5290

Acupressure session this morning! They were partially underwater. The plumbing upstairs flooded several of the offices while some (like the one we used) was untouched by the deluge.

Came back and napped for a short time. Have been on the move since. Feeling a bit logy now. Will head for the bed soon. Symptoms were on/off all day. Moments of quiet; periods of shaking.

Had a bowl of soup again today (deja vu). Thought about going to DeeDee's but opted for less instead--although I did get an ice cream. I was craving ice cream despite the cool weather.

Set up a Curriki membership for Laran Stardrake. Let the games begin!

Have a session with Rebecca in the morrow, in SC. November comes to a close--the merry month of December begins. Had a tea with L tonight. Been a while since we've seen each other--was nice to touch base. Dream time calls! Buena noche!

5291

Dreams last night! Dreamed that I was on a trek along a high mountain area. We had left the base camp and had travelled quite a distance with some good vertical ascent. We were stopping for the evening and pitching camp. I went a bit further along the trail and found a natural overhang that provided cover. The others camped out back along the trail in much more exposed spots. One of the climbers realized that he had left his notebooks at a rest stop we had made that day. There was just about enough light to go back and retrieve the notebooks. He elected not to go back. I was feeling like I should volunteer to return since I was nominally the trek leader, but I didn't say anything and let it go.

Later the dream was in a house. There was some danger (like an explosive) hidden somewhere in the house. As we walked around, we could trigger the hidden item and cause a lot of damage. We carefully explored the place, but found nothing that would cause a problem. There was some of the same atmosphere in both dreams--a feeling of unresolved tension that permeated the dream scene.

It was laundry day today. Was a bit cool when I went out to do the laundry so experienced some shaking, but not a lot. Overall, symptoms were somewhat quiet today. Had a hearty soup for lunch. Ate with JVR, who happened to be at the cafe when I arrived. He really gets out and about even though he's in a wheelchair (a very fancy one that has all kinds of special features). We talked some about longevity--he's 65 and admits he never expected to live as long as he has. He experiences a fair amount of pain, which he moderates with pain relievers that he injects himself. His mother is still alive and he ends up handling things for her even though she lives in Texas. He's quite a person--very active and very much an activist.

Have an acupressure session in the morrow. They had a pipe break and the place was flooded this morning. A front room escaped a lot of the deluge so we'll work in there tomorrow. A change of scenery!

5292

A slightly more shaky day! Tremor was in and out today with some instances of persistence. Alas, not like it was two days ago (virtually gone) or yesterday. Nothing particular that I ate or did to make it happen. Just a blessing, perhaps. Wasn't overwhelming today, and there were times of great stillness, but it was not symptom-free. Onward and onward!

Got a response from the Bye-Lori people--they said it can take a year to clear my system--to keep on taking the supplements. Have to question if they aren't promoting a "Buy-Lori" strategy. But it does make some sense. I'll do my next session with Rebecca and look into ordering another round--round and round we go--where Pylori stops nobody knows.

Will focus on assimilation--getting my system to extract more nutrients from what I'm ingesting. I was a bit hungry today. Had a small chicken burrito and part of a Whole Foods Magic Bar. Yummy, yummy for my tummy! Had a smoothie for breakfast and fruit and yogurt for dinner--plus my daily slug of organic chocolate milk! That's all folks! No more nibbling as I go to bed.

5293

Yesterday was miraculous! Today was a partial miracle. I was fairly quiet all day in terms of tremor, but I was also only wanting to sleep. Today's tremor was more active than yesterday's (when it was almost not there), but the key battle was nodding off. Weather was moderate today--not all that cool.

Went to the chiropractor. He affirmed that all the bodywork I'm doing is producing noticeable effects. Normally, I quiet down after seeing him, but today was shaking a bit after the session. May have been the cool draft in his office--triggered some shaking.

Had lunch at DeeDee's--went easy on the rice. Am eating smaller portions to try and reduce the bulk that my stomach has to deal with. Sent a note to the Bye-Lori people asking them for insight into why I didn't throw off the H-pylori with their product. Noted a mention in their materials stating that sometimes people show positive for antigens but don't have an infection. They also mention recolonization from dental plaque. Is a puzzlement! Is a mystery!

Evening time! And the living is breezy! Fish are jumpin'! Up to the sky! Oh, my!

5294

A virtually tremor-free day! Awoke with almost no tremor and that has persisted for the entire day. Best day in nearly two years! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thanks to the Supreme Spirit who has made it possible. Haven't been exactly sure about how to be. With no symptoms, I feel a bit floaty--as if I've come unanchored from a heavy weight and am floating free.

Had lunch with P. Food tasted good. I came back home and slept, but it was a restful set of naps. I feel energized now--energized and solid, still and quiet.

Have a meeting with the chiropractor in the morning. I slept last night with the heater on low all night. I think that contributed to today's results. I awoke not chilled and never felt so all day.

Looking forward to what tomorrow may bring--more of the same I trust. It's been a breakthrough week starting last Monday. It's like a switch has been toggled and a whole new set of currents are flowing, moving and pulsing. May it be so! May it be so!

I've been checking out my handwriting this week. I believe it's getting larger--and I can make it be so with concentration.

Assimilation is still and issue, but I'm working on it. I realized that since I'm not assimilating completely, I don't need to eat as much as I've been eating. Smaller portions seem to work as well as a lot. I think I'm still maintaining weight despite the processing issue. Just have to eat a little less rice at DeeDee's. Oh, yeah!

5296-5295

Awoke yesterday morning feeling good. Went for a long walk on the baylands. Beautiful day! Had lunch at DeeDee's and came back and napped, and napped, and napped. Symptoms were quiet, but I couldn't stay awake. Awoke late in the evening and just went to bed. So I didn't post anything yesterday.

Been logy today--and chilly. Been napping a lot today as well. Went out for lunch and came back and nodded off. Amazing!

Dreamed last night that I was at my sisters' apartment. Both of them were living together (which is not something that's ever happened). They had a horde of high-tech gear including devices that videotaped the exterior, picked up what neighbors were watching and put it up on one of the many flat screens they had, and other eavesdropping/snooping features. The only problem was that some neighbors had devices that monitored such activity. In the dream, one neighbor appeared outside on one of the video pickups. He was making threatening gestures regarding the fact that one of his signals was being monitored. We dropped his signal and hoped he'd go away.

Got the news that my assault on my H-pylori inmates was not effective. Lab results show that I continue to be affected. Is a puzzlement! The treatments I undertook should have done them in--but did not. That means I'll probably have to go the route of antibiotics! Bummer!

I'm definitely (and don't know if it's related to H-pylori) having problems assimilating food. Everything that goes in seems to come out (eventually) plus some. Will be working with Rebecca on these issues when she gets back next week.

Meeting P for lunch tomorrow. She's down this way for a workshop.

5297

Happy Turkey Day! Big Bird is gone! Was a shaky day--cold in the morning and cool all day. Wrapped up, ran the heater, and still couldn't shake the shaking. Quieter tonight (like during past three nights). Will see if things even out in the morrow.

Met with my daughter late this afternoon. She's looking good--busy but doing well. We had a good visit. I was not at my best while I was with her, but I did OK. These symptoms are relentless!

She is doing a paper on line dancing. She's going to ask me some questions based on my experience dancing and teaching. I pulled up a reference to the history of the activity and sent it to her. How it all began is somewhat sketchy, but there's info out there--just requires some digging.

One of her cousins was in an accident last night. He's in a coma because of a head injury. May he be well--may we all be so.

I dreamed something dramatic last night, but lost what it was about when I awoke--which I did really early in the morning. Later in the early day, a neighbor brought in a carpet cleaning truck and fired it up. It was shake, rattle and noisy for a while--oh yeah!

5298

Had a good acupressure session today. It was early in the day (for me) and weather was quite chilly. Still, managed to quieten down in the session anyway. Left me feeling energetic and clear.

Only napped a short spell today. Tonight's somewhat like the past two nights--symptoms abating as the evening arrives. I'm not as quiet and clear as I was on Monday, but I'm close. Temperature is dropping--will be cold tonight. Heater is running and may do so into the evening as I read.

The acupressure session helped clear my digestive track. Cold weather may be slowing everything although I'm beginning to suspect that I'm not assimilating well. Will experiment with the HCL supplements. They'll boost up the acids in my stomach--hopefully helping to break down what I'm ingesting a bit more completely. At least, that's the theory.

The file I edited on Monday was posted to the Curriki site. Of course, there were a few more corrections that need to made--and then it'll be purrrrrfect! Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!

Oh, yes! I mentioned to the acupressure person that I had edited the number's paper. He said he's about complete with the writing of a 150 page book on yoga. I may edit that manuscript for him. We shall see!

5300-5299

Cold night! Awoke to chilly room! Turned on the heater--first time since last winter.

I was up late last night and missed posting yesterday. I was working on an edit of a summary of the properties of the Natural Numbers 65-96. I didn't know that numbers had so many properties. I learned what triangular numbers are all about. It was a challenging piece of editing work. I got wrapped up in the process and didn't finish up until late. It was the first thing I enjoyed doing and completing in a while.

Tremor is more active--triggered by cold weather. Definitely do not like the coolness! Spent most of today countering the effects of it being cold and dealing with the shakes. Had a warm, spicy lunch at DeeDee's--that helped. DeeDee's is in another zoning battle as they are trying to move down the street a short distance. They are looking at a place in a strip mall that requires building a kitchen--which is not in the zoning plan. Looks like they are coming up against an 11th hour showdown--like what they had to do to get keep their current place. Karma!

Have an acupressure session early in the morning. Hope it counterbalances the cold morning air.

5301

Mostly peaceful day! Slept some and worked on quietening the tremor. Quiet now! Digestion is still slow, but I've stuck with soup for the past two days.

Had a short time this morning when I felt my energy bump up a level. The tremor stopped and the fog cleared--wasn't a large amount of time--but I was aware of it happening.

Walked after lunch. Felt dense and heavy. Feet felt erratic--like my legs were only loosely connected to my torso. Felt better walking downhill rather than up. I'm normally a great hill walker, but not this afternoon.

Dreamed last night that I was having an intense discussion with a woman. She was really upset. It revolved around me not being responsive enough regarding some issues she considered important. It was part dream and part reality (memory) of some past events. I was trying to remain objective and not feed the fire, but I wasn't doing that well. She was storming and shouting. The dream went on for quite a while (in dream time, of course). I'm not sure that we reached any satisfactory conclusion.

I felt today as if things (life, needed actions, progress, and so forth) are stacking up--getting out of control. Things have certainly been stacking up over the past two years--it's just beginning to wear through and get my attention. Moments within moments--growing stronger--grinding away at things! All at the speed of need!

5302

Leonid meteor showers tonight! Not a lot of them this year, but easy to see. Peak is about 8pm, Pacific Time.

Dreamed last night of a flying dream. Such dreams are so cool! Last night, I was near an ocean area with high hills inland. I took off near the beach and looped back inland over the hills. I went up really high--a couple of miles or more. It was peaceful and exhilarating! At one point, I was flying with someone--I was showing him how to control things. He was a guest at the oceanfront and wanted to give it a try. We flew together for a while until he got used to the movements. The dream faded out about then. It was an energizing dream.

I awoke somewhat late and did exercises and ate. Then I went back to bed and slept for about an hour or more. Went for a late lunch (spinach soup). Tremor was on/off all day. Managed to quiet it down with some visualizations. Things are fairly quiet now.

Had surges of anxiety today--waves would come and go. I just wanted to crawl into bed, get quiet and stay warm. Got a call from my daughter--she's coming this way over the Big Bird holiday and we'll visit some. Will be good to see her--it's been a few months since she graduated and moved. She's really busy, but enjoying school.

Time for a meteor shower! Watch the skies! A light show surprise!

5303

Rested/napped a lot today. Walked the baylands after lunch--slowed down toward the end. But, overall a reasonably clear day for me. Went to the library and picked up more stories. I keep being surprised by the quality of stories being published. One book in the last batch, Male of the Species, had several outstanding pieces. My prior on the collection wasn't very high, especially given the title--but I was impressed with what he wrote.

Despite my several naps today, I'm heading for the bed early tonight. Just feel like keeping warm and reading.

No dreams to report. Dreamless in November! To bed, to bed! And unfold the covers of the latest books! Joy, stillness, peace!

5304

Acupressure today! Quieted me down, to the point of me sleeping through most of the day. Just wanted to be still and sleep. Except for walk over to the session and back, I stayed at home. Didn't drive anywhere. Very peaceful!

As evening arrived, I grew even more still. Now, am still and awake. Was noisy around here today--road work, kids, and traffic. I still managed to sleep through it all. Right now, I feel peaceful and still. Been repeating a mantra--May my heart be filled with joy, may my mind be filled with stillness, may my soul be filled with peace. Seems to be working tonight!

I'll probably read into the evening given all the rest I had today. Will most likely walk the baylands tomorrow. Weather has shifted and has been warmer. Today was a great day even though I didn't get out.

Feel like I'm on the cusp of everything--like a breakthrough is imminent or something! We shall see! We shall see! Like the monkey hanging from the banana tree!

5305

Did chiropractor and session with Rebecca today. Came home and napped for an hour. I'm quiet now--still as a bird. Have acupressure session in the morning. Everything at once!

I was fairly shaky today--can't relate it to anything specific. I was hungry after session with R--went and had a bowl of soup, which helped settle me down. I may need to look at my diet again--eat smaller portions more often each day. Digestion is still moving slowly and may be related to meal size. I've been eating three good sized meals every day.

Dreamed something about computers and younger people. Don't recall details.

R is checking to see if I can attend a workshop this weekend about a 3-D healing model. She thought that I would make a good case study, if the instructor's open to having me there. Should be interesting if it works out.

Early down tonight! May all beings be well!

5306

Did laundry today--a day early, but have things to do/places to be in the morrow. Have a chiropractic session in the morning and a session with Rebecca in the afternoon (over in SC). Been in and out of shaking today--napped a couple of times, which helped bring some stillness to the tremor. Feels so good when things quiet down.

Got a note from my friend LL regarding where she's going to settle for a while--Calistoga! Will be a good place for her there. Wish I had some clarity around where I'm to settle. Wish I had some clarity around a lot of issues. Have to keep requesting clearness--it will come! One way or another, it will become clear--I will become clear.

Toward the end of the afternoon some utility trucks pulled up outside my window and began a major street repair. Jack hammers, graders, compressors, and other noise makers churned away for a couple of hours. Not sure what they did--cut a big hole in the street and left a metal slab when they quit for the day. I slept through some of it--amazing!

Rebecca will be in her new office tomorrow. Parking should be easier! Might see Laura there as well--haven't seen her in a while (or Chris). Tomorrow and tomorrow!

5307

Another shaky day! Tremor is active and I'm having difficulty getting quiet. Naps have helped. Also keeping warm. But activity has been intense relative to many past days. But, keep on keeping on and see what's happening! Perhaps it's a healing crisis--may it be so!

Cooler weather has settled in and is not making things easier. Feel like the three bears--too hot, too cold, too in the middle--where is just right?

Sent off sample for H-pylori testing today. Lab should get sample tomorrow and show results quickly (based on last time's turnaround).

Dreamed last night of being in a meeting. Everyone had a laptop. We were reviewing a spreadsheet of data, making sure we all had the same results and information. Nothing exciting, but there was a clarity in the dream and a sense that things were being handled. There were no women in the meeting--it was entirely male. Perhaps was triggered by the set of stories I'm reading called Male of the Species. Only read the first story. It was a good story about an older man and his family. Has some crossover with my life.

Just took the last batch of supplements. Down to just a multivitamin and a fish oil capsule each day. Nice to not be taking a batch of stuff with each meal. So bye-bye H-pylori! Onward I go!

5308

Managed to get in a sunny walk--in between some rain showers and cloudy skies. Tremor was fairly active, especially in the morning with the cooler weather. Rested on and off today--slept a little.

Have my H-pylori sample ready for shipment in the morrow. Finished all of the supplements--so we shall see. I know the supplements had an effect--question is whether it finished the buggers off or not. Here's for them to be finished!

Had a bowl of barley/porcini soup for lunch. Hearty dish!

Ready for an early bed tonight. It's going to be cool tonight--and be so each night in the coming week. Winter is a'coming in!

5309

Raining some here in the late afternoon/early evening. I made it out for a good baylands walk (mit sunshine) before the clouds arrived with light rains.

Got a notice from my health plan that they are not paying for more chiropractic work. I haven't exceeded the number of sessions--they think that the number of treatments I've had should have fixed my problems--and more are unnecessary. I can see their position--that I not use the service for maintenance. I can protest, but I'm not sure it's worth the hassle. I'll see what the chiropractor says and go from there. The session counter resets in January.

Slept some today. Had a good lunch at the Persian cafe--salad, rice, and chicken topped with an okra/tomato sauce. Needed a break from DeeDee's. Still mulling possible plans for the future. Trying to get a clear picture of what I might do and so forth. One day, it will emerge--out of the fog and into the light.

The month zooms by! Suddenly it's the middle of the month already. Almost Thanksgiving! And into the holiday season! Ho! Ho! Ho! It's off we go!

5310

A little shaky today--perhaps the cooler weather is a factor. Drowsed out a few times today. I was feeling OK, but just nodded off without a lot of preamble. Felt mostly clear throughout the day as I went out for lunch and grabbed some things from Trader Joe's. Had a bowl of roasted carrot soup for lunch--hearty and delicious--also warming.

I think I had dreams last night, but they've faded now. I can't recall anything regarding what they were about.

Been trying to think my way through some form of plan regarding what's next. I can't seem to follow any chain of thoughts for more than an instant. As soon as I think a thought another clamors for attention and cuts off any connections. It's like watching scenes flash by as if I were riding in a car. Messages appear on billboards but they don't relate to each other--each triggers a new issue, a new idea. Nothing is linear and connected.

I sit quietly and let things play out. I end up falling asleep somewhere along the way. I begin again! Endless babble--endless monkey mind! Reading stories helps focus my attention for a while. Even that intervention has its limits--as do crossword puzzles. Endless diversions going nowhere. I'm wandering through a mind field!

5311

Acupressure day! Good session! Left me feeling clear. Lay down late in the afternoon and slept for a while. I was so quiet that I drifted off before I knew it.

Felt good this morning when I awoke. It wasn't too chilly when I did exercises. Felt energetic--and even more so after acupressure. The cog-fog is lighter and my digestion is settling down. Had lunch at DeeDee's today. They are moving further into Mt. View. Hope it's still close enough for lunch runs. We shall see! Changes! Always changes!

Dreamed last night about a web site. The dream was triggered by me browsing a new site, Truemor.com, that lets readers post breaking news items. It's the latest brainchild of Guy Kawasaki, ex-Apple evangelist. Company is located in Palo Alto--along with a host of other new ventures (FaceBook, et al).

In the dream, we were posting blocks of info to a site that paid a small fee for each post--something like Amazon's Mechanical Turk. A jumbled up dream firing through the jangled synapses! Oh, let there be the Internet!

5312

Was chilly last night and this morning. I'm layering up but still found it to be cool. Tremor was strong when I awoke. Ended up going back to bed after exercise and breakfast. Sun came out and warmed things and I got dressed, went for a walk, and grabbed some lunch. Afternoon was quiet--read some--nodded off for a short while. Time change catching up with everyone--it's really quiet now--and so am I.

Have an acupressure session in the morning. Right now, I'm clear and steady. Week went by quickly--seemed like a blink and I'm back on the table.

Dreamed last night about something to do with computer modeling. I was working with a group of young people on some project. We each had to build part of a system and merge our efforts. It was a dense dream, but was exciting. We were doing something like the SETI project, but with different goals and objectives.

Continue to feel like I'm on the cusp of an energy shift in how I feel and what I can do. Getting close! I'm (the eternal Self) ready! Away I (we) go!

5313

Election day! Quiet day! Didn't go to the beach today--walked in the local park and stayed close to home. Fairly light symptoms today, but wasn't highly energetic. Felt like reading. Napped a very short time when I dozed off as I read.

Into a somewhat new pattern--not tired enough to fall asleep, but not lively enough to do much. I'm noticing the large number of hours in the day, but can't seem to focus on doing anything constructive--yet. It's getting close. I think I've turned a corner--I just don't have a clear vision of what's next.

Digestion has been a bit slow. Perhaps is related to the cooler weather. Could also involve the reduction of some supplements that I've finished using. Craving some foods that I know would create problems--sweets, fried foods, pizza! But pretty much sticking with my mono-diet--fruit, nuts, cereal, oats, yogurt, cottage cheese, soups, Indian food, kefir, and so forth.

Awaiting the election results--mostly local issues. First time I voted by mail! Makes it easy!

5314

Lighter today! Awoke early (by the clock--time change accounting). Did my exercises, ate, shaved, showered and went for a baylands trek. Sunny but cool! Went to the library and picked up some new books. Had a veggie burrito and came back and read. Nodded off for about 30 minutes.

It's now a bit after 6pm and it's dark outside (time change again). Shortest day coming soon.

Symptoms fairly light today. Have a kink in my back that feels better when I'm horizontal. Only have an acupressure session scheduled this week--leaving time to integrate last week's treatments.

Got a note from RB with a photo of his daughter and her horse. She really took to riding and working in a saddle. She discovered early something she really likes. Good for her!

Have an old tune stuck in my brain--When the red, red robin comes bob-bob-bobbin' along... Something residual from reading a story about a man who was obsessed with Rogers/Hart/Hammerstein. Strange interconnections in the brain!

5316-5315

Yesterday I ended up feeling heavy and dense, and I went horizontal for a lot of the day. Still somewhat in that mode today. The time change is also being felt. Not feeling sleepy, but more like wanting to rest and read. I've mowed through the books I have. Will be heading to the library tomorrow.

Picked up a new electronic toothbrush and water system. So many choices! I managed to find what I needed. My old system sprung a leak. The water spray system developed a crack and water sprays everywhere.

Dreamed last night and elaborate dream about being at a resort with a business team. We put on a musical skit in which I did some solo singing. The music was from the Man of La Mancha. Onward to glory, I go! The second part of the dream was a strategy meeting. Not as interesting as the musical skit, for some people. In the second part, people were standing up and using the overhead to talk out issues. There were a lot of people in the room. Many of the senior people were from the consulting group I once worked with. CS was there and spearheading the event.

Dark outside early with the time switch. I think it's an early out tonight. Onward to glory!

5317

Happy All Souls Day!! Had a session with Rebecca today. She did some lymph drainage as well as skeletal/energy alignments. Symptoms are not present--they were left on the table. I'm a bit drowsy and will go to bed early and read some. But I'm feeling really peaceful and quiet.

She is an excellent coach and always has creative suggestions regarding what I might do or try. I'm fortunate to have her with me on this journey. She and Laura are moving into a new office space. It's across the street from Dharma's--guess I'll have to make plans on grabbing a meal when I'm scheduled there.

Still having tightness/discomfort in my lower right side--twinges and tweaks. All three bodyworkers have had a go at it this week--the area should clear--lots of healing hands.

May all the saints and souls be happy!

5318

Happy All Saints Day!! And the morrow will be All Souls Day!! Dia de los Muertos!

Did an acupressure/Tui Na session today. Felt really good! Have been still and quiet and not needing a nap. Got a bit logy in the late afternoon and rested for a while. Am awake and alert now--hopefully not too much so--I was a bit wired last night and couldn't fall asleep.

Dreamed (somewhere along the way) a "memory" dream about my stepfather's funeral. Didn't realize I'd remembered anything about it, but it played out like a movie in the dream state. I particularly remember tweaking one of his redneck buddies just to stir things up. We were all drinking before heading to the cemetery and later at the wake. I had flown in and went to the hospital, but he had just passed away right before I arrived. I had then stayed on for the funeral--one of the few I've ever experienced. Missed my mother's when she passed away while I was in Hawaii with my daughter.

Have a session with Rebecca in the morrow--on All Souls Day. Feeling good!