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Happy Halloween! Waiting for the ghosts to appear--the ghosts and goblins!

It's been a fairly quiet day, audially and physically. The quiet after the earthquake! Today was laundry day. I felt fairly still and quiet as I did my clothes. Came back and fell asleep for about an hour sitting in my chair. Haven't felt the need to sleep again today--and my symptoms were lighter--particularly the mental fog and tremoring.

Having some slowdown with my digestion--from the weekend on. Also some disturbances in my stomach tract--which seem to be abating. Have an acupressure session in the morning and a session with Rebecca on Friday over in SC.

Experiencing a lot of mental scatter. Could be it's always been there and I now hearing it. It's like a swarm of bees settling in my head with each bee broadcasting some thought. I can't focus on just one bee. I hear the cacophony of all the bees, the buzz of all the thoughts. Meditation seems to quiet things a bit. But the buzz goes on!

Dreams have been choppy--nothing sticking--except the buzz!

5320

Whole lot of shaking going on--and it's not just me! About an hour ago, I was feeling the effects of a 5.6 temblor. I thought at first it was a neighbor with a loud muffler. Then I hear the roof beams rattling and went to stand in a doorway. About then, the shaking stopped. It was here and gone in a very short while. Keeps the adrenaline bubbling!

The earthquake was heavier shaking than I've felt today. It's been a fairly quiet day symptom-wise. And, it's been a napless day! First day in months that I've not had to sleep. I went horizontal and read some today, but no nap/sleep. Maybe I was riding the earthquake energy wave. More days like today will be wonderful.

I don't think the earthquake did much damage. Perhaps elsewhere, but not around here.

My friend P sent me a couple of photos that are wonderful. One is her covered with Dead Sea mud and looking a bit like an aborigine. The other is of her "flying" in a wind tunnel--an expression of pure joy on her face. Happy to see her so joyful! May she experience many more adventures!

5321

Took a while, but the chiropractor treatment finally settled in. Last few hours have been still and quiet. Had session in the morning, went for lunch and a walk, and came back. Read for an hour or so and fell asleep for an hour. Awoke to the sound of rain and fell back asleep. Awoke and ate. Did some crossword puzzles and everything started getting quiet. Feel alert/awake now.

Having some sharp twinges in my stomach area. Not sure what that's about. The chiropractor did some manipulations that seemed to help. I've been massaging the region and breathing into the area--which seems to help as well. Hopefully, by morning it will have quieted down and stopped twinging. Can't help but wonder if it's related to the supplements I'm taking. Too many variables!

Been having dreams, but they're all jumbled in and around my naps--don't recall any details. But a fair amount of dreaming going on! Seems that some were about actual events when I was in high school--memory dreams! Also other scenes from the past--a flooding of memories--or rather partial memories. Things are stirring!

5322

I was out of kilter today. Started off clear enough, but as the day progressed I kept falling deeper and deeper into a funk. Went for a walk on the baylands. When I finished the walk, I was feeling foggy and really tired. Skipped lunch and went to sleep. Spent the afternoon napping and trying to clear the fog. Feeling somewhat clearer now, but will still go to bed early and read.

Seems like I have to maintain a really quiet pattern if I don't want heavy symptoms. Makes it difficult to do anything constructive or fun. Have to find a way through this morass--have to do so.

Have a chiropractor session in the morning. Will be curious to see if I get the quietening effects I got last time. Produced on of my clearest days in months.

Dreamed (sometime over the past few nights) about interacting with cast members from the show NYPD Blue. In the dream, I was just talking with different cast members--it was very real but casual. It's amazing how many people's faces I can recall from that show. Nothing in the dream was very significant--mostly me telling them how good they were in their various roles.

5323

And AR had her 1st birthday celebration! It was a chocolate cake from Prolific Oven and she blobbed it all over herself. Will be some great photos!

I had a good time despite the cognitive fog that settled over me on my way there and during the event. Lots of stimulation for me to process. I found it disconcerting to have multiple conversations taking place--I was having difficulty tracking comments and remarks. I ended up sitting outside most of the time--the noise in the house was too much for me to deal with.

I felt a bit better once I had some food, which was delicious along with the cake. I ate a late breakfast, but my body seemed to want food when it came around.

D&D are living in a restoration project. He's done a lot of work on the place and there's more to be done. She said they lived for 6 months without a kitchen! Hearty souls!

It was a good celebration! AR should be out like a light by now (she was up most of the night). She is a camera bug! Loves the lens! Will be a good set of memories in her scrapbook.

I'll have to work on my party-attending skills. Have to learn to make the transition from hermit to grandfather more smoothly. It's an early to bed night! I did grab a nap when I came home, but need more horizontal time! Adieu!

5324

Heavy, logy day! Kept wanting to sleep. Was chilly in the morning, which didn't help at all. Finally feeling somewhat quiet after napping from 5 to 6pm. Was just enough to quiet the symptoms.

Had lunch at DeeDee's--the only food that really seems to agree with me. Dairy getting iffy as the cooler weather arrives.

Newest granddaughter's birthday (#1) tomorrow--actually on Monday, but party is tomorrow. Looks like there will be a fair crowd. Maybe I was doing anticipatory sleeping to get ready for the party. Was feeling shaky today--shaky and anxious.

Will head for the bed early this evening--read some and not stay up too late. Have to get up early in the morrow--the party starts a bit before noon. Dreams and things!

5325

Acupressure rules! Have had a quiet afternoon after this morning's session. Napped, but have been feeling still. I do seem to respond positively to bodywork--just have to not overdo it. I came away from the session feeling symptom-free. My body feels somewhat tired tonight, but OK.

Heard back from my ex-wife (daughter's mother). She said she had no plans to take on renters to share her house and that her offer was open if I need to make such a move. That's reassuring to know--provides a safety net should I need it.

I awoke feeling good this morning. Sagged some before the session. Came up after the session. Had lunch and went for a walk. Then back for a nap with some fuzziness afterwards. Quiet and peaceful now. Been doing the heart visualization any time I find I'm drifting along. I believe I'm ready to start putting things in order--instead of just letting everything pile up and amass. Specifically, I want to get this place cleaned and polished. It needs it; I need it!

Several of the stories I read yesterday were about getting old, infirm, and needing assistance. They made me ask myself what it is I'm doing with the life I have left. Yeah, what's on the agenda? I must end the drifting along, singing a melancholy song! I'm starting to get glimpses and glimmers! May they break through! So be it!

5326

Spent a goodly part of the day mulling over my ex-wife's proposal. Concluded that I couldn't do anything until March of next year. Would evaluate my state of well being in January and make a move decision then. This may not work for her--she sent me a follow up note saying she just found out that she's going to lose some work that she thought she was going to get. So, she may have shorter-term needs that wouldn't let her wait--especially since I may end up not being able to move in March.

Day was up/down and all around! I was showing a lot of symptoms and was fairly restless. Did nap for a couple of hours, but didn't feel rested. Too much excitement, perhaps! It was a boost to be offered such a possibility--and it kicked in the anxiety machine!

She emailed photos of the place. It's in the woods, two levels, and quite nice. Makes if difficult to say "maybe." But, being realistic, it's not something I should do quickly. Just the thoughts of making such a move created enough inner turmoil--doing it could only generate more.

New books from the library. Sort of plodded through the day. It got fairly warm. Digestion seems to be off a little. Have acupressure/tui na session in the morrow. See if that helps smooth out the wrinkles! May it be so!

5327

Warm day at the beach--warm and windy! Santa Ana winds making themselves felt up here. Firestorms in the south!

Walk went well--had a little trouble with the heat, but did OK. Treated myself to a pumpkin ice cream on the way back. Yummy, yummy for my tummy!

Grabbed a sandwich afterwards (eat dessert first!) and then napped. Awoke as the day got warmer--been dragging around this afternoon.

Got a call from my last ex-wife. She called to offer me a place to live back in NC! It was a heartfelt offer with no strings. I was touched by her generosity. Have to think about it, but truly appreciate the offer. It gives me a cushion, a place to land. It's been one of my concerns as things unfold--where am I to live? I'd rather not be alone. I'd prefer living in some sort of community--some place with kindred souls. We shall see!

Her offer kick up my energy levels! My middle son and his family live back there in SC. Options! Options! Nice to have options! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

5328

Disappointing dental day! I've been working on getting my gums in better shape. Today, got the news that what I've been doing has not been enough. I need to spend more time keeping my mouth clean and be even more aggressive with my hygiene. I'm being given an hour tutorial on what I need to keep my gums healthy. Wasn't what I expected to hear. I thought I had made progress, but was not the case.

In addition, the type of hygiene work I had done today was labeled "periodontal maintenance" and wasn't covered under my medical/dental plan. Hmmmm!! Can only have one of these within a 12-month period and I'd had one in March.

I was shaking a lot during the treatment--couldn't get quiet. After I ate lunch (and cleaned my teeth), I slept for about 2 hours. Sleep that knits up the sleeve of care. Went for a walk before lunch--was feeling energetic despite the dental news.

Tomorrow, planning to head over to the beach. Supposed to be nice weather. Let the ocean soak up my tremors! Let the briny air bathe me in healing swirls!

5329

Logy day! Was cool this morning and it was like the coolness zapped my system before things settled in. Awoke later than usual and then it was lunch time--and then it was nap time--and here I am. Symptoms more present today (tremor and mind fog) versus past 1.5 days.

Have dental appointment in the morning. Will be interesting to see if all my hygiene efforts have paid off. I think they have, but we shall see.

Dreamed last night that I was with RM and C. I was being asked for advice regarding their house. I was suggesting that they make it a DIY project--hire laborers and make the changes that they wanted to make. Somewhere the dream switched locations and I was in a city. I'm not sure what I was doing there, but there was a lot of action/movement.

I think the hot water heaters have stopped working--can't seem to get hot water. Will make for a chilly morning shower. Hopefully, it's being fixed, but may not be so until the morning. On my last of four short story collections. I've buzzed right through this set. An amazing array of literary skills! Each writer clearly unique in their approach to story telling. After tonight's read, I may be ready for some new ones.

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After my session with Rebecca yesterday, I came away "de-fogged" and sleepy. I slept deeply and well last night and did more of the same today. Went for a walk on the baylands. It was brisk and windy, but invigorating. Today, also was somewhat fog-free. A goodly day!

Don't recall any dreams. Been concentrating on a story Rebecca told me about a client in Europe who recovered by doing a daily active visualization for about 30 days. The visualization involves creating a ball of heart energy, having it surround the body, seeing yourself as a tiny figure entering the ball and the heart, traveling down some passageways until you encounter a "source," and surrendering the "list" of things that need to be fixed/healed to the source. It's a simple, easy-to-do exercise that can be done right before going to bed. The woman had a complete reversal of symptoms over a 30-day period. Needless to say (but I'm saying it anyway), I'm doing the visualization each night. There's a sense of it being what's needed. I've certainly been quiet and still for over a day.

During the session yesterday, Rebecca was saying something about me needing to drink lots of water. As she was saying that a truck of distilled water pulled up outside. The word "water" scrolled across the window as if to underscore her statement. We both collapsed in hysterics--produced quite a chuckle. The universe is listening!

5332

Rebecca sent me a batch of quotes. The one that sticks out for me is from Nike (the shoe company--not the god): There is no finish line! Seems like both a threat and an observation. Reminds me to keep on keeping on.

Acupresssure/Tui Na session today. Felt good, but I got really sleepy/heavy late in the day. Also feeling like I couldn't settle down and get still. Finally did so within the last hour or so. Have a session with Rebecca in the morrow. Curious to see how it goes.

Got a note back from my daughter. She's doing well over in the valley. She's got a job she likes and that's paying well and she's happy with school and classes. I'm glad for her. She sounded really upbeat and pleased with everything. She says that courses are tougher, but she's glad they are that way--she feels like she's learning.

I think I dreamed last night, but don't remember any details. Reminds me of another quote from Rebecca by Jung: (paraphrased) He who looks outside dreams; he who looks inside grows.

Days without endings--the blush of moonlight--filling up the sky!

5333

It was a laundry day--a day of mechanical cleansing. Round and round things are tumbled. I was experiencing unclarity today--laundry went quickly, but I was in a daze. Slept some in the late afternoon. Still feeling some mind fog and experiencing symptoms. Not a quiet day.

Have an acupressure massage scheduled in the morrow--looking forward to a session--it's been two weeks since the last one (other than the ones I do in my imagination). Need to remember to return the Magnets and Acupuncture book.

Dreamed last night that I was part of a group of astronauts. We were making a series of spaceflights. We were a selected team and were back home after an initial flight that had taken us to the moon and back. We were scheduled to begin another flight the next day. We were admonished to get back to base early. We were in town for dinner and last minute odds and ends. It was getting close to the time we needed to return. I mentioned it to everyone, but no one seemed concerned. I was feeling anxious and wanted to return.

Didn't walk today. Started to do so late in the afternoon, but slept instead.

Read that SS would only get a 2% cost of living increase next year. Costs will be higher next year for everything (food, fuel and medical), but the indexing will be a year behind. Oh, well! Enjoy it as it is since one day it may have to be decremented--probably beyond my horizon!

5334

Didn't make it to the beach today--didn't look like it was clement enough to go there. Went for a bayland's walk instead. Felt stronger today making the loop. Slept later in the afternoon again today and nodded off after dinner. Symptoms were moderate today--not quite as clear as yesterday, but in the domain.

Dreamed last night about being at a resort. One of the people in the group needed to borrow my car. Wasn't sure if they knew how to drive a manual shift vehicle. I cautioned them and let them go--it was a rental car (or hire car as they say in the UK) anyway.

The B-day gift for my granddaughter, AR, came in today. It's a LeapFrog toy that I did the lyrics and play pattern design. It came out nice--there were lots of detailing that went into the product. Some nostalgia in seeing it packaged and ready to play.

Laundry day tomorrow--my bi-weekly Wednesday event! Oh, boy! What a joy! Got the toy! Now it's time to watch the spinning windows once again. Adieu! Adieu! Or some such stew!

5335

Clear day, today! One of the best in a while. Went to the chiropractor. He only had to do some minor adjustments. Energetically, I felt good before and after the treatment. Went for a long walk on the baylands. Slowed some at the end, but overall felt loose and smooth.

Ate a fair amount today--felt somewhat hungry. Didn't nap until late in the afternoon, but slept some. Feeling awake and alert right now. Will read some. Tomorrow, may go to the beach--will see what the weather's like.

Dreamed last night about being in a company that was struggling. I had written some copy and submitted it to the web people for posting. Got back an email that indicated a meeting was being called the next day. At first, I thought the meeting was going to take place that day. I wasn't dressed for a formal meeting. Since the meeting was put off a day, I'd have a chance to go home and find some better clothes. The copy I'd written had to do with images--each one needed a tag line, which I had supplied.

Taking the H-PLR. Lots of capsules every day, but for a good cause--cause I want to get my gut healthy! May it be so!

5336

Sunday--literally! A day of rays instead of rain. But, rains will return.

Odd day! One of the neighbors had a birthday celebration. The common area is right outside my door so there were many people gathered there for hours. I actually managed to sleep through some of it. Amazing! Read some and slept some. Otherwise, I hovered waiting for things to once again be quiet.

I was really logy all day--and still feeling heavy now. Had lots of "memory" dreams last night--dreams about past events in my life--times I was not at my best (or even close). It was nearly endless--like watching film clips where each event segued into the other in a continuous chain. I awoke feeling like I'd been beaten--heavy and dense. Didn't shake the feeling all day--especially when the party blockaded me in my apartment.

I think the dreams were triggered by the PostSecrets (PostSecrets.com) site that I discovered and probed last night. It's an amazing project. People send in post cards that have been modified so that they reveal a secret--something the person hasn't told to anyone. The site displays examples of submissions. The site owner has published several books of submitted secrets. His story of how he got started is amazing in it's own right--he dreamed about the project one night in Paris after buying three post cards based on the Little Prince. In his dream, he was given hints that set him on his way.

The concept is intriguing and really simple. People leave post card "secrets" in copies of his books. There's a "community" that's grown up around his publications. There's also a magazine that operates along the same lines except it publishes "found" communications--it's called Found Magazine. So many interesting things! PostSecrets has had over 100 million visitors! His books are selling near the top of the Amazon lists. What a dream has wrought!

5337

Awoke with clear energy (although I did sleep in some--read and went to bed late last night). After eating, I went for a walk. Was slowing down some toward the end of the route and picked up a "tail wind"--I felt a loosening in my sacrum and it was as if a light breeze was blowing me along. Sensation lasted about 1/2 a block, but was exhilarating. I felt like a leaf being blown forward by a light breeze.

Still came home and slept a bit. Continue to ponder what I can do to "grow up" and take charge of my recovery. I've grown accustomed to my low-stress mode of being. To take charge fills my head with anxiety, which will be part of the battle. Have to be anxious and move on. The days continue to disappear--no matter what I'm doing or not doing.

Had dreams last night, but lost the details--where the devil is! More will emerge. Was a bit warmer today--symptoms were moderate. Continue to play my mind games! What are the choices?

Started taking H-PLR today--a more potent supplement to attack the H-pylori--one more round! Will know in a month if this works--may it do so! Early abed again tonight! Read and sleep! Knit one; purl two! Away I go!

5338

Day of mixed blessings! Rain--lots of it. Not huge downpours, but a steady set of fronts with plenty of moisture. Ate a lot and slept a fair amount. It was cool most of the day and I just wanted to hibernate. Did get out for lunch--DeeDee's! Had to walk some in the rain--just enjoyed it--let it be. It is what it is.

Thought a lot today about JJ's comments and admonitions. Looking at what I can do to become more responsible for my recovery. Practiced seeing myself as recovered--pretended to be recovered as I went about the day. Some movement in doing so! It does work! If it's not so, pretend that it is, act as if it is, and let it be as it is. No conditions!

Dreams are merging with realities and overlapping some. Had a dream/vision of water running uphill. There were streams everywhere and they were all running uphill--enticing me to follow the flow and observe the beauty being produced. It is what it is!

Symptoms were in and out today. Overall, a good day. Feeling a little cooped in by the rain, but that will pass. Ate more warm foods today. Will have to switch my diet some as we go into cooler weather--a bit more warm foods.

Expecting DST to kick in, but doesn't happen until November 4th this year. Fall back late this year and beyond. Glad all the electronic gadgets reset themselves. Smart world!

5339

Had a session with JJ over in SC today. Valuable but tough to hear! Mostly dealt with my attitudes and how I'm going about my recovery. She pointed out that there's not much she, or anyone, can do now--it's in my court. I have to step up and deal with what's going on. I have to grow up and be responsible for my recovery. Stop hoping someone else is going to make it happen.

I told her about the bodywork sessions--how they work, but only for a short while. How the periods in between sessions are turning into symptom pits. She said is was like bingeing and then getting a hangover. I need to source the results of the bodywork--make it happen within my own being. And concurrently, stop operating from the perspective that it is hard (difficult, impossible, never going to be done, too much to handle, is bigger than I am, and so on with a host of negative litanies). I need to use my powers of visualization continuously and relentlessly--not keep devolving into "poor me" mode of thinking/being/feeling.

I must become the master of my moods instead of letting them rule me.

Anyway, it was a valuable session and helped me get my head out of the water. I know what I need to be doing! I just need to be ruthless (and joyful, happy, clear, thoughtful, and so on) and get it done. And it's not a mental exercise--it's visceral and feelings-based. I have to learn how to be from the inside out!

5340

Rained last night! Was good to hear the sound of raindrops hitting the roof. It's been a while since we've had a good downpour. It muddied the walking paths, but was dry enough to keep on trekking.

Feeling light/heavy today--some things lighter and others more dense and heavy. Exercises felt light. Walking felt heavy. Went out for lunch and eating (using fork and knife) was heavy--not very smooth--clumsy and difficult controlling my fingers. A mixed bag of effects!

Have a session with JJ in the morrow. Been a while since I've seen someone other than Rebecca. It will be an interesting checkpoint.

Went to bed early last night and awoke late. Sleep feels good, but I'm starting to get creaky from so much horizontal time. Looking for the balancing point--whatever that may be!

5341

Lighter day! Didn't feel as dense as I felt over the past few days. Made it to the beach! Had to talk myself into going--it was overcast, windy and cool. Glad I went. The sea air is bracing and cleansing. Had some problems walking, but made it through my normal route. Got back to my truck and rested for a bit. Had a warming soup from the organic store. Drove back home and took a couple of hours of nap. Went to DeeDee's for dinner. All is well!

Symptoms eased back today. I was fairly clear for most of the day. Symptoms seemed to come back after I napped, but went away again after I ate dinner. Food and exercise (bodywork) are two key elements. I ate a bit more today. May continue to do that and see if things change.


No dream details from last night. I know I dreamed, but no recollection of what about. They'll be there if I need them! Early to bed again tonight! Sleeping tight! Goodly night!

5342

Still feeling heavy! Had to tug myself from the bed this morning. Did my exercises, ate, and went back to sleep. Got up and went for lunch and came back and slept. Feeling a bit clearer now, but will probably head for the bed early tonight. Will go to the beach in the morrow and see if the sea air wakes me up.

Got a call from LL today. She's trying to figure out where to live. Not an easy choice! She's further along than me--I haven't a remote clue regarding what I'm to do and where I'll be.

I think I dreamed last night, but lost any details in the waking times.

Adrift, afloat! Surging with the waves! Looking for the beacon that will guide me home! Adrift, afloat!

5343

Still feeling heavy! Like my arms and legs are as heavy as stone. Energy levels are good--just feel slow and dense. Weather shifting is no help. Cold when I awoke, but now it's sultry--and still.

Got a note from MF--she's back in the area, but may be moving to WA state in next few months. She put me in contact with a man who's going to NY to learn what the Mark Morris Dance Group is doing with PD people. When he returns, he may be doing classes/workshops based on what he learns.

LL sent me a link to a dancing bird that's a riot. Who said birds can't dance?

Dreamed last night about a corporate (HP?) meeting where some important announcement was to be made. People were gathering and corporate honchos were in place and ready to go. But something went haywire with the AV system. There was an introductory slide show that was supposed to play and set the agenda. Nothing was happening. One of the project team tried to step in and make things work. None of his team members were there with him. He was brave--stepping up right in front of the CEO, who was notably upset with everything. I was sitting in the audience. I wanted to go help the guy, but I awoke.

Light week this week! Only seeing JJ on Thursday! Heal and deal!

5344

Slow day, today! Heavy day! Felt like I was moving in molasses. Feel tired and achy. Don't know if it's a result of the sessions over the past two days or just the way it is. Slept some today, but feel like I need more. So early to the rack tonight.

Not much else to report. A bit of odd energy today--tired but slightly wired. Feeling like I should be doing something, but not sure what. Will do the psoas muscle exercises that are the homework for Rebecca's session. Didn't know I had a psoas muscle--now I know and have to exercise it.

Don't recall last night's dreams--I slept deeply. Had to fight off the chilly weather this morning--which may have contributed to today's tiredness. So many variables! I like the rest and sleep parts.

5345

I'm feeling drowsy and I'll head for the bed soon. It's a good kind of tiredness. I had a session with Rebecca today, which went really well. I just feel tired--very relaxed and clear--but ready to sleep well.

As usual, her work was rich with suggestions for "saving" the results. I wrote her a testimonial for her web site that noted her skills and talents, but mainly her intuition and compassion. I've never left a session with her where I felt it hadn't been worth the time. Last week's and today's sessions were exceptional in terms of what I received--a real gift.

But, right now the slumber calls. More in the morrow (like last night's dream of making desserts)!

5346

Acupressure/tui na session today. Another session with Rebecca in the morrow. Today's was good. I emerged somewhat quiet, but a bit low energy--or diffuse energy perhaps. Been in a bit of a fog. Feeling quiet though. We shall see!

Was a bit cooler today (last night). Noticing the temperature changes.

Luca, the massage person, loaned me a book on using magnets to help heal certain conditions. Led me to do some research and I found a pile of stuff on the web about using pulsed magnets to alleviate PD symptoms. Incredible amount of data on some experiments done in the 1990's. Lots of possibilities!

Heading for an early bed tonight. May I have magnetic dreams!

5347

After last night's logy-ness, today was a turn around! Awoke feeling clear. Did exercises and ate, then went and did laundry. Came back and shaved/showered and went out for lunch. Made an appointment at the barber's for later in the afternoon. Went shopping and came back and napped before getting a haircut. Feeling good now--had a short down time after getting back from the barber. Was mostly a clear day with short bursts of symptoms.

Got results back from H-pylori test--still showing that I'm infected--despite over two months of taking supplements. Have to reassess! I think I've reduced the critter, but have not yet eliminated it from my system. Wasn't happy to hear that news!

Dreamed last night that I was helping someone edit a file of names and addresses. There were spurious characters in the file (apostrophe followed by an ellipsis--",..."). I was doing global search-and-replace edits that were helping clean up the file. I made sure that we saved the original file in case we had to start over. It was a straight forward task and it went smoothly.

Have an acupressure/tui na session in the morning--and another session with Rebecca on Friday. Feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride--up and down, down and up since last week's sessions. Onward I go!

5348

Feeling heavy today--weighted down--not light and airy! Back, neck and shoulders are stiff--like a fog has settled around my upper body.

Did walk today--the nearly 2 mile loop at the baylands. Then had lunch and collapsed for a few hours. Am awake now but logy--heavy!

Dreamed last night about being in a house out in the countryside. Fairly primitive place with a crowd of people. I was explaining to everyone how things worked--what they had to do to make things work. It was chaotic and jumbled--the atmosphere. Everything was dense and slow moving (not unlike this day).

Went online to the LeapFrog site looking for a B-day gift for my granddaughter (end of the month). I was pleased to find that several of the toys I worked on are still in the catalog. I think I'll order one of them (Learning Friend Lily) for her. It was one of the toys I really was pleased with--and can pass it on to her! Nice!

Well it's an early evening tonight. Get my heavy self horizontal! So be it!

5349

Interesting session with the chiropractor! He found little out of alignment or under tension. He noted that several joints and junctures were showing a lot of flexibility and range of motion. Has to be related to R's Friday session and manipulations.

I continue to go back and forth with symptoms--sometimes they are totally absent--or totally present. Napped again in the afternoon. Feeling logy right now but quiet in terms of symptoms.

Sent off H-pylori test kit. Will be curious to know if there's any progress in getting rid of that parasite. Will be a couple of weeks before I get results. Meanwhile, I continue to take the Bye-Lori!

Don't recall dreams from last night. Read late into the evening. Good stories--A Sweet Scent from a Strange Mountain--that won the Pulitzer Prize a few years back. Stories about people and families in/from Vietnam. Rich, moving stories!

Still meditating on what is my vocation in this lifetime (or in any reincarnation). What am I here for? What am I here to be? This illness makes me wonder and question. There has to be an answer!