  I'll dance tomorrow--and on Saturday most likely.

I had a smoothie and pastry for breakfast--and a sandwich and latte for lunch. I picked up a slice of pizza for dinner--and an apple bullette. I went to bed early last night--but still didn't feel like I had rested enough this morning.

I had a dream last night--that was quite vivid and detailed. Near the end of the dream--I had an interaction with a man in the dream who was organizing some kind of incident with another man. I was with a person who was a friend of the man leading our group--he and I were supposed to go to the intersection of Madison and 4th Street. There, we would be given further instructions--and would carry out our mission. I awoke with that part of the dream rattling in my thoughts--I was worried about what we were doing and why.

1972

Danced today--at the EDH senior center. I felt somewhat out of it most of the time--but I managed to stick it out and last for the whole 2 hours. It was the only thing I did--except for eating and such.

I have a double day tomorrow--RSB and dancing. Will see how I do in the morning's RSB session--and then sort out what happens afterward.

I just remembered that I hadn't taken my medication before dinner--so I downed it late. That's maybe why I feel drowsy--I didn't take my pills on time and my system was starting to notice the omission.

I also didn't have any caffeine in the late afternoon--I had a latte in the morning and a V8 Fusion around noon. With my restarting of intense exercise--I need to be more punctual with my meds and also eat more.

Somehow, I need to find a way to get more up and out--I've felt somewhat better since I've restarted exercise but I'm still not fully flowing. What to do--what to do?

1973

Awoke late but made it to RSB just on time--after grabbing a pecan roll and super fruit smoothie. Was a bit tired from yesterday's session--but I managed to do most everything. It was a small class--only about 8 people.

I stopped on the way home and ate a chicken pilaf dish at the BBQ place--that helped ground me and I didn't nap right away. Went down for a short nap in the late afternoon--will dance tomorrow up at the EDH senior center.

The most difficulty I had today in RSB was jumping jacks--and jump ropes. My legs just don't respond as they once did--the hamstrings are tight and don't want to make the jumping motions. My shoulders and arms got a good workout--we did a lot of speed bag work.

BH is cooking a dinner--broiled or baked veggies and sausages. Looks great--and the veggie mix is colorful.

MD went on a shopping spree today--she's indulging herself and shopping until she's dropping.

I don't have to get up early tomorrow morning--can sleep in a bit before heading to dance. Keep on moving--keep on grooving!

1974

Did a RSB session this morning--was tough getting up and out but I did it. The session was difficult--but I was surprised at how much I could do. I came home and slept like a log for several hours--will do it again tomorrow--but don't have to get up quite so early.

The RSB session was quite full--approximately 20 people I would guess. My rib only gave me a little trouble--for the most part I was unaware of any stress or strain.

I feel better after doing an RSB session--much better than just hanging out like I did over the past few weeks. And the incision on my neck is not causing any problems--it is hardly something that I'm aware of. I'm treating it with Aloe Vera in the evenings--that will supposedly help it heal and encourage the scar to disappear.

BH has his hands full today--three kids that he's caretaking. I guess it's spring break--and school is out for a week or two.

In restarting my exercise program--I've restarted my food intake. I had a Super Fruit smoothie and a pecan roll for breakfast--a green tea Frap and breakfast sandwich for lunch. I've picked up some ribs for dinner--and an apple bullette. I had a big meal yesterday--at the Indian buffet plus several other things throughout the day.

Despite my early afternoon nap--I'm feeling drowsy. May hit the bed early tonight--will see how the afternoon unfolds.

1975

Just experienced a miracle--thanks to the universe and every soul that helped. I went to Target this morning to pick up some heavy socks. I checked myself out at one of the DIY terminals--where there is a place to set unchecked items like my glasses' case. And, yes, I did it (again)--I left the glasses' case with my medications, appointment notices, stamps, and a $20 bill when I picked up my change, receipt, and the socks.

I discovered that my glasses were missing when I got home--after having a tasty lunch at the Indian Oven. I went back to Target and asked the customer service person if anyone had turned in a pair of glasses--they had not. I went home and dug out my n-1 pair of glasses--and began to think about how I was going to get them replaced. For some reason, I got a strong urge to go back to Target again--and see if perchance anyone had turned them in. And, miracles of miracles, they had done so--with every thing intact.

I thank the universe and all of its beings--it would have been a pain to replace the glasses and would have probably cost quite a lot.

Will restart RSB tomorrow--which should be interesting.

1976

Went to Rescue dance class today--was a bit tired after about 2 hours. My feet and legs moved well enough so that I could keep up--but it will take me a while restore where I was before the time I took off.

The rains came again last night and today--it comes in waves and is a deluge of heavy downpours. Then the sun breaks out--and it's like a spring day.

I picked up the TIAA check in the mail today--and deposited it via my phone. Magical--sending information through the airways (or in some way from here to there or anywhere)!

I'll be heading back to RSB on Monday--and starting to rebuild my strength and stamina. Will be a challenge--but also will help me lighten up as it did in dancing today.  Tomorrow will be a rest day--and laundry day with a bit of exercise but nothing heavy duty.

Just got a message that there will be a family gathering next Sunday--for Easter. I will not yet be doing RSB on the Saturday before each Sunday--so doing the Easter lunch seems like a good choice. Will be the grandkids, MD, my daughter and me--BH has to work. It's a big day for his brunch crowd--and well worth having it to do.

1977

Saw the surgeon today--and lump was benign (a lipoma). I managed to get there late--by improvising on the route and the heavy downpour of rain. That info means that I can get back to my exercise program--will go to Rescue tomorrow for dancing. Will restart RSB on Monday--will be good to be back on track.

I got some Aloe Vera for the scar--doctor said there are sutures underneath the wound that will dissolve. I'm still going to use aloe vera on the area--just to be sure that it heals totally.

I had given A, MD's caregiver, a message that was sent by the Roseville support group--regarding a position as caregiver for someone. It turned out that the email was a phishing scam--and A managed to figure that out before she revealed too much of her personal information. I sent an email to the person in the support group that had forwarded the message--and alerted her that if she had forwarded the info to the group's email list, she might want to warn everyone.

What a pain--and may the email police find these jerks and string them out! It's as if people in the group don't already have enough to deal with--but also have to deal with jerks like this as well.

I got some salmon for dinner--look forward to a tasty treat. Will drench the fillets in avocado oil--and Japanese seaweed spices.

1978

Hygiene today--and the regression was prominent. I need to do a hygiene every three months--or sooner. Going every six months does not work at all--the buildup and pocketing is more than my gums can handle.

Other than the dental work--I didn't do much else today. I tried out the Sunflower Drive In--they have some tasty veggie menu items. I had a cheese melt--made with a veggie/nut patty. It tasted good--and was very filling.

Went to the grocery store--and SBs twice. Could have made it to dance class today--but elected to not do so. Have a long drive tomorrow--will see surgeon and get the skinny on the lump that he removed. I all goes well--I will resume RSB on Monday and will head up to Rescue tomorrow for a dance session.

I fell asleep early last night--and was awake around midnight for over an hour. Fell back asleep--and napped until it was time to get up and out before heading to the dentist.

Had several caffeine drinks today--but am feeling tired as well as antsy. Am late taking my last dosage for the day--I think that is contributing to my jittery feelings. I've forgotten what it feels like to be not tired and antsy--it's my current state of being with which I'm growing more and more dissatisfied. What to do--to start anew?

1979

Went to EDH dance class today--despite my feelings of not wanting to go. Did well--but only made it through 1.5 hours. I was feeling fried after dancing for that period of time--and the seniors were coming in for demo dancing and I didn't think I should push myself on my first day out.

The class was small--which made it easier to stumble through the steps. I actually thought that my movements were fairly good--given the break that I took from classes.

I did multiple caffeine drinks today--a V8 Fusion, a green tea latte, and a green tea Frap. I think I napped for an hour when I got home--I just put my head on my pillow and  I think I went out.

Tomorrow is a dental hygiene day--and then to the doctor's office on Friday to get the scoop on what he took from my neck.

Weather is threatening to rain--it's balmy outdoors with a hint of moisture in the air.

I slept well last night--attributed to the Trager session in the afternoon. I believe that I've had a good night's sleep after every Trager session--too bad I can't have one every night.

1980

Moved some today--went to the Roseville PD support group and got a Trager session later in the afternoon. The Trager felt so good--on the way home I felt like I was floating.

The support group was a boost--it was good to see people. The speaker is the new doctor in the area--Doctor Byrd. She did well with the Q&A--she seems to know her stuff. I'm apparently stuck with the doctor that Hill Physicians has picked--but next year changes can be made. Need to contact him--and set up an input visit and go from there. Have to call Doctor Thakur--and cancel my May appointment.

I picked up a sandwich from Pantera's on the way back from Roseville--got one of their better sandwiches (chicken salad). Had half of it for dinner--and half left for tomorrow.

Planning on going to EDH dance class tomorrow--have a dental hygiene appointment on Thursday. I let the dental stuff go too long--it's been 6 months and I should have gone back in 3.

Will see Dr. Long on Friday--and will do Rescue dance class on Saturday. Will rest on Sunday--and restart my exercise/dance program on Monday.

Feel better today--after getting out and about, and getting a Trager session.

SMcD, the Trager person, is very knowledgeable about physiology and such--she told me about how scar tissue behaves and what is likely to happen to the scar that remains from the surgery. It's good news if it behaves as she described--I feel less concerned about it being there after what she said.

1981

Can't seem to wake up today--just want to roll over and sleep. Have done my caffeine for the day--using V8 Fusion (and vital reds) and a SB Frap. But nothing has kicked in yet--and it's 3 in the afternoon.

Took a shower--and washed my head where the surgery was done. Looks like it's going to leave a scar--so much for removing the lump that was there. Just created a different form of the lump--smaller perhaps but much more noticeable.

Awoke last night at 2:22--one of the angel times.

Went to the BBQ place for lunch--they had a veggie lasagna with a salad on the special menu. Tasty and filling--have some left for dinner. Just popped out for a green tea Frap--and picked up some wound dressings from the dollar store.

Can hear the grandson babbling away in the next room--he's enjoying himself. He is going to be talking very soon--he's almost there right now. The magical way that talking happens--it's both a mystery and joy.

1983-1982

April Fool's Day has come and gone--nothing fooling on that day for me. Heading into the week that will end my "vacation" from exercises--and the restart of my program of dancing and boxing. I keep thinking that I'll restart dancing before I see the surgeon later in the week--but I can't seem to get going. I also think about just walking some each day--but that too is just a thought without any subsequent action.

I'm not sure that the result of the surgery is going to be what I thought it would be--a reduction in the size of the lump and a smooth scar. It appears that I'm going to have a noticeable scar where the incision was made--another kind of lump. One that hopefully doesn't require more surgery--just will leave it be and deal with it as is.

I seem to have to use caffeine every day now--otherwise I'm lethargic but can't sleep it off. So I use the caffeine to pump it up--and keep me going until I hit the bed at night.

I was awakened this morning by the nest door neighbor--he had his CW radio station cranked up. My bedroom is like a sound box when he does that--the sound gets amplified and reverberates the room. He only had it on for a short while--but it was early in the morning and woke me up.

Day by day--I have to sway. Keep on going--going on my way!